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Saturday, January 21, 2006

To Grow Old With

This is with reference to the previous post... I suppose in the list, one of the more important one is having someone to grow old with. I really envy those old people who are in the company of each other. I believe I do not have to dive into how I feel that a career and money are impt in life.. I am materialistic! Anyway...

I believe that it is not about feelings anymore when you reach that age group. Feelings do not last. It is more about the committment, the memory of past feelings, the comfort about being with each other, trust, tact for each other's feeling (yes, it is extremely impt no matter how comfortable) and many more. Will there be this someone who would stay with me til old age? Basically, will she go through thick n thin with me?

Hmm.. It seems that it is all about good-old-me. I seem to be asking for so much but am I able to give this much in return? Can I be as committed to her as she is to me? Can I sacrifice for her as much as she would for me? Can I trust her as much as she trust me? Can I say to her when we start off and when we are old that I'll be there for her? Will I show her bad attitude when i am stressed?

Suddenly, i remember i heard of this guy fren who scolded a bitch for flirting with him when he was attached. Will I do that if i were in his shoes? Or will I be like some stupid old men who would flirt in return?

Is it that I am just one of those guys who went through all these when they were young, only to fail to commit when they grow old?

I feel that I ask for too much. So much that I am afraid that I am unable to return as much. maybe it's just that I think too much.. Sucks..

Just to lighten up this entry, I went for some Faculty of Engineering talk for NSFs today. I think i am in deep shit cuz I was experiencing severe headache by the time we got to the 3rd/4th ppt. Each presentation was only abt 15 mins, btw.

In addition, on my way to the fac, I stupidly did not believe anybody when they said that Fac of engine is very far from the running track. I stupidly took 963 and alighted at the bus stop near the tracks. I also stupidly walked all the way to the fac, cuz I felt like walking (initially). i was perspiring like hell by the time I reached the audi... that was the only clever part abt the journey. i found the fac with the help of the maps in the campus.

Another pt to note is that I seriously feel that I will be among a very large group of assholes when I go into chem engineering in NUS. No wonder chemical engineers have to join SDU... OMG! Wat is to become of me??? lameo.... Let's just hope that my impression is wrong...

The Origin. 1/21/2006 09:44:00 pm

quotes

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true." - Dr. Meredith Grey from Grey's Anatomy

'How happy is the little Stone
That rambles in the Road alone,
And doesn't care about Careers
And Exigencies never fears-
Whose Coat of elemental Brown
A passing Universe put on,
And independent as the Sun
Associates or glows alone,
Fulfilling absolute Decree
In casual simplicity-' - How happy is the little Stone by Emily Dickinson

'This is your last chance.
After this, there is no turning back.
You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe.
You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.' - Morpheus, The Matrix

'The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence.
Not because you'll get it, but because you're doomed not to want it if you do.' - Unknown

'There are plenty of people with good intentions who take the wrong actions in the end' - Gundam Seed Destiny

'Life is no straight and easy corridor along
which we must seek our way,
lost and confused, now and again
checked in a blind alley.

But always, if we have faith,
a door will open for us,
not perhaps one that we ourselves
would ever have thought of,
but one that will ultimately
prove good for us.' - A.J.Cronin

"Every life has one true-love snapshot
Strangers are just family you have yet to come to know
No life is a waste.
The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone"

"A man can endure alot if he still has hope." - Clyde T. Ellis

" 'Appreciate It.' 2 simple words. A life span of gratitude." - Cinderella Man

"A boxer enters the ring alone. If knocked down, he alone could pick himself up and keep the fight going." - Cinderella Man

"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing you think you cannot do." - Eleanor Roosevelt

"Jame J. Braddock: I know this isn't what you wanted. But I can't win if you're not behind me.
Mae: I'm always behind you."

"People die in fairy tales all the time." - Max Baer, Cinderella Man

"Maybe sometimes people need to see someone do it so they can do it." - Father Rorick, Cinderella Man

"You always got ot figure you're not the best man in the world, there might be somebody better. That's the way it was. That's the way boxing is. The champion don't always stand up. There's always somebody coming up to take him. That's a part of life." - Jame J. Braddock

"If either man falls through weakness or otherwise, he must get up unassisted" - The Queensbury Rules, No. 4

"All men have fears, but the brave put down their fears and go forward, sometimes to death, but always to victory" - Motto of the King's Guard in Ancient Greece

"With each passing day in a good marriage, the love for your spouse grow stronger than the day before" - Cinderella Man

"I take responsibility" - President George W. Bush

"Sow a Thought, and you reap an Act;
Sow an Act, and you reap a Habit;
Sow a Habit, and you sow a Character;
Sow a Character, and you reap a Destiny." - Samuel Smiles

"Our doubts are traitors,
And make us lose the good we oft might win
By fearing to attempt - Shakespeare in Measure of Measure

"What does your heart tell you?" - Aragorn, LOTR

"To an outstretched hand we shall respond with an olive branch, but we shall fight fire with the harshest fire ever." - Israeli PM Ariel Sharon

"To deny our own impulses is to deny the very thing that makes us human. " - The Matrix

"Be without fear in the face of your enemies. Be brave and upright that God may love thee. Speak the truth, always, even if it leads to your death. Safeguard the helpless and do no wrong. That is your oath." - Balian of Ibelin, Kingdom of Heaven

"You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view... Until you climb inside of his skin and walk around in it." - Atticus Finch, To Kill A Mockingbird

"It is not our abilities that show what we truly are... it is our choices." - Dumbledore, Harry Potter

"Do not be too eager to deal out death in judgment. Even the very wise cannot see all ends." - Gandalf, LOTR

"Ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind. Or forgotten." - Lilo & Stitch

"Your heart is free. Have the courage to follow it." - Malcolm Wallace, Braveheart

"Every man dies, not every man really lives." - William Wallace, Braveheart

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