Friday, March 31, 2006
Continuous Partial Attention (CPA)No matter how my GP teacher used to encourage us to read the Newsweek, I did not for once sit down for a few hours to read the magazine. However, some years after JC, I now do sit down to read the magazine... Once in a while, of course. The point is that I do read it and to some extent, I suppose I am capativated by the info. Why else would I read, if not? Anyway, I don't read a whole issue, only parts of it. I stumbled across the following article while reading the latest edition of Newsweek (Courtesy of Ma'am Tan) -
(Some) Attention Must Be Paid.
The article was about a syndrome called Continuous Partial Attention (CPA). Linda Stone, a former Apple and Microsoft executive, noticed the syndrome in a group of test users. The syndrome is basically derived from our desire to be constantly connected to the rest of the world via emails, SMSes and instant messages - "a live node on the network". According to the writer, Steven Levy, "a live Black-Berry or even a switched-on mobile phone is an admission that your commitment to your current activity is as fickle as Renee Zellweger's wedding vows."
Simply put, "We're not ever in a place where we can make a commitment to anything" - Linda Stone.
I have always found it distracting or impolite for people to be constantly preoccupied with SMS-ing when they are out as a group or engaged in any form of interactions with people. Not that I am very polite myself, I do get preoccupied with SMS-ing while out too. However, if you think about it, this action says that you are not really that interested in or enjoying the company.
On this note, I once read about how some people use SMS-ing as a cover for the nervousness they are feeling at that point in time.
By the way, if you take some time off to read the whole article, you'll find the irony of the story.
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Had this nice little conversation just before work ended today. I found it very funny at that time.
Caller: Hi, just to check, XXX is not in the office, right? So is the meeting still on?
Me: erm.. XXX is back in the office.
Caller: Is it?
Me: Yes, Ma'am.
Caller: Are you sure? Cuz my boss says that XXX is with him in another place.
Me: Yes, Ma'am. I am sure. He is sitting in the office right now.
Caller: Cannot be wat.
Me: Then do you want me to take a look again to confirm?
Caller: Yes, go n see.
Me: (I knew XXX was in cuz he just stepped in and spoke to me.) Yes, Ma'am. I am looking at him right now.
Caller: Hmm.. Then who is my boss with right now?
My first thought was: Kuo tio gui arh. (See ghost arh)......
The Origin. 3/31/2006 05:48:00 pm
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
How Much Of You Is Really You?This is a question of identity.
I believe that who we are depends alot upon who nurtured us and how we were nurtured. A lot of teenagers try to run away from this and make statements like, "This is me." and so on. I feel that at the age of 20, they spent at least 8 years of their lives under the influence of the people who brought them up. As for the following 12 years, most of them were influenced by their friends and people the meet as they grew. However, they remained very much under the constant influence of the people who brought them up.
A large part of who they become after 20, is still dependable on their childhood. The initial values they were initially exposed to in childhood will eventually mould the values they grow to stand by. The way they treat others depends on the ways they saw their parents or siblings (maybe) treat others. In short, we cannot run away from our childhood, we are who we are because of the way we are nurtured.
The Origin. 3/29/2006 07:38:00 pm
Monday, March 27, 2006
Sudden DeathI suppose most of you have already heard about the SAF Army Officer who collapse while going through the Singapore Biathlon yesterday. I do not know him in person but it certainly affects when death come to someone you see almost every other day at work.
Death is a promise made to all of us since day one. That is a fact. The only uncertainties are how and when we die. Do we die while running or do we "wither away in some bed" (a quote off a friend's blog or do we die in a car accident? Do we die at age 20 or 40 or 60? All these we do not know. We are only given the promise that the life bestowed to us would eventually be taken away.
Then what is life but a promise to die?
PS: I am not being suicidal here. Really!
The Origin. 3/27/2006 06:59:00 pm
Sunday, March 26, 2006
SystemsI did not mention any issues about V for Vendetta in my previous post cuz I felt that I would not be able to substantiate so many issues at one go. Anyway, towards the end of the film, most of the key players in the plot were killed off. Yes, V, the chancellor and the chancellor's right hand man were all killed off. Despite this, the plan that was already set in motion, did not stop. The march continued towards the government building. The "system" (military) to protect the building was already in place. Without the key players (Chancellor or Right hand man), the system could not execute what it was meant to do - to shoot at the protesting parties.
