Friday, August 19, 2005
Agenda + Part 1 - 5Read tt it is always better to pen it down rather than simply think abt it... So this is my current agenda:
1. To be a volunteer for the next 11 mths until Uni starts
2. Learn sth.. Lol.. dunno wat yet..
I have idled for the last 1 yr plus. I'm not going to remain so...
Anyway, here's some sharing on the story I was talking about the other day...
Part 1 - 5.Long long ago, there was this girl who was in a jc in the east. She was a very charming girl, nice, sweet,pretty, and petite. She had beautiful eyes, and long flowing black hair. She had a very charming smile and a face which radiates youth. Although she is not a sexy girl, she has a sweet , innocent look. Then there was this guy, who was from another faculty. This guy had a small built, had boyish looks, and looked a little like an ah beng. This guy was in the same jc as this girl, and had a girlfriend in another jc, who was from his secondary school, but when he saw this girl, he was attracted to her. He was captivated by her, but he didn't do anything, as he knew he was attached. But there was something that was very weird, this girl resembles his current girlfriend a lot, and he cannot help it but steal glances at this girl whenever there is a chance to. Let this girl be T while the guy be K. And so a year passed, the guy, although he was attracted to the girl, didn't try anything funny to know her or things like that. But as time passes, the relationship btw him and his current gf started to have problems. They were holding on together while many others have failed. K knew that it was not a good idea to break up with her as that was a crucial point of their lives, the A levels.. but it doesn't mean that he has no more love for her, it was just that their relationship lacked spice and started to become routine. One fine day, K went out to celebrate his friend's birthday and he saw T again at a food court. When he saw her, that funny sensation came back to him again. That weird feeling he had came back to him again. This time, he knows he cannot resist her anymore. But still he didn't try to get to know her, he fought down that urge again. So after going home, K went online. This world has something called fate, and it happened btw K and T. T was online too that night. K doesn't have a habit of talkin to strangers online, but that night, he just felt that he needed to talk to someone. So he went to an irc channel that was their school channel and waited. Fate gave them a chance, and made T come to irc. K had known the nick T used in irc, but didn't try hard enough to talk to her, until that day , he just plucked up his courage to talk to her... So he double clicked on her nick, and started to say.. " Hi , I saw you today at the food court " She replied " Oh were u the one who was wearing the purple shirt with the blue jeans?" K was amazed that she remembered him. So they chatted happily on irc. At this time in T's head, she was actually attracted to K . She thinks that K was a very handsome guy. ( From what she told K later on ) So when she saw her that day , it left a very deep impression. And so they talked and talked, and K was happy yet guilty that he had talked to another girl. T knows that K had a gf, so she only chatted with K. So one day passed, and both of them felt happy to have met each other online. From that day onwards, K knew that he had not been a good guy, he was very sad that he had did something like that. Although when now he thinks back it was perfectly alright, in that period of time he feels that he is a flirt. So whenever he saw T in school, he didn't say hi or anything. He just walked passed her many times without saying anything. Inside the head of T, she was thinking why K treated her that way. She thought that he was the guy who she had talked to in irc the other day. So she thought that she had talked to a wrong person, but in fact she didn't. So she was very puzzled in her head, and needed to talk to K again.. But T and K didn't make an effort to wait for each other in irc as they had not fallen in love at that point of time.. But once again, fate was in action. When K came online one day, T was online again. So K started to talk to T many times online.... Then one of the times when K was feeling down bcos of a quarrel with his gf, he begin to tell T everything... he began to tell her about the problems with his gf.. How his gf neglected him bcos of studying.. and many other things... but at this point of time.. K didn't feel that he had fallen in love with T. He knows he is attracted to T, but he won't just give away his other relationship. T on the other hand, hasn't like K as well, she just feels that he is a nice person. So when K tell her about his problems with his gf, T was very receptive. She gave him ideas, and offered some solutions. Never did she say things to worsen their relationship. So T and K became friends who only chatted on Irc. So it became like this, and a few months