Wristbands
Live Strong
Wow.. Do you guys know about the yellow coloured "Live Strong" Wristband sold by Lance Armstrong Foundation to a donation drive for their fight against cancer? I didn't know about tt until fairly recently. It is sold world-wide and you can purchase it in bulk (min. purchase 10) via the website. The price is abt S$3 (including shipping).
According to the foundation, yellow is a symbol of hope, courage and perseverance. As a tribute to Lance’s inspirational fight against cancer, yellow wristbands engraved with his mantra, Live Strong, are sold in an effort to raise $5,000,000 for the Lance Armstrong Foundation (LAF).
Well.. I'm buying it through one of the NS guys. He is ordering 10 and he has 4 extras. Thus I asked to buy from him. I must say that my initial impulse to buy it was because it is kinda cool. But after reading more abt it, I find it rather meaningful. It is afterall a donation to the foundation. However, on the personal level, what yellow symbolises and what the band symbolises are what makes me wanna have it.
Stand Up Speak Up
Another wrist band I'm interested in is the "Stand up, Speak up" wristband. It consists of 2 wristbands (one black, one white) interwined together. It is in support of the fight against racism in football. However, it is still not sold world wide yet. You can see it on this site.
Well.. I admit, I like this one mainly because of the design. However, the other sub-reason would be to remind myself not to stereotype against other races. However, I feel that this band is quite meaningless to me as I feel that stereotypes are nurtured. In a sense, as we grow up in the environment we r in, the stereotype would become ingraned into us. Much as we know tt it is wrong and we consciously try not to do it, we will eventually entertain some thoughtsabout it sub-consciously. And when something bad happens, we will point our fingers to the target of racism.
However, I also believe that it is during the time when "something bad happens" whereby the wristband would come into handy as a reminder for us to be fair.
Anyway, for this band, I will only get if it can be easily purchased. Cuz it is produced by Nike and I dun exactly trust a profit-maximising organisation to do things fair.
Other Wristbands
I also know about some other wristbands. Mainly S'pore based.
Standard Chartered "Seeing is Believing" wristband (comes in green or blue colours). Haha.. I think you can purchase it from any Standard Chartered outlets. It symbolises the fight against blindness
Standard Chartered Wristband
There is also the abstainance from pre-marital sex "Worth Waiting For" wristbands. It was sold by Focus on the Family organisation on Valentine's Day. I'm not really concerned with it cuz I'm still single. wahaha.. Plus I already don't believe in it. However, this is subjected to the circumstances.. wahahahahahhaha.. *evil laughter*
Do you guys know of any other wristbands???? Pls let me know. I'm rather interested in them. Thks..
The Origin. 2/28/2005 08:42:00 pm
Hmm.. I just saw this in Alicia's Blog. She took the trouble to post the photo on her blog but oh well.. I rather lazy.
Mrs. Koh Swee Cheng was last seen on 22 Feb 05. She's senile and she doesn't know where she stays or even who she is. I hope those of u who browse my blog would take some time off and look at the site listed. She happens to stay in Ang Mo Kio. Thus if you stay ard the area, pls kindly take note of it. Thks. This is the link.
The Origin. 2/27/2005 08:21:00 pm
Damn... woke up at 0640 this morning to go to ECP for the family day thingy.
Took 700 to Orchard and took 36 to Amber rd. Then I walked to Big Splash. Haha.. Don't know if I'm considered lucky. I was walking to the underpass when all of a sudden the wind starts to blow and the sky became so dark (I tink it's cuz I juz made a turn ard a huge building. Tt's y there's the sudden gush of wind.) I was praying hard tt it wld not rain be4 I reach Big Splash. And amazingly, it only rained after I got into the underpass and the exit is less than 5 min walk to Big Splash. BUT the family day was very boring cuz of the rain and cuz there's practically nth to do. Ok, there r some activities but you wldn't really feel like playing when the ppl there r not with ur age grp. They r either very young or in their30s - 50s. Anyway, I sat and talked a little bit of cock with Joel until we "marked" our attendance by meeting our Chief Clerk and my boss. Haha.. My boss seemed to be in a crappy mood, he went touring the place with another of his frenz after he joked with us. Joel and I went off soon after at 1000. He was kind enough to drive me to Kallang MRT Station.