Well.. We are living in a world run by systems. System of education, system of purchase, public transport system, power grids, library systems, law and order - all of which are man-made systems to run our everyday lives. It is through these systems that we gain the "smooth" flows in our daily lives. Because these systems become part and parcel of our daily lives, we forget a simple and obvious point, they are created and run by people. There are loopholes in the systems because we created them. There are lapses in the systems because we are a part of them and some of us run them.
Since there are loopholes, there are probably times whereby people are "victimised" by the system as they may for some reasons overlook portions of the system. And also times when people see the loopholes and cheat the systems. At this point in time, who is to separate the victims from the cheaters? The people who run the systems.
People being people, we may use our emotions to judge the senarioes and may believe in the "victims". However, this will represent a lapse in the system and an avenue for the cheaters to cheat the system. Thus a lapse in the system, and also an injustice for those faithful to the system.
On the other hand, the people running the system may choose to "go by the book" and refrain from judging. This closes the avenue for cheats yet opens the avenue for victimisation (is there such a word?) to occur. Thus the "smooth" running and accountability for the system, at the same time, a form of injustice for who unwittingly fall into the situation of being victims of the unhumanly systems.
Based on the simple theory of action and reaction, I agree with the former. If I were a victim of the system, it is natural for me to argue that people should follow the first stand. And yes, I will definitely be angry. They should understand my plight!
However, if I were just a by-stander, abstracted from the situation, I would agree with the latter. It is easier to manage if you were to simply go by the book, not personal judgement. It is probably right that we feel this way because we are so used to systems that we lose our trust in our own judgement and emotions. I shall not dwell on it.
Ha.. This is as good as sitting on the fence, I know. And as a friend commented, "This is so Kenneth."
Yet, I do not ask that you, my readers, see things from my view or not make a stand, but only that you understand the both sides of the issue.
On this note, may I also ask for your comments if this entry is at all understandable to you? or is it confusing?
The Origin. 3/26/2006 06:48:00 pm
Saturday, March 25, 2006
Listen & AnswerIn recent times, I was conversing with a few people through sms, msn and face to face conversation. I wonder if it is me or them, cuz I asked simple questions like "So what is your choice of course?", "Which uni are you going to?" and "What are your test results?"
these are bl***y simple and direct questions but I got some answers like, "I got an idea", "I going to same as XXX", and "bla bla bla" (i forgot), respectively.
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Oh btw, I was in Carrefour in SUNTEC ytd. Apparently they have a new concept for saving some shelf space - they put Lays, Doritoes chips along the long diagonal travellator. So you can pick your chips along the way. I found it a good marketing strategy. the only problem was tt some some customers are very undecisive - me and my friend. We went down and up and down the travellator as we couldn't decide the flavour or which packet (cuz some of the packaging were badly done). thot tt it was rather lame to go up n down just for a packet of chips.
The Origin. 3/25/2006 10:20:00 pm
V is for VendettaI went to watch this film yesterday. Wow.. I was blown away! Catch it if you can! A definite must-watch despite it being a comic-to-screen movie. The storyline by itself is amazing with the various ideas involved and finally, the directors weaved it into an impactful film.
I thought it to be amazing that the singular could weave the plans and eventually led to the grand finale at the end of the film. First, he grabbed the attention, broadcasted and introduced the icon of rebel (idea) - the fawke mask. He then asked the people to join him on 5 Nov, in a yr. Through the span of 1 yr, he showed the people the power of the ideas behind the mask - an unstoppable force despite the government's constant effort to play it down. Then he gave the people the power of the idea - a mask and cloak for all. All these falling into place, the revolution occured 1 yr later from his introduction. This eventually ended with a grand finale - the only explosion in the whole film. This, I thought is the idea of the directors to make a climax and a final conclusion to the whole story - bound to give you an impact and later reflect on the ideas in the show.
Appended is but a small part of the show but I found it a strong idea -
"I don't know who you are. Please believe. There is no way I can convince you that this is not one of their tricks. But I don't care. I am me, and I don't know who you are, but I love you.
I have a pencil. A little one they did not find. I am a women. I hid it inside me. Perhaps I won't be able to write again, so this is a long letter about my life. It is the only autobiography I have ever written and oh God I'm writing it on toilet paper.
