Thursday, September 30, 2004
Well.. this is food for thought..
"how much abt urself do u put on ur blog?"
is it reserved privacy? or is it the true us?
Are we blogging to let ppl know the true us? or are we blogging to create an artificial image of ourselves in our "audiences'" mind?
would we put up our deepest & most evil tots and shldn't be told? or are we too afraid to do so as some of our closest frenz may be tuning in?
so it boils down to how true are we on our own blog?
I remember tt I started blogging cuz I found the idea quite cool. It used to be simply abt my activities each day.. gradually, i added more tots.. (like this entry now.. hahaha) currently, althought there's still reserved privacy, i suppose all(if not, most) of my entries are true.. I must admit that i dun put up my darkest tots... but i dun lie abt them either... i simply dun mention them ... wahahahaha..(evil laughter)
The Origin. 9/30/2004 07:06:00 pm
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Hmm.. the incident with Qin Yi's fren set me thinking.. Am I a show-off? I mean I have a mother who like branded stuffs(which is gd.. i suppose) and has nurtured me to like it as well.. thus i get to wear branded gds.. does this present me as a show-off? wld ppl tink tt i'm a show-off as i wear branded gds when i go out with them? is it tt as long as i dun hao lian, i'm not considered a show-off? or will i still be considered as 1? hmm... realli dunno...
The Origin. 9/29/2004 06:43:00 pm
Tuesday, September 28, 2004
Been wanting to put this up.. but i dunno how to write it out.. now i still do not know how to.. but i suppose i muz try in order to move on...
Somehow, i feel tt i've changed quite a bit over the last few mth.. the way i see it, i tink tt it's for worse.. i'm more uncaring, less tolerant, more lazy n less attentive... i muz change all these man.. sigh.. dunno how these came abt it the first place.. sux... now tt i look at it.. y did i let them come into me in the 1st place? time for a change...
The Origin. 9/28/2004 06:48:00 pm
Sunday, September 26, 2004
Was out for a gathering wif Sharon, Jia ming, Sherman, Qian hui, Vincent & Qin yi yest.. So i missed my jia jing wen.. sob sob.. haha.. anyway, the gathering was gd.. met up n toked a lot.. There was some sort of an "entertainment" throughout the whole gathering.. haha.. cuz there was this (jason, i tink) guy from NUS life sciences fac.. haha.. he's trying to date Qin yi & he followed Qin yi to our gathering.. He's such an idiot.. He acts as though the whole world revolves ard himn he is the best.. no matter wat u say, he'll find sth tt's better than u.. and it's always abt him.. He's a show off too!! while on the MRT home, all of a sudden, he took out his quicksilver keychain n showed it to us.. haha.. at tt pt of time, i had an evil tot, i wanted so much to say, "so watz ur pt? it's juz a keychain" haha.. but i didn't.. haha..afterall, u wldn't wanna be sia suay in front of the gal u wanna jio.. haha.. but LUCKILY, Qin yi doesn't like him.. hahahaha.. so realli HENG ARH..
haha.. anyway, he's our entertainment cuz all of us kept commentting abt him behind his back.. haha.. very evil.. but wat can we do? we need to give him some face, so we can't juz sia suay him..(though i hav the great urge to do tt) haha..
at this pt of time, i muz comment tt Jia Ming is realli gd man.. haha.. he cld sit there n look tt guy in the face n listen to him tok for practically the whole evening.. haha.. my new idol.. his endurance is soooo great man.. haha.. i suppose at tt pt of time, i wld try my best to do the same thing.. haha.. afterall, he's onli a guy who's out to impress Qin yi.. naturally, he will try his best to win the rest of us.. haha... quite childish.. haha.. but it's the way some guys tinks.. haha... so if i were in his shoes, i wldn't want to be sia suay or sth.. haha... but the key word here is TRY.. my endurance lvl is quite low 1.. haha...
The Origin. 9/26/2004 08:37:00 am
Friday, September 24, 2004
Received this prose today. Kinda meaningful..
"Youth"
Youth is not a time of life; it is a state of mind; it is not a matter of rosy cheeks, red lips and supple knees; it is a matter of the will, a quality of the imagination, a vigor of the emotions; it is the freshness of the deep springs of life.