breezed by. The first time they chatted was during november 1999, and they talked many times till there was one fateful time during march 2000 when they chatted again.. K began to chat with T online, as usual. I remember that it was a Tuesday, that fateful day. K and T chatted just normal talk, and there was an econs project coming along, which was due on Thursday. K and T begin to talk... and K said something that would change their lives forever... K said.. K said "Hey, Although we have often talked online, I didn't feel that I needed to get your number or anything. I didn't feel like talking to u in person, I myself don't know why" something like that.. T replied " yes, because u are "dao", always pretend that u never see me. I often wanted to say hi but u were always walking around in a hurry" So K, at this point of time, know that he had not been "normal" to T. He realised that he was afraid of being normal to T. Why was that so? It is very simple. T bears an uncanny resemblance to K's gf. Both were sweet petite girls. K was afraid of taking T as a substitute.. ( they were in the same school, but K's gf at that time was in another Jc ). And so K asked himself, why are u acting so strangely towards T? he didn't know. But he said that golden line " do u want to meet me face to face? " K couldn't believe that he typed that sentence. He keep telling himself.. If T rejects him this once, he would never think about asking her out again and leave things as they are. He really didn't know what to do at that point of time. And T replied..... " u Are always so dao towards me, are u sure u wanna meet me? I don't mind meeting u face to face.." K replied " no, I am not someone who is dao... Since u so onz, how about tomorrow? K was just banging on his chances. He was just asking for the sake of asking her, and by asking for tomorrow, K thought that she would have already made programmes... And so T replied " tomorrow I would be having dance rehearsals...." And so K thought " well, this is all fated, I would not ask her out anymore...." BUT ... after saying that... T said... "I can meet u after that..." T was a very protected girl. She can never go out after 8 pm. The latest that she can go is only during special occasions like prom night or chalets with teachers in it. So by asking K to go out after her rehearsals, it meant that T would have to meet K at around 8 pm. BTW T lives in the west, so she was making a move that might get herself into trouble. But when she asked K to meet her after her rehearsals, K didn't think that T parents were so strict. K didn't know that she had never gone out with guys till such a "late" time. ( the late time was actually very early, after 8 pm ) And so K replied..... " can I have your number so that I can contact u to facilitate our meeting?" And T replied " sure, can I have your number too?" And that was how K and T exchanged numbers. For such a long time after knowing T, K has never asked for her number before, neither did T asked for K's number. But that night, both of them exchanged their numbers after about five months. That changed everything forever. The next day came, and K was in a dilemna. He told himself, if T was ever going to be late, he would just leave, and leave her a voicemail that he was leaving. And so they fixed the meeting time at 7 pm in the evening. K knows that dance rehearsals usually end at around that time, and T would take sometime to meet him at a certain MRT Station control. So 7 pm came, and K's heart raced faster. K keep telling himself to wait for T for only 15 mins. The moment K reached, he sent a page to T, telling her that he reached. Time was 7 pm exactly. At that time handphones were not common, only pagers. K hoped that T would be late and so that he wouldn't wait for her, as he feel very very uneasy to meet T, it was like meeting another variation of his gf. SO came 7.15, K msged T again to say that he was leaving, bye. Just like that... just as K was about to leave the mrt, he received a page that said please wait for me, I am coming now. So K was really in a dilemna. He didn't know whether to wait or to leave. But to leave just like that was very very rude as T was already rushing to meet him. So finally he waited... as 7.20 approached, K thought of his gf, he thought that by meeting T, he was actually being a very unfaithful guy. And he picked himself up to leave. And so K left the mrt station, and walked towards the bus interchange.. when he reached the bus interchange, who else but Fate rounded them up again. K met T at the interchange. At this point of time, K knows that he had no more chance to avoid T, T was staring straight at K's face, asking him why did he start to leave when she asked him to wait.. K had no reply, K simply said." I was just about to leave, didn't expect to c u here." And so K and T went for dinner at the same food court that T had saw K for the first time.. The table where they had sat at is still now visible in K's