I was born in Nottingham in 1957, and it rained a lot. I passed my eleven plus and went to girl's Grammar. I wanted to be an actress.
I met my first girlfriend at school. Her name was Sara. She was fourteen and I was fifteen but we were both in Miss. Watson's class. Her wrists. Her wrists were beautiful. I sat in biology class, staring at the picket rabbit foetus in its jar, listening while Mr. Hird said it was an adolescent phase that people outgrew. Sara did. I didn't.
In 1976 I stopped pretending and took a girl called Christine home to meet my parents. A week later I enrolled at drama college. My mother said I broke her heart.
But it was my integrity that was important. Is that so selfish? It sells for so little, but it's all we have left in this place. It is the very last inch of us. But within that inch we are free.
London. I was happy in London. In 1981 I played Dandini in Cinderella. My first rep work. The world was strange and rustling and busy, with invisible crowds behind the hot lights and all that breathless glamour. It was exciting and it was lonely. At nights I'd go to the Crew-Ins or one of the other clubs. But I was stand-offish and didn't mix easily. I saw a lot of the scene, but I never felt comfortable there. So many of them just wanted to be gay. It was their life, their ambition. And I wanted more than that.
Work improved. I got small film roles, then bigger ones. In 1986 I starred in "The Salt Flats." It pulled in the awards but not the crowds. I met Ruth while working on that. We loved each other. We lived together and on Valentine's Day she sent me roses and oh God, we had so much. Those were the best three years of my life.
In 1988 there was the war, and after that there were no more roses. Not for anybody.
In 1992 they started rounding up the gays. They took Ruth while she was out looking for food. Why are they so frightened of us? They burned her with cigarette ends and made her give them my name. She signed a statement saying I'd seduced her. I didn't blame her. God, I loved her. I didn't blame her.
But she did. She killed herself in her cell. She couldn't live with betraying me, with giving up that last inch. Oh Ruth. . . .
They came for me. They told me that all of my films would be burned. They shaved off my hair and held my head down a toilet bowl and told jokes about lesbians. They brought me here and gave me drugs. I can't feel my tongue anymore. I can't speak.
The other gay women here, Rita, died two weeks ago. I imagine I'll die quite soon. It's strange that my life should end in such a terrible place, but for three years I had roses and I apologized to nobody.
I shall die here. Every last inch of me shall perish. Except one.
An inch. It's small and it's fragile and it's the only thing in the world worth having. We must never lose it, or sell it, or give it away. We must never let them take it from us.
I don't know who you are. Or whether you're a man or a woman. I may never see you or cry with you or get drunk with you. But I love you. I hope that you escape this place. I hope that the world turns and that things get better, and that one day people have roses again. I wish I could kiss you.
Valerie"
On a separate note, it didn't turn out as bad as I thought. Some things are still the way it was. Yet, some were lost over time.
The Origin. 3/25/2006 07:33:00 pm
Thursday, March 23, 2006
Public vs Private"...the moment someone keeps an eye on what we do, we involuntarily make allowances for that eye, and nothing we do is truthful. Having a public, keeping a public in mind, means living in lies." "...a person is one thing in private and something quite different in public. For Franz, living in truth meant breaking down othe barriers between the private and the public."Quotes from "Unbearble Lightness of Being", again...
Which type of people are you? One who believe in the former or one who believes in the latter?
The Origin. 3/23/2006 08:24:00 pm
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
CompetitionDuring a casual conversation with my students, it came to my concern that there is abeit too much competition amongst the students in secondary school. According to my students, they came for tuition "in secret" - they kept it a secret from their classmates. The reason being, their classmates would become wary of them should their tuition lessons become known. Become wary means that their classmates would work harder to overtake them. And according to them, this is not seen in selected few but most of their classmates. How scary is that? I did not even bother if whoever in my class was going for tuition during secondary 4. I was competitive in the sense of wanting to get higher position but it wasn't about wanting to win anyone. But I see it my students and their classmates, this harsh world of competition and some hints of backstabbing. I find it scary.... Is this the world you want to bring a child into?
On a much lighter note, catch this
commercial starring Kate Beckinsale. OMG! This is probably the best commercial Pepsi ever had!