I went to the Mac which is located juz beside the Station, under a HDB flat. It's not as crowded as the Mac in Bt Panjang. I like it. I could take my own sweet time to eat and at the same time, look out onto the street and the vehicles. It was a luxury I cldn't enjoy in the branch in Bt Panjang or Orchard. I tink there's a branch in Teban Gardens (near where my sis's bf stays). It's oso under a HDB flat. I wonder if it's like the one in Kallang..
After my breakfast, I took a train to Tampines and walked to SAFRA Tampines. Haha.. I chose to walk there cuz I was told tt it's only 3 bus-stops away. yes, it's indeed 3 bus-stops away but it's so far man. haha.. It took me close to 30 mins to reach the place and the weather made it worse. I was perspiring like hell by the time I reach the place (1200). I did some exploration of the place and found a swimming pool. I wanted to go for a swim but there were so many ppl. So I took a short nap on one of the sofas . Not the most comfortable one but u can fall asleep on it when u r tired. Finally, at 1300, I went to the Exit Permit Office to extend my passport. It was very fast. I was the 9th person in line and I was done by 1330.
Then I took bus 67 from tt place to Bt Timah. Wow.. It was the longest bus ride I took. It was 1 hr & 20 mins to reach Bt Timah. then I changed to 171 and I reached home at 1500hrs. Shag....
The Origin. 2/26/2005 10:11:00 pm
wahaha.. NOW, I dedicate this entry to Ms. BlueStar (erm.. technically, the previous one was dedicated to ur comment.. not pointed at u..) Anyway, sry sry.... I tink tt entry sounded a bit harsh... haha.. It is NOT a gesture to stop u from tagging on my blog... paiseh paiseh...
Extension of Passport for NSFs
This is for all u NSFs out there... If u wish to extent ur passport (after 6 mths), u can go to 3 places to do so...
- The building at Lavender MRT Station (Weekdays: 8-5, Sat: 8-1)
- CMPB, Exit Permit Branch (Weekdays: 8-5, Sat: 8-1)
- SAFRA Tampines (Weekdays: 2-9, Sat: 1-5) (Ur passport needs to be within ten yrs of issue to go there)
Then I'll leave at 1200 (tt's the official release timing) to take a bus to SAFRA Tampines... Sigh.. Practically, my whole saturday is burnt..... Sigh....
The Origin. 2/22/2005 08:19:00 pm
Went to Bugis Si Ma Lu today.. As usual, my dad drove my mom n I down.. (My sis went down ytd.. so she didn't come along) We went to pray to Guan Yin..
Anyway, I walked to Sunshine Plaza after we had our lunch.. Wow... There are so many models, figurines & anime shops there. wow... A paradise man!!! Anyway, Cedric, if u r reading this, there's one shop there selling a 16 Inch Alien figuring for $69.90.. haha.. So if u r feeling rich enough, can go there n buy... wahaha...
After tt, I walked back to where my dad parked his car and waited for them.. I walked passed this small area juz opp Fortune Centre (I tink).. There's this orange colour small building there. It's called sth like Middle Road Church or sth like tt. The church is currently used as some kind of an exhibition hall for small arts. The one showing is one abt train rides from S'pore to Johor.. I kinda like the ambience there. Too bad, I dun have the time to stay longer.. There happens to be a small little cafe behind the church. haha.. Dunno watz the price range like.. haha..
Today makes me realise tt I dun know S'pore at all. I only know small parts here n there.. Sad.. I tink we shld be a tourist to our own country and maybe we will feel that life in S'pore is much more interesting than we know it to be.. haha.. Maybe shld juz go back-packing in S'pore.. Using Bt Panajng as a base.. wahaha... I tink I'll jio ppl to do it when I starts to clear my leave next yr..
The Origin. 2/20/2005 04:28:00 pm
I dedicate this post in response to Bluestar's comment.. haha.. (Actually, cuz I cannot edit the previous post..) Plus, I feel that my recent posts lack details. My sincere apologies...
