Monday, January 30, 2006
1st Day of CNYWent to my mom's elder brother's hse ytd. As usual, by arriving at 445 pm, we were the first family to reach. Nevermind that. It was disappointing when I went up to greet them, only to be returned with confusion over who I am.
However, I can't help but laugh at a particular auntie who was moving around to distribute ang baos. She walked past me thrice and distributed to everybody but me. (I was thinking, "wah.. She dun wanna give me ang bao huh?") In the end, she stood in front of me and asked aloud, "Where is Kenneth huh?"
Anyway, during the wait for the other families to arrive, my family was talking to the host family. As the eldest son just enlisted to NS in Jan 06, naturally, this was one of the topics of concern. Once again, I heard the age-old philosophy of "I went through that it the past. It was worse. So can him." My PoV is that such thoughts hamper changes and developments. No doubt, you went through that in the past but you knew it wasn't good. To a great extent, it probably wasn't right either. So is it that just because you went through it in the past, you have to allow the people after you to do the same? Of course, I cldn't say all this. I am so tactless, I'll probably just offend them if I were to say it.
The Origin. 1/30/2006 09:29:00 am
Saturday, January 28, 2006
ComplimentsI remember a certain conversation with my boss. One that affected me since it ended months ago. We were talking about compliments, or rather, he was telling me that we must be generous with our compliments but avoid criticisms.
It affected me because he asked a qn there and then. A simple qn which hit home. I admit that I have never thought about this issue in such a simple light. It stirred various emotions - mainly negative, I must say.
I suppose it isn't difficult for my boss to observe this, after working with so many people in his career and also after our 1 yr of working relations. A lack of confidence, so to speak.
It is hurtful when you come to think about it in the form of the qn my boss posed to me. Now, I can blame no one but to ensure that I will not make the same mistakes that were committed. And also to work on it.
The Origin. 1/28/2006 08:06:00 pm
Friday, January 27, 2006
Bad AttitudeI shall not list any names here.
First of all, I have been to this place and I have aliased with the staff there for quite a number of times. Personally, my impression of this place and its services has not been good. The service is lousy and the attitude of the staffs is bad. To make things worse, the way they work is as though we are the service provider and not the other way around.
With the number of staffs at work there, they could easily handle 1 major event and carry on their daily tasks at the same time. However, they insist that they could only handle the event and stop their daily tasks/services. In addition, their daily tasks/services do not come at the convenience of the consumers. Instead, we, the consumers, are to adjust to fit into their time slots. How screw up is that?
Anyway, back on track, I was aliasing with the staffs again today. Basically, this was the conversation -
Me: Hi, I am Kenneth. I would like to book an appointment for XXX. Could you help me to check if this is possible?
Staff A: Sorry, I am not in charge of this. I'll get the other guy.
Me: Sure.
Staff B: Hi! May i know what is it regarding?
Me: I would like to book an appointment for XXX. Could you help me to check if this is possible?
Staff B: Hold on. I'll check.
Me: Ok.
(And he goes to check for 2 solid minutes)
Staff B: Sorry, what is it that you are checking again?
At this point, I seriously felt like reaching through the phoneline and slap him. To make matters worse, after another round of explanation, Staff B said that he wasn't in charge of the issue either and I need to look for another guy who is on leave until next week. How screw up is this? Sucks.
On a separate note, I just finished watching Gundam Seed Destiny (Courtesy of Chin Hong who downloaded the series and lent it to me). As usual, the 1st series (Gundam Seed) was better than the sequel. Despite the awesome gundams and cooler battleships, GSD lacks the depth that GS possessed. The emotions of the characters were very strongly portrayed in GS. For GSD, the lead character went through character development for 40 over episodes, only to be crashed by the main character of the 1st season. To sum it, the developers are just using GSD to earn more, especially after the popularity of GS.
The Origin. 1/27/2006 08:14:00 pm
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Daniel Ong Show on Perfect 10I admit thta I have not been as avid a listener to 98.7 as I was before. This is mainly due to the fact that my usual timeslot for listening is from 8 pm onwards. And Jamie Yeo (I think she is hot!) has been changed to some other timeslots. And some other crappy DJ is up during tt timeslot.
I was listening to Daniel Ong's show this evening while cleaning my room. Hmm.. I seem to be cleaning my room all the time. There was this programme whereby some people would call and talk about their problems. Today's topic was about some lady (i dunno her age) whose husband had an affair. The qn was should she give him another chance
So there was the "Yes, give him another chance. He will change for the better" and "No, don't be stupid". Of course, they also talked about other factors like income. Daniel Ong's concluding statement was something like "trust your intuition - if he is a nice guy and you feel that you can trust him, give him another chance."