The Origin. 3/21/2006 10:40:00 pm
Monday, March 20, 2006
Lucky Colour of the Month is Purple!Haha.. Went for tightening of my braces today and I chose purple as the colour for the month. Haha.. I know it is a bit gayish but I thought what the heck, just try. I wanted to go for orange but Dr. Boey (she is quite chio!) said that orange is more brittle compared to the others.
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PerspirationHa.. I never like to perspire. Especially not when I am going shopping or whatever. It is very bothersome to perspire when you are outside, you get 'sticky" and you can't just step into a bathroom to shower. I never quite understand why with the network of underpasses in Orchard Rd, some people are still walking on the road under the sun and perspiring. Ha... The only times I don't mind perspiring are when I'm exercising. Other than that, no perspiring please.
The Origin. 3/20/2006 06:39:00 pm
Sunday, March 19, 2006
StupidityI was so physically and mentally shagged out yesterday. I guess I have yet to fully recover from my flu. I just it was made worse by waking up at 5 am, writing minutes, going to look after kids at 11, shopping in orchard at 1500 for underwear. Yes! Underwear from none other than Calvin Klein. I got the red colour underwear (mentioned previously) for my dad. I thought that it was quite embarrassing to go shopping for underwear and not know what size to get. I had to step out of the boutique for a min to ask my mom about my dad's size.
Had dinner with Choo Hui and co after shopping. Sorry guys. I was too tired to stay any longer.
Got home at 2300 hrs only to hear my mom talked about a certain stupid fellow who was caught cheating on his wife for the second time. First and foremost, he got caught 2 yrs back for dating another lady. He asked for forgiveness and was accorded so by the very person who caught him, his wife.
2 yrs later, he is now involved with another lady and is stupid enough to get caught. And how did he get caught? his wife read the sms saved in his hp. Not that I support his actions but I find it extremely stupid to save those smses in your hp, allowing your wife chance to read it. once again, he asked for forgiveness. bloody shit. The first thought of mine was, "don't forgive, divorce."
Then I wonder.. Did such men once been through this phase of their lives, swearing at older men who were unfaithful? And ten years down the road, they, for some reasons, get involved in infidelity?
A quote from his wife, "I busy earning money, that f***er busy f***ing around."
Once again, I must reiterate that being unfaithful to the spouse does not apply to the men only. the opposite can be true as well. (haha.. i just need to say this for us, men.)
On a lighter note, I came across this half-A4 (izzit B4???) size "wallet" from Quicksilver and Gravis. It is something like a wallet with more space for you to put in your mp3 player, keys, pen etc. It is about 5 cm thick and opens all the way up like a book. Hmm.. I thought that it is quite nice but not very useful since it is kinda big. Plus, I am one of those lazy pigs who are simply too lazy to move cards from one wallet to another. (seriously, I never quite understand how some girls are so hardworking as to do so).
So why the hell am I going through all this? ha.. I am actually looking for a pencil case and am looking for those kind whereby you can slot your stationaries by the insides. the "wallet" from Quiksilver is something like what I am looking for, just that I want to put stationaries. You get what I mean? Neater this way....
So do you guys know of any places that sell such pencil cases? Or small and nice pencil cases also can.. like the black colour esprit one that i have been using for so many yrs...
The Origin. 3/19/2006 09:59:00 pm
Saturday, March 18, 2006
Standard TemplateHa.. Why am I blogging at 7 am on a bloody Saturday morning? I woke up early to work on some minutes before I go out later in the day. Why am I working on a Saturday? My understudy is coming on Monday and probably a sudden jolt in morale has given me strength to work. Haha.. lame..
Anyway, just to state an observation about Chemical Engineering, most of the guys I have came across and are going there are egoistic people who think that they are probably the biggest f*** in the whole universe. Just sit down and listen to someone complain about meeting such a guy, and you will find that there is high chnaces that the guy is going to Chemical Engineering. I think this is a standard template.
The Origin. 3/18/2006 07:18:00 am
Thursday, March 16, 2006
The Kind Of Look We Wish To Live Under
“We all need someone to look at us. We can be divided into four categories according to the kind of look we wish to live under.
The first category longs for the look of an infinite number of anonymous eyes, in other words, for the look of the public. This is the case with the German singer, the American actress, and even the tall, stooped editor with the big chin…..