From the way I see it, attraction is one thing. To like somebody is another. To love somebody is yet another thing altogether.. I am attracted to the principal cuz I feel that she's cool... However, I'm sure u will not go steady with someone juz cuz u feel tt he/she is cool.. I wld say I admire her to a large extent cuz she's the exact opp of myself and she's like the person I want to be.. To know where I wanna go and to know how to get there.. Til now, I feel that I'm still like a lost child wandering ard.. Not knowing wat the hell I want in life.. And I certainly hope tt this will not be the case for all my life..
The Origin. 2/20/2005 01:10:00 pm
After reading BlueStar's comment, I decided to make things clearer.... Abt the Principal part...
Sharon, Jun Hong and I went to Swiss early this morning (0930). As usual, our Mr. Lu and Ms. Low were late. However, Mr. Lu made the effort to be early by taking a cab. haha.. We met at the back-gate's bus-stop but the back-gate is closed.. So we had to walk all the way to the main entrance and the stupid security guard did not allow us to go in cuz he said tt the school is closed on sat(although there are still ppl gg to Swiss for CCA). Luckily, Jason Lim (Sec 3 teacher but he rather we call him by name as we have graduated) came out and brought us into the school.. Sad man.. With all the security and stuffs, school suddenly feels so "corporated".
Anyway, we basically went there to meet Jason Lim cuz Sharon wants to get him to appraise her for her NTU Scholarship (and she don't wanna go alone.. then asked us along.. sigh.. gals...). Anyway, took the chance to go back n get back some memories. In truth, it was really SOME memories. Sigh.. The school changed so much. I lost my bearing soon when I was inside (Jason took the liberty of bringing us ard). I could barely feel anything to the school itself. Even most of the teachers have changed. Only few remained. Eg Constance Wong, Susan Lim, Lee Jee Pang (ham-jee-peng), Arthur Ngoh and a FEW more.
Then we got the chance to speak to the current principal cuz Jason felt tt getting her to appraise Sharon is better (and I agree). I am very impressed by her. The way she speaks, the way she tries to make us feel proud to be a part of Swiss (and indeed we are), the way she brings herself.. Wow.. It's like she just knows what she wants and plans very well how to get there. According to Jason, she is leading the school really well. Wow.. She's so cool man.. I tink I'm kinda attracted to such kinda gals..(Bluestar, attracted is one thing, like is another and love is yet another thing.. haha.. this is wat I feel lah) However, Sharon and Jun Hong thinks tt with such gals, one wld probably treat her like a mother and look up to her.. haha.. In a way, quite true ba.. wahaha... I suppose wat I feel is a form of deep respect for this kinda of ladies ba.. I simply feel that ladies (men too but ladies are more significant, i tink) who know exactly where they want to be and how to get there are very respectable and draws me to admire them.. But this isn't the kind of women u wld want to hold hands with.. To admire is not to love..
We also talked abt teachers. Man.. They have to do loads of stuffs man. It's no longer like the past whereby they just come to school and teach. Their job-scope now includes so many things other than students.
Anyway, from wat happened today, I feel that places and things change over time. As time passes, you may feel distanced from a certain place. However, it is the ppl that can keep things the same for you. In most cases, they wld try to welcome you back to the place. Just like wat the principle did. She cld jolly well carry on with her job and don't care abt us when we were there but she took the time off her work time to talk to us. Jason oso took time to talk to us and stuffs (1 whole morning). He has to be in charged off an event in the afternoon but he still took his time and speak with us.
Lesson learnt: It is such small gestures that make ppl feel welcomed, i feel. As my Mom wld say, ppl must "hui zhuo ren".
The Origin. 2/19/2005 07:42:00 pm
haha.. Talked abt it over the MSN with one of my frenz (shall not disclose his name as he might not welcome the mention) haha.. anyway, I read an article abt it a few sundays ago.. tt super fat guy was like a god in Vietnam! With dunno how many hundreds (forgot the figure) of wives for him to choose from.. wow...
