To whom it may concern.....
I have been wanting to write this for ages. i believe tt i shld.
If it means anything to you, well.. tt "whom" is you..
"For the things I did or did not do in the past. For everything, I'm sorry."
The Origin. 3/31/2005 10:18:00 pm
Did I tell u guys?
Due to NS, I am unable to use my 7250 and due to my careless-ness, I lost the 8850 which I was using in BMT. These led me to using my dad's Samsumg S 500.. And he is using my 7250... Apparently, he likes it... So I suppose I'll have to buy another one (which I plan to) when I ORD..
I must say.. The loss of 8850 and use of S500 caused many things to change... For better or worse, I dunno..
Anyway, because of S500's LITTLE amt of memory space dedicated to storage of SMSes and Memos, I am unable to keep cutoms SMSes (Actually, can lah but diff to do things).. Thus everytime someone sends me some custom SMSes, I am unable to revert with another custom SMS, like I used to. And for a long period of time, I didn't bother to reply because of tt or i gave a short reply or I simply forgot to reply.
Now, come to think abt it.. I feel tt custom SMSes are kinda meaningless. Wat was written may be creative and flowery BUT they lack true feelings of the sender or even the slightest resemblance of how the sender types his/her SMSes.. I know of a fren who takes the effort to type out quotes tt he comes across and send out to his frenz. I feel that at least there is some authentication.
Personally, I feel that one doesn't need creativity to express his/her feelings. One don't have to send long crap of flowery msges, even a simple greeting of "good morning" is MORE than enough to remind someone tt he/she is remembered.
In addition, the SMS becomes even more meaningless when the receiver replies with another custom SMS to the sender. Ok.. Maybe the receiver went thru the trouble of looking for the partcular SMS in his/her Inbox BUT the pt is tt his/her reply is "custom made".
Furthermore, I feel that somehow these custom SMSes hinder our ability to express our feelings or even to greet one another. As we become more accustomed to using "ready-made" SMSes to convey our feelings, we type less of our feelings and we wldn't really know what to type to truly express our feelings.
However (as we need to do this for our GP essays), it would be nice to receive such SMSes from frenz whom u seldom get the chance to contact. Although it lacks the true feeling, it shld still represent a faction of the sender's goodwill and feelings.
The Origin. 3/31/2005 06:53:00 pm
I believe the title is self-explanatory. I just had my driving test today at 1630 and I flunked it. Real Bad. All in all, I lost 28 pts. Well, since I plan to pen this AAR down somewhere. It might as well be here. So why did I fail? Generally, I would say, I was too nervous. My heart was practically beating so damn fast when I drove. Plus, I did a wrong decision before my test even started. I thought that I should drive slower than my practices in order to be more careful. Turned out tt I was too slow. Causing me MANY pts.
Second, the same old problem of insufficient acceleration leading to delayed moving off.
Next, incorrect braking? I will check with the instructor when I go for my next lesson.
Basically, I failed because of my lack in skill (driving). Everything else were good. The weather, the instructor, the car, the test route etc. Thus I have only myself to blame.
Bottom-line: Failing once is MORE than enough. I will do everything within my means to ensure a pass the next time.
Next Test: 19 May 05, 0725 to 0855
The Origin. 3/28/2005 06:31:00 pm
I believe the title is self-explanatory. I just had my driving test today at 1630 and I flunked it. Real Bad. All in all, I lost 28 pts. Well, since I plan to pen this AAR down somewhere. It might as well be here. So why did I fail? Generally, I would say, I was too nervous. My heart was practically beating so damn fast when I drove. Plus, I did a wrong decision before my test even started. I thought that I should drive slower than my practices in order to be more careful. Turned out tt I was too slow. Causing me MANY pts.
Second, the same old problem of insufficient acceleration leading to delayed moving off.
Next, incorrect braking? I will check with the instructor when I go for my next lesson.
Basically, I failed because of my lack in skill (driving). Everything else were good. The weather, the instructor, the car, the test route etc. Thus I have only myself to blame.
Bottom-line: Failing once is MORE than enough. I will do everything within my means to ensure a pass the next time.