The second category is made up of people who have a vital need to be looked by many eyes. They are the tireless hosts of cocktail parties and dinners. They are happier than the people in the first category, who, when they lose their public, have the feeling that the lights have gone out in the room of their lives. This happens to nearly all of them sooner of later. People in the second category, on the other hand, can always come up with eyes they need….
Then there is the third category, the category of people who need to be constantly before the eye of the people they love. Their situation is as dangerous as the situation of people in the first category. One day the eyes of their beloved will close, and the room will go dark…
And finally there is the fourth category, the rarest, the category of people who live in the imaginary eyes of those who are not present. They are the dreamers. Franz, for example. He traveled to the borders of Cambodia only for Sabina. As the bus bumped along the Thai road, he could feel her eyes fixed on him in a long stare..”
This excerpt is from "The Unbearble Lightness of Being" by Milan Kundera. My initial thought (and I still agree now, in a sense) is that I belong to category 4. I am living under the imaginary eyes of somebody from the past. Somebody whom i doubt would ever look at me again. Yet, it is under this pair of eyes that I am moving on in the direction I set. Hmm.. Or is the direction being set by the eyes, not me? Am I moving in this direction in hope that the pair of eyes would look at me again? How pathetic is this? Ha.. A pathetic dreamer, I am. But there is progress and there is development, so I suppose it isn't very bad to be under that pair of eyes. (And I don't think that I am becoming an asshole or whatever, so it should be good.)
However, after further thoughts, I think that this categorisation is too stagnant and too absolute in a sense. Too stagnant: I believe that people change over time. I do not believe that a person would be stuck to one kind of categorisation (assuming only these 4) all his or her life. At a certain point in time, one may be in a particular category but due to changes like (in the excerpt) losing their public or losing the people they love, one may change to another category. In addition, categorisation can be based on situation and not on the desire of the person. For example, a star may be in category 1 but what he/she actually longs for is to be in category 3.
Too absolute: Being in one category does not mean that the person does not mind the looks of the groups in other categories. the person is still affected by the other groups of people but he/she is more affected by the group in his/her category as compared to the rest.
For me, I am currently in category 4. What I long for is to be in category 3 - to live under the eyes of the one I love. To me, it matters but it doesn't really matter what the public thinks about me (who cares?), nor does it really matter what the people I know think about me but it really really matters what that one person think about me. And at this point in time, (since there is no one person) it really matters how that "pair of eyes" would see me if it does look in my direction, at me. I feel that being in such a circumstance (wanting to be in category 3) is completely natural. Probably because of my desire to be there, I am very afraid of losing the eyes of that person (whoever it might be) I love in future. Sometimes, I am too afraid to lose to get what I want.
oh.. But what does it matter anyway...
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On a separate note, I find that as your ORD date draws nearer, you tend to be less capable of enduring the bad attitudes of personnel in your camp. Over these few months, I have encountered 2 cases of near-quarrels/conflict with personnels in my camp. Better to calm my sense in view of the coming 16 Jun 06.......
The Origin. 3/16/2006 08:24:00 pm
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Life After Life After Life?hmm.. I'm reading a book, "The Unbearble Lightness of Being" - Milan Kundera. I find the book rather interesting but I shall type more abt it after I finish it, which will take some time since i already took 2 weeks and I haven completed it. My time seem to be wasting away. Nonetheless, this is something I just read:
"Somewhere out there in space there was a planet where all people would be born again. They would be fully aware of the life they had spent on earth and all the experience they had amassed. And perhaps htere was still another planet, where we would all be born a third time with the experience of our first two lives. And perhaps there was yet more and more planets, where mankind would be born one degree (one life) more mature...... Only from the perspective of such a utopia is it possible to use the concept of pessimism and optimism with full justification: an optimist is someone who thinks that on planet number five the history of mankind will be less bloody. A pessimist is one who thinks otherwise." - unquote
I'm not going to argue against this theory even though it is flawed. Assuming it is true, I'm a pessimist. People forget. So what if they have the past experiences with them? They will forget and eventually commit the mistakes over and over again. Rather than 5 chances, we have 5 replays.