I admit having so many gals in line for u to choose is a fantasy but I dun tink I wld go to tt extent even if I were to be single til the day I die.. haha.. I rather be single than go n find them..
Firstly, cuz I feel tt it's kinda like taking advantage of their plight.. If they were in a better position, they would not have to go thru all those shit... When I do bring one of them back n marry her, she wld only be grateful towards to me.. Would she love me???
2nd, if I were to do tt, I do not love her.. There isn't time for romance... I tink i simply marry her to get a child???? cuz i'm too desperate??? Then it totally defeats the reason for marriage..
3rd, I dun tink Vietnam gals very chio anyway, I prefer S'porean gals!!!! wahahahaha....
The Origin. 2/17/2005 06:44:00 pm
Cedric and Myself
haha.. Yes!!! Finally figured out how to post a photo on blog!! haha... Actually, I was too lazy to figure it out.. hahaha..
Anyway, this is the photo Cedric & I took when we went for the movie, Constantine.. Loh Wei & SS ran off le.. So only the 2 of us.. I was using my right hand to hold the camera n take the photo.. haha.. outside PS.
Cedric, U better feel very very honoured cuz it so happens tt u r in the 1st photo I put up on my blog.. wahaha.. (although I wld rather it be a gal lah...)
The Origin. 2/16/2005 08:32:00 pm
Have u guys heard??? The Wishing Tree in Hong Kong fell down le!!! Wah!!! As a fan of HK serials, I have seen the tree for so many times in the shows and it had been a small wish of mine to see it.. Though it may not be the most beautiful sight (compared to the Grasslands of New Zealand.. blahblahblah), there is sth fascinating abt its existance in the middle of the many high-raised buildings in HK.. And how Hongkies said tt their wishes would come true once they threw a rock with their wish written onto the tree.. Sad...
In the news today also, the average life span of a woman is currently at 80+.. so the average life span of a human being shld be higher now... But the way I see it, 70-80 yrs is nth.. There isn't enough time for wat we really want to do.. Let me explain..
- We spend the 1st 20-30 yrs of our pathetic lives not knowing wat we want in life.. We fall head over heels for some ppl and not have the feeling returned.. We also spend time on things that simply don't last..
- When we finally do know wat we want (maybe when we are thirty), we may not be ready to achieve it.. Wat we did for the last 20-30 yrs has not prepared us for it..Then we work towards it.. PLUS when we are 30, there wld be soo many committments ard..
- Now, to age 70-80... we r simply too weak to do much... we can only lie in one corner n fade away...
As of now, wat I really want in life is to travel ard the world.. I want to get a job which wld entails me to travel to different parts of the world... And of course, there must be time for me to see n experience things in the different countries... Well.. tt's a dream.. In reality, it may not happen... Sad....
The Origin. 2/14/2005 07:53:00 pm
I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
that you belong with me
you might think
I don't look
but deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you
mmmm
I'm weak
it's true
cause I'm afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
i'ts time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true
you don't know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move
I'm weak
it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you meant me!
[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true
I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
the way that's true
[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true
The Origin. 2/13/2005 03:35:00 pm
Ha.. Went to watch Constantine with Cedric, Loh Wei & SS ytd afternoon..
It was a nice show, I wld say.. The ways the director chose to protray the angels, demons, heaven n hell are pretty cool.. I especially like the part on heaven n hell.. all the landscapes are as according to earth, yet they are in hell.. I tink it's super cool but it's oso quite stupid in the sense tt wat we build on earth wld affect the layout in hell or heaven... So if we build a building on earth, there wld be the same building on hell... Personal tots...
On the whole, I still stick by my pt, Keanu Reeves is soooo cool.. Even as John Constantine, a smoker, he's still soooo cool... Hahaha.. Even the way he smokes is sooo cool.... wahahaha...
Oh.. met Loh Wei for the 1st time since we POP... haha.. he's still as funny as ever.. I found tt despite wat ppl say abt a certain ppl, u gotta get to know tt person n make ur own judgement.. I have heard some bad things abt Loh Wei when I was in AJC but when I got to know him in BMT, I found tt he's a really nice person despite wat "adnormal" things he does... He's a nice guy... haha..