memory, but he din know whether T still remembers. So T and K went to have dinner, and they began to sit down. T started talking to K by apologizing.. she said she was so afraid that K might just go off, as she really wanted to meet him. K said it was ok for being late, he was often late for appts too. K and T started to talk as if they were old friends. Although it was only the first time they met, they seemed to have known each other and chatted like old buddies. Throughout the whole dinner, K and T didn't even had a moment of silence or awkwardness. K and T were so much at ease with one another during the first meeting that they couldn't believe it. T ate her favourite Beef noodles while K ate hot plate noodles, a memory that K can never forget. K can never forget how T liked to scoop each scoop of noodles, add abit of beef, and a little chilli on top before eating every spoonful of noodles. K can still remember how T liked to finish all her food although she was full, as she didn't like to waste food. So after eating, K and T was about to go home... when K asked T where she live. And T said, I live in XXXXXX. K thought , man, I am not sending her home, its too far, I still got an econs project to hand up on Thursday, and today is already Wednesday. T and K went to take the mrt, but as T and K were going opposite directions , K asked " do u want me to send u home?" and so T replied.." I would love to, but its too far for u. The time was about 9 pm, and if K sent T home, he would reach home at about 11++ pm, which would leave him with very little time to do the project. But K, being courteous, said, Its ok, I have nothing to do anyway. ( which was a lie , he had his econs project to do ) But K didn't know that T also took econs and had to hand up her econs project the next day too. So T in her head, she knew that K had to hand up a project, but she didn't say it out. She simply said " its ok, I can go home myself, please don't trouble yourself to send me home" and so K said " ok, then I shall leave, goood bye~~" and each of them went home themselves. K didn't know that T had never gone out so late before, and he didn't know that T really wanted him to send her home, but anyway, he needed to get home to do the project... The moment K reached home, he began to bang on his project. He had to add some finishing touches to it. But while he is at it, he kept thinking whether T had reached home. ( from the food court to T's home was about 1.5 hrs journey ) So K msged T to come online the moment she reached home, as K was using the computer which made him unable to use his phone ( single house phone line and using dialup) As K waited online while doing his project, he saw T come online... And so he talked to T, he asked her what was she doing online.. then she said.. doing the econs project... and T asked K what was he doing.. and K said.. im doing the project too.. T thought about the moment when K said that he got nothing to do.. She knew it was all a lie.. and so she asked K, "why did u say u have got nothing to do? Hehe" K , didn't know what to reply, and so he said.. " well, it was called " ke qi hua" , which means courteous words, and he also confessed that he didn't really meant to really send her home if he had a choice. But T said she understand, as the econs project was quite impt to economics students. K and T then began to do their project online, while chatting to one another... both of them worked really hard.. and worked till both were really tired... But things were very coincidental. The moment K finished his project, T finished hers as well. He typed " YEAH, I have finished my project!!!" and T replied " hey, me too~~!" and both of them were happy and wanted to go to sleep. Then K suddenly realised that he has no diskette to bring the project to school. He then asked T, " can I send u my file now, u help me save in a diskette, and pass it to me tomorrow?" T replied, sure, but I do not know how to receive a file from u and put it into a diskette.. At this point of time, K laughed in his heart. He didn't know that girls can be so silly, didn't even know how to search for a file and put into a diskette.. and so K laughed at T and said "hahaha.. u are so lousy~" jokingly. K tried to tell her online how to do it, but T, being a typical normal computer weak girl, didn't understand one bit. K was getting irritated as he was really tired and wanted to get to sleep, but he got to teach her how to save the file inside a diskette, and talking to her online wasn't going to help things. So K said" give me ur house number, let me call u and teach u how to do it" and so K got her house number, and called her... that was the first time that they have talked on the phone.. K began to tell her how to do everything, how to save the file and search for it, how to put it in a diskette. After doing all this for K, T and K finally went to sleep.... So the next day came, and K went all around to look for T. He needed to get the