Next Test: 19 May 05, 0725 to 0855
The Origin. 3/28/2005 06:31:00 pm
Haha.. Went to Kino to read some books with Cedric today and OMG!! He was wearing a pink tee-shirt despite his constant kb abt guys in pink!! Haha.. Ok lah.. It wasn't tt bad and I shall stop kb-ing abt it. Anyway, we spent abt an hr browsing the books and we spent the rest of the afternoon window shopping from Orchard to SUNTEC to Bugis. This is my TEMPORARY WishList because I tink the desire to buy them are on impulse and I think these desires would die out over time.
- A Crumpler Bag (actually, this is on my long-term wishlist. I plan to buy one once I ORD but see how bah). It's blue in colour and the design is like those red coloured ones which many ppl are carrying (without stripes of different shades) but with a white stripe across it on the right and the logo is on the white stripe. It is bigger than the red colour ones.
- A scale 1:100 Justice Gundam + a scale 1:100 Freedom Gundam. I think I'll get my sis to buy them when she goes on her Japan trip later this yr. They will be cheaper by then.
- I saw a 12-inche Spawn: Wings of Redemption but I am looking for a smaller figurine kinda size. I am not a Spawn fan but I like the wings and the design. I tink I have a liking for angel's wings, devil's wings and death or things that symbolises of imitates them, which explains why I in particularly like my Deathscythe Gundam and Wing 0 Gundam. Basically, I feel that toys from this company has a cool factor to them and not to mention, artistic details. Like their dragon series, movie series etc. But there are certain very sadistic ones too like their Twisted Land of Oz, Tortured souls etc. But dunno of any shops in SG which will keep stock of the older seasons.. Sigh... Maybe I'll make a trip to Toy R Us to look for it..
- A pair of shoes from Timberland. It's brown with yellow linings and a yellow sole. It's $179, i think. Haha.. Have to wait long long for the sale to come and have to make some arrangements at home as my mom and sis are kinda stingy abt shoe storage space in my hse (they are the two oligopolies of my hse's shoes)
- A few sets of small collectibles figurines. I am thinking abt changing my displays in my room. Or if possible, an alternative would be to buy clear acrylic boxes to place my Gundams in to put on display. They are quite ex but i heard tt Daiso sells sth like them. Hmm. May go down someday to check it out.
Cedric and I also went to the Guan Yin Temple in Bugis when we were there. haha.. We prayed and even "qiu qian" (draw lots???? dunno wat it is called in eng). Well.. I'm not supposed to annouce what I asked abt but it isn't diff to guess, i suppose. haha.. anyway, I asked abt it half-heartedly cuz I asked for the sake of fun and I had nth really troubling on my mind. So I tink Guan Yin oso answered me half-heartedly as I threw like 7-8 times before I got the "correct" lot. The interpretation is bad but I'm not really affected by it cuz it isn't really troubling me and I suppose I do not have a firm belief in religions..
The Origin. 3/25/2005 08:07:00 pm
Sigh.. I declare! I have lost faith in pirated game cds.
I bought 2 games and they just don't work!!! argh!!!!! Y!?!?!?!?
Sigh.. Now I'm still stuck with those online games which I'm getting rather sick of as there isn't any objective to meet...
Sigh...
The Origin. 3/23/2005 08:45:00 pm
"March 28 issue of NewsWeek - Terri Schiavo was starving to death. Last Friday, 15 years after a heart attack deprived her of oxygen and left her profoundly brain damaged, doctors at her Florida hospice removed her feeding tube, following a judge's ruling. If no one intervenes, she is expected to quietly pass away within two weeks. But there has been nothing quiet so far about Schiavo's plight, and there are many people trying to intervene. Christian activists are keeping a 24-hour vigil outside her door. Lawyers are petitioning the courts to keep her alive. Republicans on Capitol Hill spent the weekend feverishly trying to pass an unprecedented bill that would replace her feeding tube and allow her case to be heard in federal court."
Read abt this today cuz I managde to grab hold of the issue of NewsWeek (meant for a high ranking guy in my office) this afternoon.
Well.. I admit.. My tot was that she has been there for 15 yrs and it is very likely that she would not wake up. So just pull the "plug" and spend the resources on saving people who stands a higher chance of being "saved".
On the other hand, I carried on reading and found this: "Each day families across the country suffer private anguish over the decision to remove a loved one from life support. Their stories rarely make news, or prompt urgent action from lawmakers."
Then I started thinking.. If one day, one of my family members were to lie in the ward and were to suffer the same fate as Terri, I would want him/her to wake up and I would not want to pull the plug on him/her (if I can sustain the expenses, tt is.) .