Gathering with Sharon, Qin Yi, Jia Ming, Ryan & Timothy..
In the evening, I went to Sharon's hse for a gathering with them.. We "ta bao" to her hse for dinner.. the played some games here n there... It was ok lah.. though i muz say tt the mood wasn't there.. And when the mood finally came, we all have to go le... Sad..
We left her hse at 2200.. I didn't feel like coming home so early, so I walked with Timo to the MRT station and then took a bus from there (i cld have taken the bus from Sha's place directly).
For the 1st time in so many yrs, we finally had the time to chat (not juz talk cock).. haha.. usually, there's juz so many ppl ard.. haha.. anyway, Timo is now planning if he wants to go to Uni( I suppose tt's wat all Poly students are tinking abt now)..
Anyway, even after i reached Bt Panjang, I still felt like walking and not go home (and slp) so early.. So I walked all the way to the 7-Eleven to grab a sandwich n strolled back.. haha...
haha.. I suppose I juz like to walk ard (preferably little ppl ard) when I have things on my mind.. I wanted to walked back from BBDC this morning but I had to be home cuz my sis's bf is coming.. haha...
The Origin. 2/13/2005 01:19:00 pm
I believe tt there is a kind of ppl in this world who work very hard. They put in their effort and are dedicated to their job. However, because of their stress resistence and their care-free attitude, ppl tink tt they are actually slacking their time away. But once u summarise wat they did for the corporation, u find out tt they have contributed a lot..
I also know of a kind of ppl who bring themselves really well to the extent tt ppl tink they work hard when they are actually slacking..
The Origin. 2/11/2005 08:59:00 pm
haha.. Went to work today.. Well.. It wasn't as bad as I tot it wld be.. I managed to pass time by helping Joel to call ppl up to check on their availability for some events n also by printing papers for some meeting tt's coming up.. Anyway, went for gym work with Kay Eng during lunch time.. haha.. dun really like the kind of rush to do as much exercise as i can within an hr... but i suppose i have no choice.. LLST.. Cuz 1 gym work out per week isn't gg to help me much..
Past
Am I still living in the past? Why do I still feel as I did in the past? Is it tt some things are simply so difficult to get over? How do I get over it? Must I really put in my best effort and fail be4 I get over it?
The Origin. 2/11/2005 08:22:00 pm
haha.. went to Lin Run's hse with Ai Tian to bai nian.. Then we went to Jurong East to ice-skate at ard 1500.. haha.. after 3 yrs of not ice-skating, the experience was super good.. I fell abt 3 times.. Thanx to Lin Run for the 3rd time... haha.. She placed her hands on the ice and then place her hands on the back of my neck when I was skating.. I was so stunned tt I fell.. wahahahaha,...$%^&&** I think tt the adreline and the peak only starts when u skates really fast (as according to ur limit) n u fall.. wahahaha... For me, I simply, "F***" then I started laughing and climbing up... haha.. then suddenly, I became really "high" and started skating really fast...
Thinking...
Anyway, being with them makes me think abt my secondary period.. I finally came to realise the meaning of some things tt happened in the past... many things tt happened, i didn't realise until i really tot of it while i was on the train.. Really feel tt I'm super duper dense...
Sigh..
The Origin. 2/10/2005 08:38:00 pm
Anyway, my family was the 1st to be there (as usual) at ard 1630..Oh.. Shld have said this, my grandma stays with uncle Henry (eldest son but there's actually an elder sis).. So met my 3 cousins.. Yan Ming, Wei Qi n Yan Rong (descending order).. haha.. very funny.. Yan Ming is super fit lah but he wanna downgrade when he goes to NS next yr (he's in NYJC now).. However, his mom & dad (dunno wtf is wrong with them) wants him to go to units like Commando to learn the meaning of suffering.. Isn't it stupid like shit????