On this note, I remember another quote somewhere in the book about living life. We only live it once. There is no past experience to guide us in life, only ourselves and our instinct. It may be sad if along the way we make the wrong choices and stuffs or the whole world just suddenly seem to come crashing down on us but the pt is that we only have got this one life. There is no time to be depressed, only time to move on and make the best of what is there at any pt in time.
haha.. In view of the recent statistics about suicide rates, I hereby urge (haha.. sounds very funny, rite? coming from me) all of u to live ur lives no matter how bad it is at any pt. You are only living this for the first time, remember? You do not know what the next day will hold, all may jolly well be good by the next sunrise. And you are only living this once, are you going to lose everything by committing suicide? Or are you going to take the gamble and live on? So keep on moving and make the best of everything.
Lastly, as I was commenting to another fren, if there is a need, call your fren and thrash out everything. If you are thinking of committing suicide and in case you don't see it, this is the need I'm talking about!!! Do not, I repeat, Do Not waiting until you are standing on the roof-top then you call your fren and tell him/her that you are jumping.
On a separate note, have you been woken from a dream like being given a tight slap and you ask yourself, "why the hell did I find that dream sweet in the first place?" My Answer: You are the furthest away from the thing you like most.
The Origin. 3/12/2006 09:41:00 pm
Saturday, March 11, 2006
UnderwearBefore I go into the topic, just wanna comment on 2 articles in Home section of Straits Times this week.
1. A 40+ years old guy was sentenced to 3 mths in prison for abusing a cat till its eye bulged out (or sth like that). - Serve him right. Bloody sicko. Should have gave him another 3 mths plus 6 mths of community service.
2. Another guy was jailed for molesting a mentally retarded gal. - Ass
So about underwear, I suddenly came up with this idea that buying 7 red underwears (different designs) for a guy for birthday present would be like one of those super auspicious kinda present, don't u think? this was inspired by the new Calvin Klein underwear, which is red!!! erotically red, especially since the guy's maneqquin is always beside the lady's one, which is wearing the red undergarment. (go see a ck underwear shop! there is one in paragon)
On this topic, I would like to say that despite my bunkmate, Jonathan Loh's recommendations for Calvin Klein underwears, I don't feel tt much of a difference between Ck and other brands. but of course, it would feel good to know tt u r wearing a CK underwear as compared to some umbrella brand ones.
In addition, CK underwear tends to make ur private part (for men lah. I dunno abt gals) look more erm... i think I shall just say tt it makes a good packaging. haha...
The Origin. 3/11/2006 01:18:00 am
Thursday, March 09, 2006
Superman's widow diesWel.. I don't really like the title cuz I think it does not give enough credit to Dana Reeve. Anyhow, in case the title does not already ring a bell, Dana Reeve is the wife of late Christopher Reeve, the man better known as Superman for his leading role in the movie (but of course) Superman.
I admit that I didn't know much about this lady until I read the article in the Straits Times today. I am considerably moved by what has been said about her. She was 44. Here are some excerpts from the article:
"The singer and actress died on Monday, 1 1/2 years after her husband died at 52, and seven months after announcing that she had been diagnosed with cancer.""After her husband's 1995 riding accident transformed him into an inspirational figure for the severely disabled, Dana saw her own previously obscure reputation grow enormously. She was seen as brave and stalwart supporter of her husband's determination to recover physically and emotionally; he was unable to breath without a respirator because of spinal cord damage.""In his autobiography Still Me, he wrote that he suggested early on to his wife: 'Maybe we should let me go.' She responded: 'I'll be with you for the long haul, no matter what. You're still you and I love you.' Those were 'the words that saved my life', he said.""The causes he began to embrace, ....... , became her own.""When the actor died in October 2004, she assumed chairmanship of the foundation. [Christopher Reeve Foundation]""She was also a founder of the Christopher and Dana Reeve Paralysis Resource Center.""She especially loathed being called a 'saint', telling Good Housekeeping magazine: "It bothers me to be thought of that way. Of course I'm doing this. What other option is there? What happened was a truly terrifying, life-altering thing, and my initial response was just like being hit by a bucket of water."I feel that few women are capable of Dana Reeve's devotion and loyalty to her husband. There's nothing much to say but to grief for the loss of such a beautiful lady.
Then again, I remember a certain comment made by a colleague, "People die already, of course everything good lah. Where got say bad one.."
I would have just copied and paste the soft of the article if a certain major newspaper in Singapore hasn't introduced a subscription fee for use of their online archive.. Bloody money minded asses! are the fees for ads not enough for their circulation!?!?!