However, if one day, one of my family members were to be involved in an accident and he/she requires precious medical resources, and the stupid asshole who has been asleep for XX yrs is hogging on to the resources, I would SECRETLY wish that someone pulls the plug and save my family member.
Human nature huh? And so, the qn: "In the absence of clear wishes, who should make life and death decisions?"
I have no idea what to think. The more I think into it, the more I see the hypocrisy of the world.
Just sharing with you guys on this issue.....
The Origin. 3/23/2005 07:53:00 pm
I went thru Straits Times ytd. I flipped through a set of the papers on the travel recommendations by NATA ( I think).. Got reminded of abt my desire to learn photographic n take beautiful pictures. Be a photographer for national geog so tt I can travel to places to take the photos.. And I wanna take photos of places tt leave ppl feeling, " wow... I wanna be at tt place.."
I also did a scholarship application ytd and was asked a qn, " if u have the resources to learn and enhance a skill, wat would it be?" Immediately, I dived into writing abt about it. But decided to throw tt idea away n wrote another thing.
And today, I remembered.. Back when I was in SCSS with my mom to apply for tt sch or sth like tt, my mom happened to queried abt CCAs. Of course, I took part in the discussion and one of the CCas I asked was photography. At that time, the teacher told us tt photography requires quite a large amt of start-up cost and tt cost was sth my family cldn't afford. My sis was in Uni and my dad was only earning abt $2500..
Somehow, I understood tt we were poor or maybe my desire for photography wasn't strong (not tt it is very strong now).. I did not bother my parents much abt it. We didn't even have a decent camera...
Now, I have the time. But spending $ on a camera + spending $ on a course is too much. In addition, I need to prepare some cash for Uni too. I was talking to Cedric the other day and sux! We have to buy so many damn things when we ord... hp, lap top, expenditure.... sux!!!
Anyway, I'm checking with SAFRA clubs as they have a photographic club. Hopefully, it'll be cheaper than the other... Then I might consider...
sad...
The Origin. 3/18/2005 09:10:00 pm
Kay Eng sent me this site.. http://wang-yuan.nease.net/wygs.htm ..
Haha.. pls take a look..
Is it meaningful?? I dunno... Maybe cuz I have not been thru it??? haha..
Speaking of Kay Eng, got to know him in MINDEF.. I find tt he is kinda like Cedric in a certain sense. Looks, i guess... Kinda feel tt he resembles Cedric in terms of looks.. haha.. character wise, Kay Eng is so much less crappy compared to Cedric.... haha...
The Origin. 3/17/2005 10:05:00 pm
haha.. Been to the IT Show in SUNTEC today.
Saw and touched all 3 types of players. There is some great offer for creative's items but I feel that i-pod mini and i-river's H10 are by far the better in terms of look.
Though I must say tt H10 is a little of a let down, I tink tt it is better than Zen at least in terms on looks.Zen is just too childish and lacks the attractive-ness to me.
BUT i-pod mini is the best!! it's so smooth and slick in terms of controls... i like it more than i like i-pod or i-pod photo... Oh... I tink I'm in love.. with i-pod mini.. But I tink I will wait for maybe a i-pod - radio - mini... wahahaha... dreaming of it already....
As for the prices, i tink only Creative's Zen is on promotional prices.. the rest are pretty much the same as I walked to Funan to check the prices afterthat..
The Origin. 3/12/2005 08:41:00 pm
Before I start the entry proper, I must say this. I read the papers today and the Mr. Lee happens to be a habitual gambler. Thus the pt on frenz doesn't really stand as they did help him in the past. Shall not dwell on this for too long.
Anyway, I have been looking at a new music player for quite some time (since i-pod came abt). These are the 3 that caught my eyes.. Actually, I tink they are the 3 tt aremore popular in the mkt.
I-River H10
Creative Zen
i-pod photo
I tink i-river is my top choice now cuz I like the design, the FM radio, the recording capability, the screen (i tink it's coloured unlike the 1st i-pod or creative's zen) AND the touch interface!!
BUT funnily, it can only stores 1200 songs while creative zen can store 2500 songs with the same 5 GB. Did I read it wrong? Can anyone shed some light on this issue?
Anyway, these are kinda ex... haha.. 500+!!! I tink I'll wait longer for the price to drop or for Sony (which just changed CEO, i tink) to come up with sth.