Ha.. I found that statement rather lame n stupid (No offence to Daniel Ong). If he were a nice guy and can be trusted, would he have an affair? I think this applies to both sexes. It is just that we hear it more often from the ladies. Which guy would talk about it and get laughed at? MCPs, we are. haha.. However, if such a thing happens to me (if i get attached in the first place), I would announce to the world and condemn the stupid gal n the bloody ass-guy.. haha...
Anyway, I think there can be no trust after an affair. If such things happen, no matter whether you are the offender (I think it is the wrong term to couple with victim... can anybody correct me?) or the victim, I think it is foolish to ask for a 2nd chance or to give a 2nd chance. No matter how nice or normal things may appear to be, the crack is there. The offender can't expect to experience the kind of freedom before without having the victim get suspicious. you get the drift, don't you....
By the way, can anybody also shed some light over the issue on whether Daniel Ong is with Jamie Teo (I think she is hot too!) or is he with Jaymee Ong (She is hot!)? Haha.. the last I heard, he was with Jamie Teo at Jamie Yeo's wedding. I think I am becoming a gossip folk here.
Steering away from the topic, I cannot take any photo of my braces cuz my sis's camera is spoilt. Sigh...... First day of braces in camp was sucky. I had to eat porridge + some fruit milkshake for lunch, only to get hungry again at 3 pm. I am not a porridge kinda person. To speak the truth, I never did like porridge very much. Haha.. I had breakfast in the morning and snacks after 3 pm. I ended up brushing a total of 5 times after dinner time. i shall go for my sixth after this. Sigh... I think I might have to consider buying a funky toothbrush and bring it everywhere I go. The amount of food stuck is irritating.
Oh.. To end it off, I think Guo Mei Mei's Ai Shi Ni Yan Li De Yi Shou Qing Ge (is it correct?) is very nice. Sweet.
The Origin. 1/24/2006 09:03:00 pm
Monday, January 23, 2006
1st Day of Braces - RedAfter months of talking, finally put on the braces today.
I got to NDC at 1100 hrs this morning. Phew.. I barely made it on time as I forgot to bring the appt card when I stepped out of the house. I only realised it when I was mid-way to the bus-stop. Anyway, my dentist, Dr. Boey (she is quite chio!), put on th brackets for my back teeth and blocks for my front teeth (the terms may be wrong). After which, I went for lunch....
I think I am going to lose weight over these 2 yrs and more. Even without the wiring (and tightening), I had to eat so slowly as I had to take care of biting the blocks and damaging them. Sucks... I was eating a simple meal of duck rice and I got so irritated that I almost gave up eating... Just for the record, my weight is 60.++ now. I was 62.++ before my diarrhoea. Probably due to loss of water as declared by Joel. Shall see my weight again after 2 yrs...
After lunch, I went back for extraction of my right upper and lower teeth. (only 1 from each). I think the kinda dentist u get, determines how much blood you lose. Anyway, I went back to Dr. Boey (she is quite chio!) for the wiring and tightening after the extraction. As part of the process, she had to put on some rubber thingy on the blocks to tie the wires. Never ever trust your dentist when she says, "put on red one lah... CNY coming." I believed her and sux... my teeth look like they r bleeding if you look from afar.. though I must admit tt they look rather AA.. (this explains the red in the title) According to Dr. Boey (she is quite chio!), I can change it everytime I go lah.. So the next one will probably be light green cuz .......
This CNY would be rather saddening... No more cashew nuts, no more kai xing guo.... Ba gua n shrimp rolls, we'll see how it goes.... CNY is so lonely without you people...... sigh....
I shall put up some photos if I have the time tmr... cuz I can't brush my teeth today and there is still some blood stains on the teeth. Yes, yucks, I know....
The Origin. 1/23/2006 05:25:00 pm
Sunday, January 22, 2006
Feel Like Sleeping In..You know.. It is the time of the yr again when you just don't feel like going out and just want to sleep in on a weekend...
I am inspired to study German when I get into NUS and to go to Germany for SEP. This is because of all the SEP to foreign varsities, Germany holds one of the largest number of students from NUS FoE. At least this was what I saw when I was viewing the ppt ytd.
I feel that I am an easy-to-read kinda people. As in people can just read me like a book easily. What do they read? I wonder...
Oh.. Do you guys know of the following 2 songs?