Youth means a temperamental pre-dominance of courage over timidity of the appetite, for adventure over the love of ease. This often exists in a man of 60 more than a boy of 20. Nobody grow old merely by a number of years. We grow old by deserting our ideals.
Years may wrinkle the skin, but to give up enthusiasm wrinkles the soul. Worry, fear, self-distrust bows the heart and turns the spirit back to dust.
Where 60 or 16, there is in every human being's heart the lure of wonder, the unfailing childlike appetite of what's next and the joy of the game of living. In the center of your heart and my heart there is a wireless station: so long as it receives messages of beauty, hope, cheer, courage and power from men and from the Infinite, so long are you young.
When aerials are down, and your spirit is covered with snows of cynicism and the ice of pessimism, then you are grown old, even at 20, but as long as your aerials are up, to catch the waves of optimism, there is hope you may die young at 80.
The Origin. 9/24/2004 07:36:00 pm
Thursday, September 23, 2004
Wow.. went over to Bt Panjang Plaza earlier.. Saw a new Gundam model man.. Haha.. is Gundam Seed's Freedom Gundam. Wow.. It's so cool man.. haha.. It's now my new target.. $70+ man.. haha.. muz save money n wait for yr end sale or sth.. haha..
The Origin. 9/23/2004 06:16:00 pm
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
Oh well.. I suppose that I'm a bit too cynical or sth. Yesterday, MWO Ong(My ex-boss in HQ MES) smsed me. He asked abt how I'm doing at Mindef. So I replied and went on to ask how the guy who took over me is. His reply to tt was tt the new guy is ok but he still prefer to have me. The first tot tt came to my mind was, "WTH.. He probably say this juz to make me happy n he probably said the same thing to the guy be4 me."
Thinking back, I feel tt I'm really cynical. He probably means it cuz he bothered to smsed me. Instead of feeling touched or thankful tt he did tt, I had such a bad tot abt him. Of course, there's a slight chance tt my tot was correct but it is probably the slightest chance.
Hmm.. Gotta change this, I suppose.
The Origin. 9/22/2004 07:24:00 pm
Monday, September 20, 2004
Juz finished reading tt story abt S & C today.. Oh well.. from where i left off.. they got their parental approval of their relationship. they studied for their A's together.. n things r gg fine.. then they wait for results n stuffs.. when their results came out, the gal(S) got gd results while the guy(C) got an O for his math(he got A for his 2 A lvl subj n A1 for gp).. S cld go to a foreign uni cuz of her results n rich family... but C can't get a scholarship n his family is poor.. however, S is willing to stay in s'pore with C.. but C is against it as he feels bad cuz he's like hindering her future propects.. Knowing tt S wld insist, C chose to break up with her.. S eventually comes to understand y he initiated it.. so she chose to go overseas.. the last scene is at the airport.. C went to see her off(actually there's loads of stuffs abt C hiding from S at the airport but S eventually finds him).. anyway, there n then they tell each other their true feelings n promised to wait for each other.. then the story kinda ends there..
I dun realli like the ending.. it's like it isn't a ending at all.. haha.. but i suppose it's the best way to end considering how long the story is n it will leave ppl to imagine it.. of course, the actual story is much much better than wat i wrote.. haha.. too bad can't get it out of mindef.. haha...
The Origin. 9/20/2004 06:52:00 pm
Saturday, September 18, 2004
today is great! went on an all-expense paid trip with my mom n sis.. haha.. i onli paid for the bus fare! anyway, we went to amoy rd(i tink it's the correct spelling ba) for lunch.. it's somewhere near the lao pa sah area.. there's a 2 storey hawker centre there.. the food there is cheap n gd man... i ate the wan-tan mee.. wow.. the where the auntie added the wan-tans n cha shao was like f.o.c. 1.. haha..
anyway, after tt, my mom went to a small temple beside the hawker centre.. it's small n old but i kinda like it.. the temple is at a turning of a rd.. from the entrance u can basically see the street.. and along the streets r renovated 2 storey shop-houses like those in chinatown.. and behind the temple, there's a taller building(equally old but sure is newer than the temple) so basically, the temple is surrounded by newer buildings.. so it gives me a feeling of an old world being enclosed by a newer n colder world..realli wished tt i had a camera or at least my camera-hp with me.. realli liked tt place..
oh! there's oso some kind of park behind the temple.. the entrance of the park is beside the temple.. haha.. i wld hav went to explore if i were there alone or with someone i can psycho to go with me.. but too bad.. hope i'll get another chance to go there again.. n with a camera.. n with someone to explore n walk with me.......
