Sunday, April 17, 2005
Why am I born so?this might sound suicidal but I'm not...
Y Chinese? Y this society? Y these beliefs? Y male? Y this custom and y this tradition?
I hate all of them!!!! They are chains, locking me down with all the responsibilities. Draining my every hope to truly LIVE in this world I'm in. What is the pt of living when satisfaction, dreamz and happiness cannot be fulfilled? And yet, I must live on..... as a human??? No... More as a robot, i tink...... Then why must I live????? to fulfill all those stupid responsiblilities??????
I already feel like a robot .. Feeling no true happiness, only constant "sparks"ie imitation of true happiness now and then.... To keep me working and striving on in this society that I am "living" in...... Yet, there is a constant small voice at the back of my head, telling me that there are people worse off than I am.... AND tt is oso supposed to keep me gg, isn't it????? Sux.............
I yearn for the day for me to not to worry abt any responsibilities or committments watsoever...........
The Origin. 4/17/2005 09:46:00 am