You Live In A Box
Was watching Sweet November.. Thanks to Sister for recording it for me. Erm.. the only reason why I watched it is because Chalize Theron is in it. I think she is one of those power-house actress who can take on the worst roles. And it so happens that Keanu Reeves is in it too. haha.. I think Keanu Reeves has got 1 of those handsome-even-when-with-little-expressions kinda look. In short, handsome but plastic. But I still rank him under Ewan Mcgregor - Mr. Charismatic Smile. By the way, just for the record, the movie sucks lah...
Anyway, "you live in a box" is a simple quote from Sarah (Chalize), describing Nelson (Keanu). His daily routine follows a fix pattern of (like the most of us, or maybe its just me) work till late hours, get home, "switch on the tv and get bored, switch on the computer and get bored, surf the internet and get bored". Except for maybe dinner dates, shopping, gaming, movies or birthday parties, isn't this familiar? Ultimately, our lives follow a fixed pattern. And in this fixed pattern, we gradually lose sight of the little things in life that are important in their small ways.
Off hand, 1 of the little things would be interaction with the people around you. I'm talking more of people you see everyday, from the moment you step out of your house. Do you stop to chat with your neighbour when you see him/her? Do you even greet him/her? When was the last time you genuinely smiled at the cashier or salesperson? These r just the tiniest things...
It is scary that we live amongst one another but we do not make the slightest interactions. We r living in our own boxes.
The Origin. 2/26/2006 07:52:00 pm
When you start to think, it is probably time to stop.
The Origin. 2/26/2006 12:14:00 am
Just caught an epsiode of Walking with Monsters (follow-up of Walking with Dinosaurs). Hmm.. The morale of the story seemed to be that we came about because of evolution and chance.
1st, it started with the world having only 30% oxygen in the air. Then the plants & trees evolved but there were no herbivores at that time (cause with 30% oxygen, the teperature on land was too high for animals to survive at that time.). Thus the trees grew in abundance. Providing the world with more oxygen.
Next, our "ancestors" evolved to take in the oxygen in the air and survived on land...
This was the episode...
On a separate note, have anyone of u seen the new "breast cancer screening" advertisement on channel 8?? My first comment after watching it was, "wow... 3 messages in 1 advertisement! Have children, eat healthy and finally go for breast screening regularly"
The Origin. 2/23/2006 08:10:00 pm
Hmm.. Forgot to add this in ytd's post. Met somebody from Swiss when I was checking up something in mindef. Forgot his name but his initials are Ng Z Y. I think it is Ng Zhi Yong or something like that. He was from 4E2. I was quite surprised that he recognised me first since I have always been rather low-profile. Probably I was distracted by the what I was doing at that time...
Anyway, he gave 2 comments about me during our short 5 mins conversation...
1. He said, "You look more rounded back in secondary school." Is it?????? I always thought that I grew fat in JC......
2. I said, "I'm going to Chem. Engineering in NUS." He said, "Is it? Hmm... Thought that you have the 'arts' look...."
Hmm......
The Origin. 2/22/2006 08:46:00 pm
Had a mini-cohesion lunch with my office this afternoon. Mini because only Chief Clerk, Siew Kee, Joel and Zhi Rong were present. All the big bosses were out, which is good. The inital plan was to go to Seoul Garden at Causeway Point but we changed our plan to accomodate Ma'am Tan. We ended up at Jack's Place in Bt Panjang Plaza.
After the lunch, we went our separate ways and I ended up napping the afternoon. Woke up at five and went for a jog. ha.. I think I am killing my legs.. Jog on Sunday, swim on monday and jog again today.
Ha.. I think I was more interested in exploring my neighbourhood than the jog. Something that I should have done when I first moved to Bt Panjang so many years ago. Jogging was an excuse. haha.. Jogged to Cashew road again today and explored a bit more than I did on Sunday. I discovered that there is a cycling track just beside the expressway (BKE) and it leads all the way to Bt Timah Nature Reserve and back. Part of some park links..... Too bad, I'm not an avid cyclist.
Jogged through Cashew Road/Heights/Cres etc.... Wow.. Nice bungalows! Most of them belong to the older style of architecture in SG. You know, those cottage style. There are a few, which are under construction, belonging to the modern architecture. Wow.... After jogging/walking round and round (I was lost), I noticed that most of the houses have got at least 1 car parking in the garage. Since it was only 5 pm, I deduced that it is for transportation for their kids who probably have to walk for 10 mins to reach the nearest bus-stop. Damn.. they are rich......
Ha.. then I dreamt abt a dream bugalow.. One with the modern style of architecture, with a roof-top jacuzzi and bbq pit. As for the front entrance, I would rather not have a lawn but if there is a large space, a lawn would be there to fill up the emptiness... Of course, having a considerable distance between the front gate and the house would be good. I have always been fascinated by long rides from the gate to the house.. Oops.. i'm beginning to dream abt castles and stuffs...
Then again, this is too far-fetched even for a dream. I shall satisfy myself with a HDB flat when the time comes. If things are good, a condo at most, I guess....
The Origin. 2/21/2006 08:02:00 pm
The reason why I hate running alone on a track or a path to where I know it leads is the very reason why I hate swimming alone in a pool, it is also the reason why I prefer to work on the trackmill, keeping with the pace. Because you can stop, because there is nothing to be amused by, because you can think....
Then I wonder.. Why am I doing all these? Am I but following the shadow of a person I once knew and know? Then why am I following it? Because of a childish, a very childish and simple reason. I never did like to lose.. I feel that I lost and now I am working to build on that which caused me to lose. That is why I am doing all these. If there were a loss, the loss shall not be mine. How childish is this? I threw out a bitter laugh and think, "Well.. It is childish but I am covering more grounds than I would have, without that shadow that is forever in front of me."
