Tuesday, October 31, 2006
What Happen To Souls?First, Full Metal Alchemist started with an 'non-existence' world where alchemy is not only possible but relatively wide-spread. It was introduced that the fundamental law of the world: to obtain, something of equal value must be lost. Towards the end, the links were created or drawn to light - this non-existence world is parallel to ours (some time during the World War) and our souls (after our deaths) will be drawn towards the parallel world as a form of energy to ensure the process of alchemy occurs. Thus there is no such thing as equivalent trade in the sense that energy is taken from the souls and not provided by the alchemists. Confusing? This is what I derived from the anime, at least up till the last episode. There is a movie which I have yet to finish watching fro YouTube. I think it is rather typical of japanese anime to revolve around sth that is anti-religion. Recall Evangelion... Anywayz, my stand is still that religions are simply tools used to instill hope, reason for living, instill 'values' etc.
By the way, got this off the net after I read my friend's entry abt soya beans..
The core of their concerns rests with the chemical makeup of soy: in addition to all the nutrients and protein, soy contains a natural chemical that mimics estrogen, the female hormone. Some studies in animals show that this chemical can alter sexual development. And in fact, 2 glasses of soy milk/day, over the course of one month, contain enough of the chemical to change the timing of a woman’s menstrual cycle.OMG!!! 'm soooo not going to take soy pdts from now on! haha....
The Origin. 10/31/2006 08:36:00 pm
Sunday, October 29, 2006
It Started With Foreign WivesHa.. I changed the title after I completed this entry.. I started with 'Babies Machine' but digressed..
Just came back from Yun Han's Birthday Party in Hougang.. Luckily, I could drive there and also I made it there, and back in one piece.
Anywayz, I was reminded of this topic (which I was dying to blog abt when I read the article abt it or have I blogged abt it already?) when I pointed out to Bok that she is probably an example of why some guys wanna find foreign-wives.
The reported trend is that guys nowadays are looking for foreign wives as they want to start a family and Singaporean girls are not into it, or sth aling these lines. The way I see it is that those guys are not looking for a wife! They are looking for babies-making-machines! Well... If they were to go to maybe Vietnam, meet a gal, fall for her and get married, that would be a different story. They went to agencies to see the gals, pick them and marry them. Kinda like going to a market for babies making machines, dun u think?
I seriously wonder why having babies is so important.. Whenever I voice out my opinion tt I would rather not have babies, I face responses like 'I think babies complete the family', 'you'll grow to see the importance' and the lamest, 'it is one the most unfilial actions of a guy not to keep the family bloodline'. Then i'll remember a fren's comment abt this issue, 'Yeah yeah... go and increase the world's population'.
As I study making of a nation, I can't help but feel that ppl like me are residual effect of policies of the past like the 'two is enough' policy and westernization when Singapore first started out. They later wanted the ppl to have more babies of course and also, inculcate asian values. However, ppl like me are just ppl who somehow got influenced by the older policies and refuse to be changed by the newer ones.
The Origin. 10/29/2006 12:43:00 am
Monday, October 23, 2006
Worse?Ha.. Time for some crappy nonsensical talk where probably nobody understands.
Each time you forgive yourself for something you have done wrong but that is almost impossible to amend because maybe the 'timeframe' is over, you are just 1 step closer to being a worse person. This is what I believe to a large extent.
I have been a little bit 'off' lately. Maybe there haven been just too many things on my mind at any one time. Maybe I have been tired due to the lack of sleep for whatever reasons. But these are probably just excuses. I suppose I can do better.... Time for change. Ironically change to keep so as not to lose myself. crap.
I have also made some choices. Bad choices because I hated it when I made them and I still do hate them. However, I don't know if they were wrong until I push it through with them.
The Origin. 10/23/2006 07:54:00 am
Sunday, October 22, 2006
A Trip Down Memory LaneI wanted to blog this a long time ago but it kept escaping my mind. A group of us were having a chat over steamboat some time ago. Yada Yada Yada.. I shared a small fragment of my past. A fragment that had always been somewhere in my memory but I dis-regard due to the relative unimportance I suppose. I don't even remember my age when that happened but it was definitely during my primary school yrs.....