1. I wonder.. won won won won wonder..... (Or is it I want her, want, want , want ,want, want her..)
2. Memories la la la la la memories....
The Origin. 1/22/2006 10:51:00 am
Saturday, January 21, 2006
To Grow Old WithThis is with reference to the previous post... I suppose in the list, one of the more important one is having someone to grow old with. I really envy those old people who are in the company of each other. I believe I do not have to dive into how I feel that a career and money are impt in life.. I am materialistic! Anyway...
I believe that it is not about feelings anymore when you reach that age group. Feelings do not last. It is more about the committment, the memory of past feelings, the comfort about being with each other, trust, tact for each other's feeling (yes, it is extremely impt no matter how comfortable) and many more. Will there be this someone who would stay with me til old age? Basically, will she go through thick n thin with me?
Hmm.. It seems that it is all about good-old-me. I seem to be asking for so much but am I able to give this much in return? Can I be as committed to her as she is to me? Can I sacrifice for her as much as she would for me? Can I trust her as much as she trust me? Can I say to her when we start off and when we are old that I'll be there for her? Will I show her bad attitude when i am stressed?
Suddenly, i remember i heard of this guy fren who scolded a bitch for flirting with him when he was attached. Will I do that if i were in his shoes? Or will I be like some stupid old men who would flirt in return?
Is it that I am just one of those guys who went through all these when they were young, only to fail to commit when they grow old?
I feel that I ask for too much. So much that I am afraid that I am unable to return as much. maybe it's just that I think too much.. Sucks..
Just to lighten up this entry, I went for some Faculty of Engineering talk for NSFs today. I think i am in deep shit cuz I was experiencing severe headache by the time we got to the 3rd/4th ppt. Each presentation was only abt 15 mins, btw.
In addition, on my way to the fac, I stupidly did not believe anybody when they said that Fac of engine is very far from the running track. I stupidly took 963 and alighted at the bus stop near the tracks. I also stupidly walked all the way to the fac, cuz I felt like walking (initially). i was perspiring like hell by the time I reached the audi... that was the only clever part abt the journey. i found the fac with the help of the maps in the campus.
Another pt to note is that I seriously feel that I will be among a very large group of assholes when I go into chem engineering in NUS. No wonder chemical engineers have to join SDU... OMG! Wat is to become of me??? lameo.... Let's just hope that my impression is wrong...
The Origin. 1/21/2006 09:44:00 pm
Friday, January 20, 2006
I Envy..I envy people with/who:
1. Extended families which are closely knitted. Uncles, aunts and cousins who constantly meet one another. Cousins whom they can talk to like friends they have known for yrs, and not like some acquaintances who meet only twice per yr due to some celebration. Uncles & aunts who are geniuinely concerned about them.
2. A close figure whom they know and respect.
3. People who they can trust whole-heartedly. This is probably 2 ways, having the people to trust is 1 thing. Being able to trust is another. I'm talking about both.
4. Knows what exactly they want in life.
5. A spouse who will go through thick & thin with them and eventually, to grow old with. Like those old men & ladies on the bus who probably are grateful and comfortable with each other's company, even if there were nothing at all to talk about.
6. Have faith and believe in a certain ideas, so strongly that nothing could shake their pillar on confidence in that particular belief.
7. Have the drive to see things through to the end. In line with point 6.
8. People who are lucky enough to not to have much problem in life. Not that i have a lot but isn't it always good to have less problems?
9. Of course, people with great body, good looks, good character and who are smart.
10. People with Bang & Olufsen items at home.
Obviously, there are some crap in the list and there are more to add.
Anyway, last night, Weili asked about a psychological qn on "Why did the gal kill her own sister?" Sth like the gal met this guy during a relative's funeral and this guy is a family fren. however, after tt the gal didn't get to see the guy again. then she killed her sister.. why? Obviously, I got the answer - to see the guy again. Hmm.. Do I have the tendency to become a murderer??
A crap my sis cooked up while watching a TV show - Basically, there was this guy who was saying tt he liked being single cuz of the freedom etc. My sister said sth like, "U think this kind of people will tell you tt they actually hug their teddy bear/pillow in the middle of the night, feeling lonely or crying meh??" I think the context is a bit lame but hmmmmmm..
Also read "Get Fuzzy" in today's Strait Times Life section. It was about Bucky telling his owner to sponsorhim to research on a robot to look for dead rats. However, the owner refused. bucky's reply to that was, "You are like the first person Thomas Edison tried to sell a light bulb to... 'No thanks Tom, we just bought a whole new bunch of candles.' " Somehow, I couldn't stop laughing when i read about it.