The Origin. 9/18/2004 06:37:00 pm
Friday, September 17, 2004
ok.. the story is sth like this..
C is the guy while S is the gal..B is C's best friend..
so C got into this JC n he can't click wif his clz-mates. Then a stupid "bitch"(as in the story) framed him of hurting her n not apologizing for it. thus he is being ostrocised by loads of ppl..
then S came along and was introduced to him by B. S became very concerned abt C's problem.. And slowly she n B helped him to go through it.. and slowly C and S developes feelings for each other... blah blah blah.. then the writer goes on abt how they dated n got S's parents' approval abt their relationship..... then i dunno liao.. cuz got loads of stuffs to do over there.. hee.. haven finish it.. tt's y i wanna find it.. haha.. do u guys know abt it?
haha.. been printing loads n loads of stuffs for a conference on tue.. haha.. practically spent the whole of today printing n printing... haha.. siao liao.. i can still hear the printers sound now.. haha..
anyway, went to the gym there after work.. haha.. today ends at 5!!!! hahaha! did some work out before coming back.. need to lose weight man.. growing fatter n fatter.. haha.. saw loads of muscular guys working out there.. haha.. dunno if i'll ever attain those kinda bodies.. hahahaha.. in my dreamz probably..
went to take the last bus from mindef at ard 1830.. haha.. a gal(abt 20 over) came over n asked me if the last bus has gone.. hahaha.. she isn't very chio but her figure is very gd.. n she sounds like a flirt man... hahaha... the size of her skirt is probably at least 1/2 a size smaller than her ass size man.. hahaha.. like stretched to the limit.. hahahahaha... oso dunno y i'm bitching abt her here.. hahaha.. probably dun like her rite from the start.. and probably cuz i feel like writing more stuffs... hahahaha.... very talkative today..
The Origin. 9/17/2004 07:46:00 pm
Thursday, September 16, 2004
hey.. hav any of u guys read an online love story abt 2 ppl finding each other in their JC? the character names r S, C, B...... the main charcters r S n C.. yah.. i read it from some stuffs my upperstudy left behind for me in Mindef.. realli want to post it here but can't transport it out of mindef.. hav any of u guys read it????
The Origin. 9/16/2004 08:53:00 pm
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
Wahaha.. went onto the Mindef intranet e-forum today.. wow.. there's like a whole list of ppl who likes jia jing wen... oh man.. n they even went thru the troubles to upload her photos on the intranet.. haha.. can open a fan club for the ppl there liao..
The Origin. 9/15/2004 07:27:00 pm
Monday, September 13, 2004
lolz.. caught an episode of"The Heavenly Sword And The Dragon Sabre" yesterday. Zhao min is sooooo chio man.. hahaha.. found out the actress's name, she's jia jing wen.. haha.. i'm gonna watch tt show every week from now on.. wahahahaha...
The Origin. 9/13/2004 06:59:00 pm
Sunday, September 12, 2004
hahaha.. hav u ever been in incidents whereby ppl u dunno starts talking to u n they starts to complain to u.. hahaha.. juz realise tt I hav quite a few of such incidents.. hahaha.. on thu, i was at the recreation centre at mindef.. then i saw tis aunty who was cleaning up the place.. she simply started complaining to me abt how her colleague sux n tt the colleague is getting more pay.. then she went on abt wanting to go n tok to her boss abt it.. haha.. oso dunno y.. i suppose tt she's bored n super pissed wif her colleague.. n she simply wanted to let off some steam.. n i so happened to be there.. hahaha...
The Origin. 9/12/2004 01:04:00 pm
Saturday, September 11, 2004
this is from my es fren.. hee.. known as durian..
Title: missing rib.