Then there's Wei Qi. wow.. I tink she's super chio le.. suddenly become so chio within a yr.. I tink she has a keen fashion sense n has the guts to dress up as according to fashion. BUT she's super funny in the sense tt once she starts to "warm up" with u, anything & everything comes out of her mouth.. haha.. I think she's simply too open ba.. haha.. she even talked abt how she tanned her back by wearing bikini & lying on the balcony of her hse.. PLUS she even took photos of herself in her black bikini (at home lah).. haha.. like those pics u find off FHM... AND Yan Ming cannot take it.. He's the more "bao shuo" kinda guy.. haha... I heard tt he even asks his sis to wear her skirt (thos mini one) properly cuz guys r looking..
Then Yan Rong really reminds me a little of who I were in the past.. Always hide in the comp rm n play games while guests were here.. n keep reading comics.. haha.. ban jing ba liang.. haha..
Then the rest came later in the evening.. The thing abt my mom's family is this, the excitment only comes once uncle Henry leaves the hse.. Last yr, he needed to attend some business. This yr he had to send my aunt (the eldest one) home.. AND some time after he leaves, uncle David (youngest son) starts to havoc.. Even Yan Ming startsto bring out poker cards to play games..
Anyway, we played tt stupid game whereby u place the card on ur forehead (u dunno wat is ur card).. And u start adding water (can be anything) to a jug... anyway, ytd was no kik lah.. juz one small cup of plain water as the max bid...
Well.. tt's all... later gg to meet AiTian n Lin Run for Ice Skate.. wahahaha.. long time neber Ice Skate le.. Let's pray tt I dun fall......
The Origin. 2/10/2005 08:44:00 am
Anyway, I tink tt initiative is a really impt element in all kinda relationship.. Especially if u wanna maintain friendship with a big bunch of ppl... It takes the initiative (and committment) of EVERY individual in the grp to make the friendship last.. Inititiative to organise gatherings, call/sms one another to tok.. blah blah blah... Simply relying on someone to organise n stuffs cannot make things work in the long run as tt person wld be sick n tired after sometime.. And it also take different ppl to constantly come up with diff things to do n stuffs... Of cuz, it can be a cycle whereby everybody takes turn to organise.. But such things can't be told to ppl, rite? It shld be on a voluntary basis but if nobody has the initiative to volunteer n organise, nth can work out.. then eventually, the "organiser" wld be sick n tired.. And the number of gatherings wld decrease, and the friendship wld end up like a "hi, how r u, bye" kinda relationship..
To sum it all up, I tink tt we all shld be proactive n any relationship to keep it gg... This is juz wat I feel..
The Origin. 2/08/2005 09:02:00 am
hmm.. went to Palm Beach Restaurant at Fullerton One... Family dinner cuz we got vouchers for tt place.. The ambience is soooo damn good!!!! Hahaha.. It's the ideal place to go for dinner on a Sunday evening, i tink.. It's not very crowded.. And there's a Baker's Inn there, which is really quiet... And the price range for Baker's Inn is still considered to be within my budget......
Hahaha... btw, saw a very very chio gal in the Flash & Splash (for gals) in Wistma... Reall really chio n sweet leh.. haha... I was like "wow" when I saw her... hahahaha.... I was sooo tempted to go n ask her for her no.. hahaha.. but i'm with my sis... so no guts... I tink I'm getting a little bit despo after my uncle came to my hse n started the topic on me being single + Weili's talk abt, "20 yrs old le.. Not young anymore.." hahahaha... must be tt..,...
Anyway, I read Candice's post on falling in love for those who dun like u, n not liking those who like u...
I tink tt it is quite true ba... It happened on me be4.... My theory is tt "ren dou shi fan jian de" ie. human beings r despicable? haha.... We r unlikely to accept/appreciate things tt are always there/delivered to us... We tend to appreciate/accept things which are diff to get or when we need to put in effort to get... haha.. I tink lah.... kinda sucky......
haha.. gotta go le... I tink wheat grass drink is very effective for disgestion.. I juz drank less than 1/2 a cup ( abt 15 mins ago) & now I need to go to the toilet le... hahahahaha...
btw, how do u guys put in a title for ur entry huh????? is there such a function??? cuz i can't find it....