diskette before the economics lesson. So after searching high and low, he finally found T at her locker. T passed the diskette to K, and many of T's friends saw it. They were curious how she got to know me, and still pass diskettes to me. So they asked her, and T told her close friends.. she told them how she knew K. K, on the other hand, didn't tell anyone that he knew T, all he did was let nature take its course. K was a confused soul. He find himself drawn to T, but he put up a resistance against T. He knows that if he became entangled with T, his life was going to be very much affected. So K didn't ask T out anymore. But T began to enjoy talking to K. T paged K often, and they chatted. T had other guys liking her, but she didn't talk to anyone of them for long when they called her. ( dun ask me why K knew this ) So T and K often talked on the phone. K had a gf in another school, but she was often sleeping when K reached home. K called T when she pages him, but he never made the first moves. He knew by doing so, he was telling T that he likes her. So since the day they met, K and T became very close. One day, T asked K whether he wanted to go to support her during a dance competition. She said that if he could go, she would be very glad. That day was a Sunday, and K had no plans.. K didn't know whether he should go, as he knows that there was school the next day. K asked 2 of his close friends whether they would like to go with him, to accompany him there and also to go and take a look at the dance competition. His friends agreed, and so they went there.. It was at suntec. The moment K saw T on the stage, he was captivated by her smile. She wasn't a great dancer, but her smile says everything. It has been a very very long time since K has seen that happy smile again ever since that day.. but anyway, K was there to support her, and after she came down the stage, T looked all around for K. She knows K was there to support her, and she looked here and there hoping to find K.. K, on the other hand, was with 2 of his close friends, who were getting bored. They decided to go for their meal themselves, and bade goodbye to K. K stood in the corner while T was searching for him... And finally T found K. T went to K, and said " im really happy that u are here to support me" "K said Well u danced really well.. tired? Wanna go for a drink?" And so T went with K for a drink at KFC... when K was at KFC, he sensed many pple looking at them, and so he asked T, "are the pple who are looking at us your friends??" T said "no, but I know them" But at that time, both T and K were absorbed with each other, after a while, they began to ignore everyone else. They were oblivious to the surroundings. All K wanted was to have a drink with T, and so he went to q up for their food... He ordered one large whipped potato and one large drink naturally, he didn't even ask whther T minded sharing with him. Then as he walked back, he realised that he had just assumed that T would share with him. He didn't know why he didn't bother to ask T before buying, but he had already bought it. So he sat down, and asked " do u min sharing with me? " T replied, " no its perfectly fine" And so T and K happily ate the potato and shared the drink, just like a couple. From that moment on, T started to like K a little. She didn't know why whatever K did, she just accepted it. She didn't mind sharing drinks with him, she didn't mind eating the same tub of whipped potato. It was very peculiar, as T and K only went out for the 2nd time, and T was already so friendly with him. K didn't feel anything at first, he just ate the potato with T like as if he is sharing with an old friend... Suddenly, someone from T's dance group came and pulled T away, saying " the results are going to be announced soon, hurry lets go to the stage!" and in a flash , T and her friend had ran out of the restaurant.. K followed behind, with drink in hand, and all of them reached the place where the results were going to be announced. K stood in the same corner as he just came, and sipped slowly at the drink. After the results were announced, T didn't win anything, but she wasn't sad at all, all she wanted was to go down stage and talk to K... But at this moment, T's parents appeared , and T had to go home with them... The moment T came down the stage, she went straight to K to tell him that she is really sorry she's got to leave now, and had to leave K alone by himself.. K didn't mind it at all, but he said " hey.. u asked me to come here to support u but now I come here and once u finished u are going home... very bad..." K meant to make T guilty. K had a very bad habit... he never meant anything hurtful when he says it. He has a good heart but a harsh mouth. But T felt guilty, T was guilty that she asked K to come all the way and then leave him there alone.. and so T felt very sorry to K, and watched as K took his leave before going back to her parents....
The Origin. 8/19/2005 08:20:00 pm