A girl in love asked her boyfriend..
Girl (g): Tell me... who do you love most in this
world?
Boy (b): You, of course!
(g): In your heart, what am I to you?
(b): The boy thought for a moment and looked
intently in her eyes and said, "You are my rib.
It
was said that God saw that Adam was lonely,
during his sleep; God took one of Adam's rib
and
created Eve. Every man has been searching
for
his missing rib, only when you find the woman
of
your life; you'll no longer feel the lingering
ache in
your heart."
After their wedding, the couple had a sweet
and
happy life for a while. However, the youthful
couple
began to drift apart due to the busy schedule
of
life and the never-ending worries of daily
problems.... their life became mundane.... All
the
challenges posed by the harsh realities of life
began! to gnaw away their dreams and love for
each other... The couple began to have more
quarrels and each quarrel became more
heated..
One day, after the quarrel, the girl ran out of
the
house.... At the opposite side of the road, she
shouted, "You don't love me!" The boy hated
her
childishness and out of impulse,
retorted, "Maybe,
it was a mistake for us to be together! You
were
never my missing rib!" Suddenly, she turned
quiet
and stood there for a long while.... He
regretted
what he said but words spoken are like thrown
away water, you can never take it back. With
tears, she went home to pack her things and
was
determined in breaking-up.
Before she left the house she said, "If I'm
really not
your missing rib, please let me go....." She
continued, "It is less painful this way... let us
go on
our separate ways and search for our own
partners..."
Five years went by....
He never remarried but he had tried to find out
about her life indirectly...... She had left the
country
and came back.... She had married a foreigner
and divorced..... He felt anguished that she
never
waited for him. In the dark and lonely night, he
lit
his cigarette and felt the lingering ache in his
heart. He couldn't bring himself to admit that he
was missing her..
One day, they finally met.... At the airport, a
place
where there were many reunions and good-
byes.... He was going away on a business trip.
She was standing there alone, with just the
security door separating them. She smiled at
him
gently.
(b): How are you?
(g): I'm fine. How about you... Have you found
your
missing rib?
(b): No.
(g): I'll be flying to New York in the next
flight.
(b): I'll be back in 2 weeks time. Give me a call
when you are back... You know my number...
Nothing has changed.
With a smile, she turned around and waved
good-
bye.. Good-bye.....
One week later, he heard of her death. She
had
perished in New York. In the event that
shocked
the world..
Midnight..... Once again, he lit his
cigarette..... And
like before, he felt the lingering ache in his
heart....
He finally knew, she was the missing rib that he
had carelessly broken....
(She was my missing rib but does she knows..
My
love for her last forever even after this
lifetime...
but time has play a cruel joke on me. If only i
had
the courage to ask her to stay when she left, if
only
i had the courage to ask her back to my side..
if
only... )
this story is actually a flash animation but was
unavailable in the net...please copy it into
ur
bulletin board..share this with everyone... dun let
love be only a memory...~*~
The Origin. 9/11/2004 09:39:00 pm
hee.. added yet another link! realli touching 1.. courtesy of cedric who introduced me to it.. hee...
here's a story.. from cedric 2!
100 days ...
Peter and Tina are sitting in the park doing
nothing, but just gazing into the sky, while all
their friends are having fun with their beloved
half.
Tina: I'm so bored. Just wish I have a boyfriend
now to spend time with.
Peter: I guess we're the only leftovers. We're
the only person who isn't with a date now. (both
sigh n silence for a while)
Tina: I think I have a good idea. Lets play a
game
Peter: Eh? What game?
Tina: Eem..It's quite simple. You be my
boyfriend for 100 days and I'll be your
girlfriend for 100 days. what do you think?
Peter: Oookay..Anyway I don't have any plan for
the next few months.
Tina: You sound like you aren't looking forward
to it at all. Cheer up. Today will be our first
day and our first date. Where should we go?
Peter: What about a movie? I heard that there is
a really great movie in theater now.
Tina: Seems like I don't have any better idea
than this. Lets move. (went to watch their
movies and sent each other home)
Day 2:
Peter and Tina went to a concert together, and
Peter bought Tina a keychain with a star.