The Origin. 1/20/2006 08:14:00 pm
Gathering for Weili's B-day - 20 JanWeili's b-day is on 26 Jan but Xin Ru, Hui yin & I (haha.. Xin Ru, I bet I got all the names this time!!) met today to give him a celebration in advance.
It was rather cool as we had a steamboat at Hui Yin's place. I think it was a whole new effect as opposed to going to some restaurants for meal. And it is also different from eating with your family. A feeling of comfort. Trust Hui Yin to come up with such nice ideas.
Oh... I think Hui Yin's place is very nice! 1st of all, there is the full length window overlooking some beach in Rivervale Crescent. Then next is... OMG!! A Bang & Olufsen phone in the living room!!! how cool is that???
anyway, this is a stupid video, courtesy of Ai Tian for sending me the
link.
The Origin. 1/20/2006 12:22:00 am
Monday, January 16, 2006
Random Thotshmm.. I am walking on the thin line between sleep and being awake. I am actually very very tired but because of 2 nights of 12 am sleeping time and a cup of Nescafe coffee rich, I am here. Typing away, typing to dream land.
Here are some random thots (basically, thots tt I dun want or don't know how to expand on):
1. I still find it amazing that Newpaper has got at least 1 case of rape/murder/underage sex everyday. I also find it amazing that people do read it. I am also amazed that I am reading it.
2. A few words within the constraint of 150 characters is all it takes to get distracted. Men, we can only concentrate on 1 thing at a time.
3. Saw this Garfield comic strip in Straits Times - 16 Jan. tt guy (wat is his name??) was complaining abt how those ladies say tt he is nice but they dun want to be with him. Garfield said that they were lying (sth along tt line).
4. I seriously find it cute (not to sound gay but the other word I wanted to use is funny, whcih would sound evil) tt some guys actually want to ask for a simple thing with the gal they like (which u can easily ask of a fren, probably a snapshot or sth?) but they are too shy to ask. Doing those small little things, hoping tt the chance will befall on them or to finally pluck up the courage. Come to think abt it, i am probably 1 of them to a large extent.
5. Most songs can actually be nice if u listen to them more often. Despite the fact that the artist who sang it was a jerk, you may still grow to like it and feel for the song.
6. I think I am a bit more BHB. Asking ppl to jio me to play game leh.
Crap. I shall go n sleep now.
The Origin. 1/16/2006 10:28:00 pm
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Escapism - GamingI feel like I am forever indulging in the various forms of escapism e.g. manga, gaming, shopping etc. Of the shortlist, gaming is on the top of my escapism list, I suppose. Meaning that every time I indulge in excessive gaming, over and above the usual, I am probably trying to escape from some harsh realities of life. I am simply trying to numb my senses to the problems by beating some monsters or beating some other ppl in the games.
This is probably the reason why I never really had a profound interest in dota. (Unlike WeiLi) Although I play it and at times, excessive, I maintain a certain amount of time playing that game. This is psychological, I guess. Once I played more than this no. of hours, the threshold is breached and I'll just get terribly sick of it. Come to think about it, this is also the case for most of the mmorpgs I took up.
So why do I take on such forms of escapism? I guess it is when I'm faced with problems which I do not know exactly how to react to. It is not about solving the problem. At times, I probably already know the solutions (which may not be the best) but I am stuck in an dilema or something. Then I'll probably just toss everything aside and escape. Of course, I am not talking about those life & death problems but they are issues that hold some importance.
Since we are on this topic, I probably would not indulge in escapism if I do not know of a solution. Maybe I'll just play a game or 2, then I'll think of a solution. But I will not go on continuous gaming.
*Continued. (Actually, I wrote this on Sunday morning but had to stop as I had to go out)
Went to lot 1 to play pool yesterday. I suppose there was a mis-communication in terms of interest. I thought they wanted to meet for pool and they probably thought that it was I who wanted it. Frankly, I was very tired yesterday and I wanted to spend the afternoon napping. Anyway, since I'm saying all these, obviously some irritating things happened. Shall not go into the details.
After pool, we then went to Sharon's place to complete our card for Qin Yi before going over to Qin Yi's party. Shall not go into the details as I was walking around a lot during it. Sorry, Qi Yi.
I think I must really be old. I only failed to go n exercise for 3 weeks (cuz of rain + festive seasons), my legs were aching after the weekend's shopping n walking around. Sigh... Lao le....