The Origin. 3/09/2005 08:14:00 pm
Have u guys seen the news today? There was this article abt a guy (Mr. Lee) who jumped down from his HDB flat and later the police found out tt his wife and 2 children were dead in the apartment. I read some of the comments in Straits Times as well as the New Paper. "They were like the perfect family", "Always together", "They should have asked their frenz n relatives for help" etc.
I felt that this world totally sux after reading this article..
First of all, Newpaper talked abt the wife borrowing a few hundred bucks to one of the neighbours a few weeks ago. According to Straits Times, the husband went to one other neighbour to borrow 2000 bucks but was rejected. Reason? They dun know each other well enough. (To be very very truthful, I believe I would have done the same thing if I were in the neighbour's place too)
Would the guy have gone to borrow money from the neighbour if his own frenz n relatives are able to or want to lend him the money? From my experience with my own relatives, I don't tink tt they will fork out money for me if I were in debt. From frenz? It all depends on how close we are and sometimes, the closest frenz may not be able to help u at times of crisis. PLUS, how many of us are really tt close? We may be "close" but when a crisis strikes, can we trust tt "close" fren to stay n help????
Next, "perfect family" and "always together" were used to describe the family/couple. That guy was afraid to tell his wife abt his debt as he was afraid tt she would divorce him. This is wat we call, "happily married"?? Will our "other hlaves" juz leave/divorce us in times of need? Is it just because we r insecure or is it that there is no more trust, love and commitment to talk abt in this world we r living in?
This brings me to one of the past articles abt wives saving their 'si fang qian".. Can we not trust the person who is sleeping next to us to share our woes? Must we take precaution against our so-called "other halves"? is this wat marriage is all abt? It is no better than remaining as frenz. It is no better than living on by urself. U juz can't trust...
Finally, some of the comments cited by Newpaper were sth like "y did the children have to go?". If I were in tt guy's shoes, I tink killing the 2 kids would be the best option I know of. If I can't even borrow a few thousand bucks from my own relatives, can I trust them to take care of my kids? How the hell will my kids live on in this... cruel.. world??? I might as well just take them with me...
Of course, I'm not saying tt committing suicide is the best option.. But to a desperate and cynical man, it is..
Now, to see wat the police discover as they investigate..
The Origin. 3/08/2005 08:20:00 pm
woke up at 0800 to go to JB this morning. Went with Mom, Sis & Francis.. It has been ages since I went there (actually, I tink I went once in early 2003 but we went only for a very short time). I feel that the air there seems different. It's a little more hazy than in SG.. Or is it just my imagination? Being there just gives me the feeling of being in a different place (I am in a different place) and I really really have the desire to walk ard n look ard. It is this feeling of difference tt makes me like travelling. And I thank god tt my family was too poor to travel when I was younger for I feel that I would not be able to appreciate it. It is now at this age that I appreciate it and I like to travel. the trip to australia last yr was sucky.. I didn't even know wth to look out for.. For my next trip (dunno in how many million yrs), I'm gg to do research on the place be4 I go.
Anyway, I bought Death Note (a comic) at JB. I tink the quality of the paper sux big time but I tink I'll simply read the comics once and won't touch it again.. It's the kinda storyline tt great for 1st time reading but sucky if u wanna read it again. Oh.. And I saw loads of pirated games shop.. I was soooo tempted to buy the games but I simply don't have the guts and I tink tt the difference in price (compared to sg) isn't enough for me to take the risk.
Hmm.. I tink this entry is kinda sucky.. I wanted to pen down soo many things but dun have the "ling gan" to pen down.. But I'll leave it on for now. May edit it when I'm free AND if I can remember wat to write.
The Origin. 3/05/2005 10:05:00 pm
haha.. back to the topic again.. Well.. guys, I have asked tt guy(I dun really know him)... He doesn't have any more of the wristbands left.
I have went to the website to check.. Apparently, Singapore is not listed as one of the countries there. And I asked tt guy and he said tt he asked his fren from USA to help him to buy the bands, and he doesn't want to trouble tt fren again.
So I suddenly tot of troubling WenEu who is studying in Arizona.. I trying to contact him to see if he can purchase it for me. So.. "Now, we wait.." haha..
The Origin. 3/02/2005 07:07:00 pm
Well.. With regards to my earlier entry on the missing grandma, the lady was found on 28 Feb.. haha.. There is an entry on it in the person's blog.
The Origin. 3/01/2005 08:25:00 pm