On a separate note, thanks to one of my friend, Mr. Chng, "Brokeback Mountain" is now a term used in replacement of the term "gay". For example, "That guy very gay leh." is now, "That guy very Brokeback mountain like that."
The Origin. 3/09/2006 09:51:00 pm
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
Underworld EvolutionOMG! Kate Beckinsale is soooo hot!!
A look at her past movies would show you that she isn't just hot, she can be sweet, elegant, cool and so much more!!! OMG!!!
If I were rich, I would go up to her during a press conference, plant her a kiss on the cheek, give her $10, 000 and ask her to divorce tt director and marry me!!!! lol... Jking... I remembered 2 guys who did these separately on 2 of our singapore actresses...
Enough crap...
1. It was nice to get reassurance on certain issues. Thank you.
2. Some things should not be compromised.
The Origin. 3/07/2006 11:53:00 pm
Sunday, March 05, 2006
Interactive Johari WindowThanks in advance! Please help me to do this.
Interactive Johari Window for Ah_Ken
The Origin. 3/05/2006 09:38:00 pm
Friday, March 03, 2006
What Do You Think About Me?
For some pt in time, a kid posted this qn to all those close to him. This low self-esteemed kid constantly felt that he wasn't good enough. He wanted criticism to improve. To his disappointment, he received only polite compliments. He was afraid of them as though they were maggots that would weaken him and disintegrate him into somebody worse.
At the same time, he was afraid to commit, to show others his deepest feelings, expressions and all that make him. He was afraid that by doing so, those close to him would leave him out of despise. This was how lowly the kid thought himself to be.After some time, he felt that it was useless to go on asking. That was not the right way to improve. He was lost. He was unsure how to move on. All this while, he only wanted to please others to be accepted in their company. He wasn't being himself. He was afraid to be him. How sad.. How lonely..All these he did through conscious effort and at the same time, subconsciously. Over time, he grew more sure of himself. he begun to show some of those buried expressions, thoughts n feelings in his everyday life, to those around him. Thankfully, the friends were still there. A step closer, i suppose. However, probably a result of the subconcious mind, had left a mark that still prevents him from all that is in him. To some extent, he is still afraid to share, I guess. Or probably a result of past betrayals (which we fail to address) had left him to be afraid of the humanly betrayals that wanders amongst the people. The way I see it, he lived a controlled life. He is stucked in his own web of inferiority complex and betrayal. His web, he both cherished and hated. Cherished for the protection it gave him (both true and false) and hated for the hindrance it caused him. saddening, isn't it? I hope he breaks free.
Anyway, I am now considering to buy a set of speakers to complement my H10 in my room as my cd player is dying on me. sigh.. but the price of a decent set of 2.1 speakers is like over 150.... i wonder if I should. especially with the laptop, digi cam, hp to be bought.... Maybe I shall forget abt the hp since i quite like 6060's design... (but it's a bimbo. nice but no substance. ha.. I think I should call my 6060 bimbo from now on) Motorola L7 seems like a good hp though but I've never tried motorola's interface before......
The Origin. 3/03/2006 08:20:00 pm
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Some MotherOn the other hand, went to Novena Square this afternoon and I saw the Standard Chartered Half Marathon Singlet on sale in the Adidas shop (this branch is used to clear stock, can go there for cheap adidas buys). I mentioned to my mom that I am seriously considering to run in the half marathon for Standard chartered this year cuz I wanna get tt singlet. I was met with the following response, "hahaha." It was followed by, "I know my son... Anyway, if u want tt singlet, can buy here wat. Dun be stupid." My response was, "that's it. You take the mrt while I take the bus back home. See u." It was a joke n I went home with her..
After dinner, I was debating whether to go for a run cuz it looked like it was going to rain. My mom said, "If there's a heart to run, won't think about so many excuses one." My response, "see u, I'm going to run." and I did. Some mother.....
To top it of, out of the blue, my mom said, "eh.. I am a very good mother hor. I provide u with a lot of things already. If u cannot find a girlfriend, the problem lies with you le hor." ^*^*((())_%$#% there's a chinese saying like one needle, see blood.. (yi zhen jian xue)
The Origin. 3/01/2006 10:20:00 pm