Day 3:
They went shopping together for a friend's
birthday present. Share an ice-cream together
and hugged each other for the first time.
Day 7:
Peter drove Tina up onto a mountain and they
watch the sunset together. When the night came
and the moon glowed, they said sat on the grass
gazing at the stars together. A meteor passed
by. Tina mumbled something.
Day 25:
Spend time at a themepark and got onto
rollercoasters, and ate hotdogs and cotton
candy. Peter and Tina got in the haunted house
and Tina grabbed someone's hand instead of
Peter's hand by accident. They laughed together
for a while.
Day 67:
They drove pass a circus and decided to get in
to watch the show. The midget asked Tina to play
a part as his assistant in the magic show. Went
around to see other entertainments around after
the show. Came to a fortune teller and she just
said "Treasure every moment from now on" and a
tear rolled down the fortune teller's cheek.
Day 84:
Tina suggested that they go to the beach. The
beach wasn't so crowded that day. They have
their first kiss with each other just as the sun
is setting.
Day 99:
They decided to have a simple day and is
deciding to have a walk around the city. They
sits down onto a bench.
1:23 pm
Tina: I'm thirsty. Lets rest for a while first.
Peter: Wait here while I go buy some drinks.
What would you like?
Tina: Eem...Apple juice will be just fine.
1:43 pm
Tina waiting for about 20 minutes and Peter
havent return. Then someone walked up to her.
Stranger: Is your name Tina?
Tina: Yes, and may I help you?
Stranger: Justnow down there on the street a
drunk driver has crashed into a guy. I think its
your friend.
Tina ran over to the spot with the stranger and
sees Peter lying on the floor with blood over
his face and her apple juice still in his hands.
The ambulance came and she went to the hospital
with Peter.
Tina sat outside the emergency room for five and
a half hours. The doctor came out, and he sigh.
11:51 pm
Doctor: I'm sorry, but we did the best we could.
He is still breathing now but God would take him
away from us very soon. We found this letter
inside his pocket.
The doctor hands over the letter to Tina and she
goes into the room to see Peter. He look weak
but peaceful. Tina read the letter and then she
burst into tears. Here is what the letter said.
Tina, our 100 days is almost over. I had fun
with you during all these days. Although you may
be greedy sometimes and less thoughtful, but
these all brought happiness into my life. I have
realize that you are a really cute girl and
blamed myself for never taken the time to
knowing that. I have nothing much to ask for,
but I just wish that we can extend the day. I
want to be your boyfriend
forever and wish that you can be beside me all
the time. Tina, I love you.
11:58
Tina: (sobbing) Peter. Did you know what was the
wish I made on the night there was a meteor. I
asked God to let us last forever. We were
suppose to last 100 days so Peter! You can't
leave me! I LOVE YOU, but can you come back to
me now? I love you Peter. I LOVE YOU.
As the clock struck twelve, Peter's heart
stopped beating. It was 100 days.
NOTE*
Tell the guy or girl that you love them before
its too late. You never know whats going to
happen tomorrow. You never know who will be
leaving you and never return.
The Origin. 9/11/2004 09:35:00 pm
Friday, September 10, 2004
hee.. added some fun links.. try them out... especially xiao xiao
The Origin. 9/10/2004 06:21:00 pm
hee.. actually life now isn't so bad.. my boss is like always not ard.. so I basically free to do watever i want.. juz tt i muz finish watever he wants.. so it's kinda gd.. however, they ppl there r mainly juz there to work.. there's little communication among the ppl.. including the NSF 2.. so it's kinda sad..
The Origin. 9/10/2004 06:08:00 pm
Thursday, September 09, 2004
oh well... I suppose i can now be officially considered to be in Mindef. hope I won't screw up big time or anything.. haha.. but in a few weeks time, I'm gonna hav my own desk at work.. haha.. nice, rite? but dunno if I can keep it.. haha..
The Origin. 9/09/2004 07:05:00 pm
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
haiz.. I'm really in a dilema now. The question is whether i shld stay at mindef or I shld juz say i dun wanna take up the job.
1st of all, there's the language problem. My english isn't that good while my job requires me to edit minutes, audits and stuffs. Well.. This can be learnt over time. And if i carry on with the job, I feel tt my english wld improve.