I wasn't a bright student. In fact, I am not bright even now if you were to ask me. I am the kid of a tuition teacher who helped a number of students to fare well and I also have sis who did much much better than I did (but I still love her). However, I did not do well at all. Thus the immense amount of pressure for me to study hard and do well then.
There was once when everyone was not around at home, I opened the window of our 11th storey flat and was contemplating to jump. I don't remember how long I stood there but I did not jump in the end (obviously). At that point, I felt like a coward. I did not even dare to take my own life. My view from tt pt on was that I admire ppl who took their own lives because they had the guts to take the crucial step when looking down from 11-storey, the tot of death is just to terrifying.
I eventually did better for my studies without the having to be exposed to the external pressure and things did turn slightly better. Looking back, I think I was lucky that I lacked the guts to jump. I am not exactly enjoying life right now but at least I'm living. I still hold true tt ppl who commit suicide have got guts but I also feel that they are in some sense stupid as things may jolly well turn better so long as they give it some more time. (btw, the incident abt the guy who committed suicide cuz his p**** was too small was a case of pure stupidity la) . I also feel that the view about 'ppl commit suicide because they lack the courage to live' is but a piece of propaganda.
I suppose this probably explains my inner disgust when ppl say tt I'm clever or watsoever. I ain't..
The Origin. 10/22/2006 02:19:00 pm
Sunday, October 15, 2006
The DepartedYeah! I finally caught a movie (on Friday) after school started! Haha.. This is so pathetic. I miss the life that I had before Uni. All the time spent rotting, strolling along the streets of Orchard rd, catching up with friends and stuffs, all gone!! Argh!!
Anywayz, I met Weili and went for lunch at TCC in SMU before we went to watch the movie, The Departed. The show was ok mainly cuz I have forgotten much of the original Wu Jian Dao but I have the slight tinge of feeling that the original was better. Ha.. Obviously..
Furthermore, I dyed my hair with a dark purple dye, which was a bad choice considering my black hair. My supposedly 'black with slight tinge of purple' hair colour turned out to be as if I have not dye my hair.
On a side note, I think having wedding dinner for your marriage is a pretty bad idea. There is a conflict of interests. Firstly, it is your marriage and you'll want those close to ur heart to be there. Next, your parents will want your relatives to be there and your relatives need not be close to ur heart. In addition, your parents may also want their close friends to witness it. Now take this and multiply by 2 cuz you have the other party to think about. It is like OMG! Why spend the money to invite some tom, dick and harry who may or may not be truely happy for u? Marriage is afterall for the 2. I think this whole thing about people wanting to spend tons of cash on weddings is a result of advertisement campaigns. We are being told to do all these by the ppl who selll us the services.
The Origin. 10/15/2006 05:12:00 pm
Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Ended. Time for More Studies.Finally, mid-term tests ended and Mid autumn festival (MAF) celebration for USC was held today. The turn-up was good, which meant everything.
I found it weird that the man that I was would not have taken part in these events, much less be part of the organising committee. Now, I am doing these. To speak the truth, there were moments during MAF that I had to take steps away from the crowd. A sense of suffocation, probably from the people and from the heat but the crowd was good company most of the rest of the time.
On another note, I think I am stumbling into my old footsteps again. The failure to come up with even a decent topic, having no idea where and how to begin, being afraid. Is this what I seek then? Whatever the case, I have taken the first steps towards the opportunities. Let's hope tt things turn out well..
The Origin. 10/11/2006 12:09:00 am
Saturday, October 07, 2006
Lucky~Haha.. I got 8 out of 12 for my Math MCQ test that I took on Monday. It isn't fantastic but it is above my expectation. This is because the stooopid math department of NUS set this paper to be way way different and more difficult from the past years ones. I spent half the time staring at the questions ntot knowing where to start and another 1/4 getting answers which were not in the 5 choices available. Most of my correct answers came from 'sucessful' tee kam tee kam.. lol..
On another note, I am not going to fight for a 4-day week in future. I have been going back to NUS almost every Friday since school started. Sigh...
The Origin. 10/07/2006 09:45:00 am