Monday, July 04, 2005
Random ThotsHmm.. What if I were to die tomorrow? What have I accomplished?
Will anyone mourn my disappearance from this world? Maybe they will but will they remember my existence after maybe a yr or 2? Will they visit my grave? Will they even think abt me for even a brief moment in their hectic life?
Have I done anything for them to remember me by? Have I touched their hearts maybe even a little for them to remember me by? Have I contributed to the ppl I know in any ways tt might cause them to look back and remember me, my life, my death or even a single moment they interacted with me?
Am I just a passing shadow in their lives? A past tt is easily forgotten?
How can I ask for committment if I cannot be committed myself? How many times have I thought of an idea only to give it up cuz I'm afraid of the amount of time and effort I have to put into it? how many times have I hoped for ppl to put in more effort into our friendship? I am just selfish. Asking for something yet unwilling to give the very same thing back.
If some greater power from high above were to take a look at an insignificant person like me, see every single sides there is to me and evaluate my value as a human, my life, how will I fare? Am I living my life to the fullest? Have I contributed? Have I succeeded? Is there even any value to me?
The Origin. 7/04/2005 09:12:00 pm