Next, the environment there is more of like work work work.. Seldom do we(the NSFs) communicate with each other. My upper-study even goes for lunch alone everyday. kinda a sad life.. haiz..
Then, the workload is terrible. My upper-study has been doing o.t. everyday since I was there.. haha..
of course there r gd pts too..
1st, my boss is quite a ns person. N many of the big shots ard there r easy to talk to..
Furthermore, I believe I can learn many things from them.. Like the way to bring urself n stuffs..
so basically, my benefits wld only be seen after 2 yrs.. while in the short run, i'll hav to suffer on the psychological side.. haha.. dunno how oso..
The Origin. 9/08/2004 07:18:00 pm
Monday, September 06, 2004
Juz went to mindef today.. well.. i'm now under probation.. haha.. which means, they will kick me away if i screw up.. haha.. Anyway, I'm the p.a. of the army R.S.M..... well.. wat i do now requires more brain than wat i hav been doing in MES.. the most difficults 1 r probably to take down (readable) minutes of meeting n to write speeches for the R.S.M...
cosidering my handwriting n my england.. i tink they r gonna be big problem man.. hahahaha... oh well... juz i'll gif it a shot.. haha..
anyway, the R.S.M. is a nice guy(so far).. easy to tok to.. oh! he said sth which i feel is realli meanful.. "wat is gd is to do the right things, not do things right" to do the latter is simply to be efficient but to be able to do the formal, is to be a whole lot better...
The Origin. 9/06/2004 06:51:00 pm
Sunday, September 05, 2004
hahaha.. yest was nothing compared to today... now i'm super shagged... hahaha... went to pasir ris at 3 yest.. haha.. saw a gal won the 1st prize of a compeitition by chuang yi(comics printing company).. she won a stack of all the comics she wants up to her height.. i'm soooo jealous mam.. wanted to win it... haha...
anyway, i was meeting Kenn to buy the food.. we were the advanced party.. we reached the chalet at 4.. checked in n stuffs.. while waiting for the rest to come(which they happily do so at 730), we went for a swim.. n slack ard.. we saw a grp of outdoor activity club ppl.. they were there to use the equipment..
anyway, the fun onli came at night.. we were playing dai dee after the bbq... n we were yelling n scolding each other like nobody's business.. haha.. then we got so high tt we started taking some realli stupid photos...there was the "bitchy" kelvin, "big show" yi en, "xiao bai" kang hao n a whole load of "horny bastards"... haha.. damn funny.. will upload it when i hav the time..
then today, i woked up at 3 then went walking on the beach.. turned out tt there's loads off ppl camping there.. so i went back..
we later went for a swim at 8.. after tt we came back for lunch.. but a gd lot of us went to slp.. kept slping after tt... haha.. like pig..
The Origin. 9/05/2004 06:46:00 pm
Saturday, September 04, 2004
I'm soooo shag now.. haha.. went to sentosa on thuto recce n prepare for the cohesion day on fri.. stayed in the holiday chalet over there.. it sux man.. there's onli 1 air-con for 1 bedroom n none in the living rm.. then there's onli 1 toilet.. then all the stuffs there r like left over fr the british time.. they r soooo old man.. haha.. so dun go for tt chalet if u ever wanna book 1..
anyway, i walked a lot during the last 2 days.. haha.. practically the whole of sentosa.. cuz for the cohesion day, they were playing some kind of amzing race.. we went to the $5 tree, southern most tip, church(bet u didn't know it exists over there), siloso beach, merlion walk, native hut vilage, ferry terminal, dragon trail n the clasberg sky-tower.. so shag man.. haha.. but realli funny too.. looking at them play those games n getting lost along the way..
later at 3, i'm still gg for a chalet wif the OETI plt in pasir ris.. hope i dun fall sick.. haha...
The Origin. 9/04/2004 08:56:00 am
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
juz got my posting today.. gg to mindef to work as clerkon monday. haha.. tt place is soooooo clse to my hse man.. haha.. but dunno how is it there.. haha.. hope tt it isn't very bad over there.. haha..
The Origin. 9/01/2004 08:58:00 pm