The Origin. 1/15/2006 11:54:00 am
CNY ShoppingWent to Orchard today to do some last minute additions to my new clothes. This is because I found out that I was short of bottoms. Ok ok.. I admit that I am a tee-shirt freak and bought more tops than btms. Anyway, got a pair of jeans and also a greenish-grey long sleeve shirt (wanted to buy white but for that design, the white is just too translucent). So the shirt is over and above my plan lah....
I also went to Topman to have a look. Saw this shirt that is rather ragged and defintely goes well with jeans. However, when I tried it on, the first impression I had of myself in the mirror was: Chao Ah Beng. The first impression my mom had when she saw it was: Chao Ah Beng. What a pity...
Come to think about it, does long sleeve shirt + jeans = ah beng kinda effect?????
Oh... I think that there is a salesgirl in the Flash & Splash outlet in Wisma, who is quite chio.... haha... lame...
On to something more lame, I think I was being "bio" by a pair of gays when I was in Paragon. I was like, "OMG!! WTH!! Stop looking!! F***!!" I wouldn't mind if they were a pair of girls, I would be extremely happy if they were a pair of gorgeous babes BUT guys!?!?!?!? It is not that I am against gays but I rather that I am not one of them. Hmm.. I wonder how it would be like to go steady with a rich gay.....
Anyway, after buying the stuffs, I met Jun Hong and Jia Ming at Sharon's place to complete our little gift (haha.. shall not talk much abt it). Timothy joined us later but he was an asset to the group. The next time I have to prepare such a gift again, I am going to enlist his help. hahaha...
The Origin. 1/15/2006 12:06:00 am
Friday, January 13, 2006
Starbucks Mug ~Hee hee... Starbucks Coffee has one of the best customer service!!! I sent an email to query about the mug (I was talking about it beginning of the month). Within the email, I also asked if I could purchase the mugs (the old one and the new one) at an affordable price. Of course, I also spiced up the details about how I am such a big fan of Starbucks, a little bit. haha..
A day after I sent the email, Tricia, the marketing manager replied and to cut the story short, Starbucks sent the 2 mugs to me (at my workplace), Free of Charge. How cool is that??? haha.. Now, I am the owner of 2 Starbucks cups. haha... From now on, it is no more Coffee Bean, no more TCC, no more Coffee Club. Just Starbucks!
On a slightly more serious note.... "You forever no feelings one lah" and "Your feeling forever not strong one lah". These are 2 similar feedbacks I got from 2 different people. I suppose so......
The Origin. 1/13/2006 06:06:00 pm
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Closer to HomeDon't really think that the title represents the topic I am going to talk about well. But it has it meaning......
Received news this morning about the death of a NoK of someone from my workplace. The deceased lived in KL. Naturally, that person was unable to see the deceased for the last time before he departed.
I would say that during my past yr in NS, I have seen or heard a number of funerals. However, I am quite affected by this one as it is closer to home, I guess. That person affected is a close working partner. I am sad that he did not get to see the deceased for the last time. My respect also go to him when he took steps to ensure that everything was still running despite his sudden absence.
I see myself as one who probably wouldn't shed a tear when my own NoK dies (touch wood), and I still stick to that. I won't. However, come to think about it, I think it really matters that I get to see them for 1 last time. Even if I don't know what to say but just to say 'goodbye', I would like to see them before they depart.
Anyway, I'm rather moody over these few days. I'm not sad or whatsoever, just moody, plain "sian diao" over a certain news.
The Origin. 1/12/2006 06:47:00 pm
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Yet Another DayI woke up and just didn't felt like doing anything or going anywhere. And I did exactly that. Slacked the whole day away. Guess it was just another moody day, especially so with the rain and the clouds.
Spent time watching Gundam Seed Destiny which I got for so long. Freedom Gundam is still as cool as ever! Kira Yamatoe rules!!
*Edited
Actually, I wanted to end off this cool & moody day by going to sleep at 2100 but for some reason, my sis just wanted to sit on my bed and read her magazine until her show starts at 2200 hrs.
Thus while looking for something to occupy my time (other than gaming), I stumbled upon the pile of notes, cards and postcards, which I talked about a few posts back.
Amongst the pile is a bag of the notes from the Angel - Mortal game we played during Sec 3/4. One question that puzzles me is, " We had 2 games. I have 2 sets of notes from 2 different angels but I only remember who 1 of my angels is (Eileen) and I don't remember the other (though I can make a guess)." Hmmm.. I shall get to the bottom of this.. I think I know who to look for...
