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Sunday, May 22, 2005

Class Gathering & NS (CAA 230505)

Haha... U must be wondering how these 2 topics link... Well.. U'll see...

Had a clz gathering at China Square Central's Vila'ge. Well.. The usual ppl were there, like Xin Ru, Weili, Yun Han, Hiang Kiat, Ting Jun, Candice, Shi Qi, Liang Wei & Zhong Wei.. Only Rex & Li Quan seemed to be at the gathering for the 1st time (as I recall).. Anyway, good to meet all of them. Despite having slightly below 50% of the clz at the gathering, I feel that everyone's presence and (some of their) effort to attend the gathering made it (in my own terms) successful.. I dunno why but today, I truly appreciate them (those who attended and those who tries to attend but cannot do so). Not tt I dun feel so in the past but I feel strongly abt it today. Maybe affected by the book I juz finish reading? "The Five People You Meet In Heaven"? Haha.. Shall talk abt it tmr or sth... Have some gan xiang but hasn't exactly materialise....

Anyway, we talked abt several issues today... We have changed in a certain sense.. We used to simply crap ard but today, we talked abt (among the topics) being 20 and still not having any achievements in life... wat shld we do in the next five yrs? haha... My stand is clear. My life is on pause now. I will resume only after 16 Jun 06. Meanwhile, I shall try to improve myself by reading on books which I will not have the time to read when I go to studies (WeiLi, Thanks in advance arh.. haha)..

We left The Vila'ge at ard 2130.. and walked to Chinatown cuz Candice and Ting Jun wanted to go to the cheap CD shop but it was closed. Thus we separated & left for home thereafter. I took 190 with Rex, WeiLi & Shi Qi.. Basically, our topic revolves ard jerks in Uni (according to Shi Qi0 and assholes in NS.. Well.. As Shi Qi described jerks (basically, guys who jio gals but later did not bother to remain in contact with the gal), I felt a sense of guilt as I was one of them... However, I was stupid and I did not know wat I wanted. I still do not know wat I want now but I know tt I do not wanna be a jerk again...

On to NS, we talked abt the various types of assholes we see during our NS. Egoistic, selfish, back-stabbing, etc. As a personal opinion and Shi Qi mentioned tt her bf expressed the same opinion, poly students are in a sense less of such flaws and are easier befriend and beter to work with. Of course, I am not talking abt those who smoke, gamble, are ah bengs etc. But those who are moderate in poly... Well.. I suppose I know of such because I am a JC student and I mix more with JC students. If I were a poly student in NS, I wld probably mix more wth poly students and tend to see more of their flaws...

Anyway, I dislike NS (not tt I'm in the best position to say this cuz I'm slacking my NS away). I hate it for the ppl I have to face, for how irresponsible it is to leave my life in commanders who are only a yr older than me, for how ugly I have became cuz I cannot tolerate assholes anymore and for the 2 yrs & 4 mths I have to waste to go thru all these rubbish. I don't like to bitch.. I never did like it... I dislike the cycle of bitching behind ppls' back.. However, I learnt to do so in NS as I simply can't tolerate the number of assholes I meet in NS (PS: If u are reading this, dun worry.. U r probably not one of the assholes I'm talking abt). Because of my dislike for the cycle of bitching, I felt ugly everytime I cldn't control myself n start bitching abt assholes... Well.. I have to admit.. It felt good to finally bitch abt the assholes u meet... But still, I felt ugly there after....
However, much as I dislike all these... I muz admit tt it's a good lesson..... I learn many things in NS and many of which, I won't get to learn in clz rooms.. From my boss (now) and some of the ppl I meet in NS, I learn abt ppl.. I learn valuable lessons like how to treat ppl... How to Zhuo Ren... well.. there are always so many ways to look at a thing...

The Origin. 5/22/2005 11:35:00 pm

quotes

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true." - Dr. Meredith Grey from Grey's Anatomy

'How happy is the little Stone
That rambles in the Road alone,
And doesn't care about Careers
And Exigencies never fears-
Whose Coat of elemental Brown
A passing Universe put on,
And independent as the Sun
Associates or glows alone,
Fulfilling absolute Decree
In casual simplicity-' - How happy is the little Stone by Emily Dickinson

'This is your last chance.
After this, there is no turning back.
You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe.
You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.' - Morpheus, The Matrix

'The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence.
Not because you'll get it, but because you're doomed not to want it if you do.' - Unknown

'There are plenty of people with good intentions who take the wrong actions in the end' - Gundam Seed Destiny

'Life is no straight and easy corridor along
which we must seek our way,
lost and confused, now and again
checked in a blind alley.

But always, if we have faith,
a door will open for us,
not perhaps one that we ourselves
would ever have thought of,
but one that will ultimately
prove good for us.' - A.J.Cronin

"Every life has one true-love snapshot
Strangers are just family you have yet to come to know
No life is a waste.
The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone"

"A man can endure alot if he still has hope." - Clyde T. Ellis

" 'Appreciate It.' 2 simple words. A life span of gratitude." - Cinderella Man

"A boxer enters the ring alone. If knocked down, he alone could pick himself up and keep the fight going." - Cinderella Man

"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing you think you cannot do." - Eleanor Roosevelt

"Jame J. Braddock: I know this isn't what you wanted. But I can't win if you're not behind me.
Mae: I'm always behind you."

"People die in fairy tales all the time." - Max Baer, Cinderella Man

"Maybe sometimes people need to see someone do it so they can do it." - Father Rorick, Cinderella Man

"You always got ot figure you're not the best man in the world, there might be somebody better. That's the way it was. That's the way boxing is. The champion don't always stand up. There's always somebody coming up to take him. That's a part of life." - Jame J. Braddock

"If either man falls through weakness or otherwise, he must get up unassisted" - The Queensbury Rules, No. 4

"All men have fears, but the brave put down their fears and go forward, sometimes to death, but always to victory" - Motto of the King's Guard in Ancient Greece

"With each passing day in a good marriage, the love for your spouse grow stronger than the day before" - Cinderella Man

"I take responsibility" - President George W. Bush

"Sow a Thought, and you reap an Act;
Sow an Act, and you reap a Habit;
Sow a Habit, and you sow a Character;
Sow a Character, and you reap a Destiny." - Samuel Smiles

"Our doubts are traitors,
And make us lose the good we oft might win
By fearing to attempt - Shakespeare in Measure of Measure

"What does your heart tell you?" - Aragorn, LOTR

"To an outstretched hand we shall respond with an olive branch, but we shall fight fire with the harshest fire ever." - Israeli PM Ariel Sharon

"To deny our own impulses is to deny the very thing that makes us human. " - The Matrix

"Be without fear in the face of your enemies. Be brave and upright that God may love thee. Speak the truth, always, even if it leads to your death. Safeguard the helpless and do no wrong. That is your oath." - Balian of Ibelin, Kingdom of Heaven

"You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view... Until you climb inside of his skin and walk around in it." - Atticus Finch, To Kill A Mockingbird

"It is not our abilities that show what we truly are... it is our choices." - Dumbledore, Harry Potter

"Do not be too eager to deal out death in judgment. Even the very wise cannot see all ends." - Gandalf, LOTR

"Ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind. Or forgotten." - Lilo & Stitch

"Your heart is free. Have the courage to follow it." - Malcolm Wallace, Braveheart

"Every man dies, not every man really lives." - William Wallace, Braveheart

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