The Origin. 2/06/2005 09:12:00 pm
Anyway, this is all thanks to my sis's bf, Francis, for helping me to purchase and set up my comp.. haha.. Thank god he is here or I'll die a horrible death...
Anyway, went to visit my father's mom ytd... For those of u who know, my family doesn't keep in contact with my father's family (his sisters n brothers n mom). This is cuz of a very old (be4 I was borned) family history. Shall tok abt it a bit.
My father is the eldest son and the other son is the youngest.. Then there r abt 5 sisters (not sure of no).. Apparently, the whole family (including my father's mom) looked down on my father and mother.. When my father wanted to take care of his mom (chinese tradition), his mom said sth like, " you only want to take care of me cuz you want my money. Even if i were to die, I will not stay with you."
Thus my family have not been in contact with that family.. of cuz, there r many other small incidents.. but i shall dwell on them.
Anyway, his mom went to stay with his sisters instead.. And his youngest bro was a gd-for-nth who ran to China cuz he committed some crime n is a drug-addict. (but his mom still finances the bro) From wat I hear, mydad's sisters cheated his mom of her money in one way or another.. n now, she has no money and is staying in a 1-rm flat in bedok alone...
We have been avoiding tt family since I was born (only met them once as i remembered). And we cld jolly-well avoid them all the way. But we went to meet my dad's mom ytd nite.. Cuz my dad still wants to see her in case she died or sth.
So we went there at 8.. The flat is opp Temasek JC. It's those kinda one-rm flats tt r rented out to the poor. It was my first time seeing those kinda place. I was hit by a sudden feeling of happiness tt I dun live there.. (My mom, dad n sis stayed in 1-rm flats in Redhill be4 I was borned. ) It isn't old. In fact, it has juz been renovated (from the looks of it). However, it is dirty. u can practically smell a slight stench. And there r stray cats almost everywhere... The corridor may be new but there isn't any windows.. juz a door. Kinda feel like a prison.. Very enclosed... very restrained...
Then for the very 1st time, I stepped into a 1-rm flat.. It wasn't very very bad.. the whole place is abt the size of my bedroom + my sis bedroom.. then I saw my grandma for like the 1st time (the other time was ages ago).. Nth much to say.. I dunno her dialect... haha... But she still hangs a photo of my grandfather after so long.. And tt was the 1st time I saw a photo of my grandpa.. Really like my dad, I muz say... anyway, my grandma lives alone (got kiked out of the hse by her be-love daughters) After 20 yrs, this was the 1st time, she saw me, the grandson she looked down on and forsaked to look after the child of her daughter... But I dun bear any hatred to her cuz I was too young to feel the anger at tt time.. Now, I'm only seeing this as though it is the life of someone else.. She hugged me n cried when we were abt to leave...
Seriously, my family really pity her.. but after all her had done n said, it's really diff for us to accept her... She, on her part, knew tt things can't be changed.. She did wat she did.. n she did not say or do anything to want us to accept her...
Kinda sad,.. if things had not happened the way it did, life might be diff for her and for everyone in the family.. I suppose I'll be a diff person altogether...
I mean up til now, I have never lived with my grand ma (mother side or father side) be4. I certainly feel ok abt it. I dun remember being jealous tt other kids have got grandma but I suppose the presence of a grandma wld make me a diff person... Maybe I have been broughtup lacking sth in life wthout even realising it... haha...but life's like this, i suppose..
For now, I can only wish her good luck til the day she dies...
The Origin. 2/05/2005 06:55:00 pm
I tried starting up but my pc keeps hanging at the blue xp log-in page for a long long time until it automatically restarts by itself...
after a few times, the error message appears, "drwtsn32.exe - Application error Failed to initialise properly (0xc0000006)"
Then during one of the restarts,
"SMART Failure Predicted on Primary Master: ST340016A
Warning: Immediately back-up your data and replace your hard disk drive
A failure is imminent."
then I tried accessing the Safe Mode with Command Prompt... I wanted to scan disk... but cannot oso...
sigh... anyone know abt it?? can sms me..... I'm now using a comp in the office.... sigh....
The Origin. 2/02/2005 09:43:00 am