Also went through some of the past birthday and X'mas cards. I'm quite touched by some of the messages in them. Haha.. Come to remember that Ma Hui Yin once said sth like, "The person would feel really reall happy if he/she opens the card and sees a lot of messgaes in it." I don't think happy is the word but looking back at the messages, it sure was nice.
Came across the cards from someone too. She never failed to send me a birthday card every yr for my birthday yet I did not put in the effort to do the same for her. And now she has stopped. Sigh... What was I doing back them..........
There were a few personal letter too. I only hope that what they say are true.
As for the postcards, didn't read through them cuz I read through them last yr and I just didn't feel like revisiting that part today.
End of the topic. Just a side note: Funny how a simple msn photo of a starbucks mug can spark off a conversation with someone whom I practically do not know but is on my msn list. I want my Starbucks Mug!!!!! Btw, do u know that they have a new mug? A black 1 with white colours wording. Cool but not as cool as the old 1.
The Origin. 1/10/2006 08:18:00 pm
Monday, January 09, 2006
Teeth Extraction - Part 1Got 2 of my teeth extracted for my braces.
They are 2 of 4 to be extracted.
I am soooo bloody happy tt my big mouth did not say that I wanted to take all four. - cuz 1 of my 3 appts has to be cancelled...
2 at a time is enough!
*Edited cuz I realised that this entry sucks. I guess I was still suffering from the pain of my stomach & my lost teeth.
Anyway, as we all know, there wasn't any pain during the extraction cuz of the anesthetic. However, the traumatising part of the extraction process was infact when you open your eyes and see your dentist using all his strength to pull out your teeth. It was like trying to pull a stucked screw out with pliers. You twist it, turn it, adjust it, pull it, blah blah blah... Only that the screw is your tooth and it is stucked to your mouth. Thus you can practically imagine what the hell is happening to your tooth even when you don't feel it. Ha.. I only opened my eyes for 2 mins in the mist of the extraction.
As for the pain after the extraction, it wasn't all that painful but it is still a pain to begin with. In short, a bearable pain. Ice water do help in inducing comfort.
Another observation is that somehow your gums register all that went on during the extraction. During the moments before I fell asleep at night, there were strong feeling of pushes and pulls at the sites of my extraction. I had to open n close my mouth to get rid of it.
The Origin. 1/09/2006 04:51:00 pm
Sunday, January 08, 2006
DiahorreaSucks...
1 of the worst things abt this symptom is: You don't even have the craving for chocalate when you see one!!!
1 of the best things (amazingly, there is) is: Somehow your complexion is slightly better than before.... lol
Shit... I think I better go n rest... after close to 36 hrs of sleep in 2 days.....
The Origin. 1/08/2006 10:13:00 pm
"Diao" & "Whatever"Hmm.. These are the 2 words I particularly dislike in yr 2005.
1. Diao - I know it is the "in" word of our time in JC but what does it mean? What does it portray that a single English word that is more than enough to describe your feeling at that pt in time? It is just like vulgarities that are only sufficient to describe your anger but not enough to describe what has to be done or amended.
2. Whatever - When used by itself, it just gives me the feeling of non-chalant. Some kind of heck-care attitude. At least show a positive attitude......
Ha.. I must be very sick to talk about such rubbish..
Anyway, to the article today abt molest during NYE, well... If you wanna be there, dun be too surprised by the onslaught. Even without the spray-cans such cases will still arise.
The Origin. 1/08/2006 01:29:00 pm
Thursday, January 05, 2006
I Measure Every Grief I Meet - Emily Dickinson I measure every grief I meet With analytic eyes; I wonder if it weighs like mine, Or has an easier size. I wonder if they bore it long, Or did it just begin? I could not tell the date of mine, It feels so old a pain. I wonder if it hurts to live, And if they have to try, And whether, could they choose between, They would not rather die. I wonder if when years have piled-- Some thousands--on the cause Of early hurt, if such a lapse Could give them any pause; Or would they go on aching still Through centuries above, Enlightened to a larger pain By contrast with the love.
Read about this article about "Weighs Like Mine" - An installation exhibition by SooKoon Ang. It is at SubStation Gallery from 5 to 11 Jan, admission is free. The title of the exhibition if from the peom above.
"Weighs Like Mine addresses duo interior spaces; the domestic interior space and the interior space within us (our spiritual, emotional and imaginative world). SooKoon also explores how these two both reflect and have an effect on each other." - Extracted from the webby
Maybe I'll go n see see look look...... hmm....
The Origin. 1/05/2006 06:44:00 pm
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Clz Gathering & A New Found TargetWent for a mini class gathering this evening to meet up with Wen Eu, who came to Singapore from Malaysia. He has been studying in US, Georgia Institute of Tech, I think. I didn't really enjoy much, I guess. pondering.... However, it was nice to gather to meet him and learn more about how it is like over in US. I wish I can get to go for o/s attachment in Uni. I hope.
Anyway, I have a new found target! Well.. I have been eyeing the target for quite some time actually. I didn't know that we could get it until I went to Liang Wei's hse for NYE and I saw that he actually has a Starbucks Cup!!! I like the small ones!!
But he doesn't know how his sis got it.
So I went to Starbucks earlier (during the gathering) and asked abt it. According to the cashier, you can ask the manager and he/she may give it to you if they have extra. Or according to some unknown source (to protect the identity), you can just kapo it since it is so easy to do so. Hmm...
The Origin. 1/03/2006 11:34:00 pm
Monday, January 02, 2006
King KongWent to catch King Kong today with Sharon, Jia Ming & Jun Hong. I guess I'm still suffering from post-count-down syndrome. The first thing Sharon commented was Kenneth, you went to countdown huh? You look so tired." The next thing was that I told my mom that I would be eating the vegetable she cooked for dinner but when we went for supper after the show, I forgot all abt the vege and went ahead to eat. I am so full now.
Anyway, about the movie..
I seriously think that Peter Jackson is very good at making the scenes look big and majestic. With him, even a simple theatre is comparable to the vast view of New York from a ship.
I agree that the movie is a little too draggy in the beginning but this I feel, helps to emphasize many things that happened later. Like the kind of character the director (Jack?) is, the place King kong calls home bla bla bla..
The scene that got me thinking were:
1. King Kong fighting the T-rex : he was always placing Ann on the top priority and also, a pair of strong arms is definitely better than 3 sets of strong jaws! lol
2. King Kong getting caught : again Ann was his priority and it also symbolised the impending death that we all expected since starting
3. King Kong on display : The irony in the description - MIGHTY King Kong, who looked so helpless
4. King Kong "1st" step into New York : He was so confused but everything. A helpless animal being removed from his home. The unfamiliarity. I was also wondering how he differenciated the ladies.. From smell, hair colour or scream?
5. The Last Dance : We all should know that it was the last dance and was quite romantic (like beauty & the beast) and saddening
6. The planes attacking King Kong : His death of course. And also the quote - "He is killed by the planes. What does it matter?" (sth like tt).
All in all, I seriously feel that the King Kong portrayed here is super manly lah. He is like the man of the show. Even the script-writer cannot compare to him.
Kenneth, your true color is Blue!
You're blue — the most soothing shade of the spectrum. The color of a clear summer sky or a deep, reflective ocean, blue has traditionally symbolized trust, solitude, and loyalty. Most likely a thoughtful person who values spending some time on your own, you'd rather connect deeply with a few people than have a bunch of slight acquaintances. Luckily, making close friends isn't that hard, since people are naturally attracted to you — they're soothed by your calming presence. Cool and collected, you rarely overreact. Instead, you think things through before coming to a decision. That level-headed, thoughtful approach to life is patently blue — and patently you!
http://web.tickle.com/color/
The Origin. 1/02/2006 11:36:00 pm
Betrayal of TrustThis is the 2nd entry of the day. There has been a sudden inspiration to blog after the overly-high feeling due to lack of sleep, went away.
Anyway, have you ever been betrayed of your trust before? I'm not talking about those back-stabbers who are probably just your acquaintance. Maybe someone closer, like your best friend, your stead or even closer to home, your family members?
I don't know. I guess I was betrayed once a very long time ago, such that I do not remember my age back then. Anyway, that person was forgiven back then and we are still in contact.
Somehow, I feel that I can never trust that person fully again or rather that incident was so long ago that I don't remember trusting fully at all. No matter what was done or said, there is a certain amount of mistrust. It is quite suddening that everytime somethings happen and fingers are to be pointed, the first person to look at would be that 1 person. It is human nature, I guess. You can never fully trust the person again. So think twice before forgiving or continuing the relationship if you are betrayed.
In my 20 yrs of living now, I have betrayed some peoples' trust in the process, I guess. I guess right at this moment, those who matter and are in contact, would similarly be pointing their fingers at me shld something comes along.
It is disappointing that only after 20 yrs of living, so many yrs of experience in this and after making these errors, I understood this. What can I do now but to carry on with it and hope that time can mend the broken trust? Which I already know that it doesn't.
Such betrayals shall not happen again.
The Origin. 1/02/2006 12:47:00 pm
FireworksRead the following in a manga, Bleach, based on my translation as the manga is in chinese. And you probably know the standard of my chinese.
"We are like fireworks. The journey to the sky, the explosion of colours, and consequently, disperse in all directions." "If this is the case, at least when the moment arrives, we will not disappear but will stay forever sparkling in the sky."It is actually the whole train of thought of 1 of the characters in the manga. I shall not go into the fantasy of the manga. Anyway, the character isn't exactly human but the artist likens him to be so.
Personally, I agree with the first part and not the 2nd as I feel that the 2nd is more applicable to that fantasy.
As for the first part, we are constantly upgrading ourselves, working upward in the society we leave in. We work to attain our distinction in PSLE, O levels, Diploma, A levels and Degree (just to name a few), choosing other paths and starting with a career immediately, we work to maintain a stable career and income, we work to buy our house, our cars, starting a family etc.
Then we reach the peak of our lives. Be it, attaining the 5 C's (not the one promoted by ST), just having the basics, giving our lives for voluntary work, seeing our children bring us pride & joy etc. We succeed in our own respective senses.
And finally, we falter due to old age, disease or whatever. Or maybe the new generation has come to take over our job. Then what else do we do but to wait for the moment we disappear forever. Maybe at the stage we will ask ourselves, "How was my life? was it worth living?"
Surely, we will think of the regrets and sacrifices before but we will eventually decide that based on whatever achievements we had, it was worth it. Then we will go on, do whatever we have not done and wait for the moment we disappear.
Our lives seem so alike yet so different. Just like how 2 fireworks can be so different yet are alike in terms of their beauty. Maybe we are all just actors & actresses in a display of fireworks for whoever is watching. Maybe we are just nameless parts of an endless cycle. What does it matter? Shouldn't we all live for the moment when we explode in an array of colours? For that is the beauty of fireworks, of life, isn't it? Nobody likes to see a rocket (is this the name?) that goes into the sky and fails to explode, right?
Ha.. I think my next viewing of fireworks would be even more saddening compared to the past.
Oh.. And I have decided not to talk abt the 5 C's from ST as I don't have particularly strong feelings about them anyway.
The Origin. 1/02/2006 09:20:00 am
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Countdown to Year 2006On 31 Dec 05, I met Qin Yi at 1630 and sat at Coffee Bean for coffee while waiting for Choo Hui & Brian. They didn't turn up and I left to meet Ai Tian & Lin Run for dinner at Pizza Walker at 1745hrs. The food was average for that price. Somehow, I still prefer the thick cheese crust of Pizza Hut that I grew up eating. Anyway, Ai Tian made the following comment, "I thought that you are with XXX for a few months already." I was in shock. It wasn't true.
We then went to the "red cafe" (i dunno the name but it is red) in cineleisure for dessert. Sat around and chatted a bit. I was still disturbed by Ai Tian's comment. Haha... Anyway, we left at 2040 hrs as I had to get to Liang Wei's house at Cactus Drive (I quote Hiang Kiat, "Niao Bu Shen Dan, Gou Bu La Shi De Di Fang") for JC class gathering. Qiu Li, Ting Jun, Xin Ru, Candice, Chun Xin, Hiang Kiat, Wei Chee, Wei Li, Wendy, Yee Fong and Rex were present.
We played some forfeit games outside the mph while waiting for 2006 to arrive. I also got another stunner when Bok said, "XXX, don't go lah. Kenneth hasn't made his move yet." Ultimate sian diao quote of the day.
1 point to note: I am so not going to play bluff anymore. This is because I can't bluff! I ended up getting forfeited to do a pole dance......
After 0100 hrs, we went up to Liang Wei's hse and played circle of death whereby we drank and drank and drank until some of us got so drank that we were ranting "I'm not drank" and carry on to spill our drinks on the table *coughwendycough*, we were also feeling so sick that we were unable to play dota *coughweilicough* and a few more.
We kb a little after tt and left for home and breakfast thereafter at 0600 hrs. I eventually got home at 0800 hrs. Thanks to Rex who didn't drink and drove us.
After thinking a lot during the gathering at Liang Wei's place (somehow the hours before & after 0000 hrs, seems so sacred and it makes you ponder some issues), I think maybe I am just too desperate in this season.
Also, after serious consideration, I feel that my priority would change after I enter varsity. My primary would be my studies, then followed by other things like relationship etc. This is short would mean only 1 thing: I will most probably remain single for my whole Uni life and I might jolly well join SDU after graduation!!! OMG!
The Origin. 1/01/2006 12:38:00 pm