There is no bitterness, just competition, whereby I am the only one involved. Soon, it is no longer about the person. Maybe it has never been about the person at all. Only me and the shadow. Maybe there wasn't any winners or losers. Maybe the person wasn't at all concerned. It is all about me, in my small and self-centred world, afterall...
Again, I wonder.. All this while, knowing all these, do I keep up with this little self-competition or do I fall back and remain as I was? I choose the competition, for the progress I make and maybe for the simple and childish reason.... the loss shall not be mine.... Ha.. such self-centredness.. Such stupidity..... A cycle of stupidity...
On a separate note (ha.. becoming 1 of my commonly used phrases),
1. Heard this from a friend over the weekend, "Some things are not as unimportant as you say them to be."
2. Gossips are bad bad. Don't gossip! If you must, gossip to someone you can trust your life on and who won't bs u even when both of u are not on talking terms.
3. Underworld evolution is coming!! omg!! Kate Beckinsale!!! She's so hot!! haha..
The Origin. 2/20/2006 07:34:00 pm
Hmm.. Went to watch Fearless with Jun Hong today. Well.. Quite a nice movie, I must say. It is refreshing to see Jet Li staring in a Chinese Kung Fu movie (again), not related to some corny Wong Fei Hong & Shi San Yi... The character development
Some impactful scenes are Huo Yuan Jia's duel with the blade master (dunno wat name), his family's slaughter and his death, just to highlight a few:
1. Huo Yuan Jia's visit to the already-dead blade master (after his return back to tian jin) - I simply felt that it was the closing of the chapter and opening of a new one. It meant quite a lot in the sense that he realised the mistake, he was willing to face it again, he went to apologise, yada yada yada...
2. It was his death but I was more affected by the appearance of the wife and daughter of the deceased blade master.
3. (this may be odd to some) The japanese, Tanako's (sth like tt) words to the fellow japanese businessman - It was sth like, "you are not fit to be a japanese." I just felt that this is probably 1 of the few chinese films which gave a certain amt of justice to japanese and not condemn them to hell. For a moment in the show, I thought tt tanako was gg to poison Huo Yuan Jia when he was having tea with him...
On a separate note, read an article in Newsweek abt Gothic imagery. I quote the article, "... why we still find Gothic imagery so compelling: its ability to illuminate the psyche's drakest corners."
Hmm... Probably explains why I like the gothic-like architectures in Europe.....
The Origin. 2/18/2006 07:47:00 pm
Ha.. Talk abt bad luck...
2 mins after I left my office for the gym, it started drizzling and it got heavier. Thus I took out my umbrella and continued on to the gym.
It stopped raining while I was doing my exercises. When I stepped out of the gym, I could see sun-light shinning through the window. Thus I folded the umbrella and left it in my bag.
1 min after I stepped out the building, the downpour started. I had to run to the nearest shelter and took out the umbrella which I spent time to fold earlier.
While walking to the bus stop, I was splashed by a passing car. - probably the first time in my life...
this chain of bad luck continued with a funny little event. In the bus, I was standing on the steps (entrance) and the couple standing directly in front of me was having a little quarrel. They probably thought that i couldn't hear them through my earphones but I could. Anyway, I moved in further into the bus at the first available opportunity....
This day of bad luck ended with a happy note cuz no amount of rain could stop me from drinking a cup of Macdonald's Chocolate Milkshake! ha... I saw it in the papers in the morning and was thinking abtit all day.
On a separate note, I find that I am very very bad at remembering names & faces. A few months ago, I passed a pair of free tickets to a guy in MINDEF. I got to know him through the forums. After I passed the tickets to him. I forgot all abt him but everytime we saw each other in mindef, we smiled at each other. Throughout the whole time, I couldn't make heads or tails about who the hell he is, what is his name, when I met it before.... Until I saw him in a dept and we started chatting.... Ha... I think he saw the puzzled, where-have-we-met knida look on my face and he explained our encounter........ sigh..... Bad memory... I think my brain cells are dying!!
The Origin. 2/16/2006 08:15:00 pm
Abraham Maslow developed a theory of personality that has influenced a number of different fields, including education. This wide influence is due in part to the high level of practicality of Maslow's theory. This theory accurately describes many realities of personal experiences. Many people find they can understand what Maslow says. They can recognize some features of their experience or behavior which is true and identifiable but which they have never put into words.
Maslow is a humanistic psychologist. Humanists do not believe that human beings are pushed and pulled by mechanical forces, either of stimuli and reinforcements (behaviorism) or of unconscious instinctual impulses (psychoanalysis). Humanists focus upon potentials. They believe that humans strive for an upper level of capabilities. Humans seek the frontiers of creativity, the highest reaches of consciousness and wisdom. This has been labeled "fully functioning person", "healthy personality", or as Maslow calls this level, "self-actualizing person."
Maslow has set up a hierarchic theory of needs. All of his basic needs are instinctoid, equivalent of instincts in animals. Humans start with a very weak disposition that is then fashioned fully as the person grows. If the environment is right, people will grow straight and beautiful, actualizing the potentials they have inherited. If the environment is not "right" (and mostly it is not) they will not grow tall and straight and beautiful.
Maslow has set up a hierarchy of five levels of basic needs. Beyond these needs, higher levels of needs exist. These include needs for understanding, esthetic appreciation and purely spiritual needs. In the levels of the five basic needs, the person does not feel the second need until the demands of the first have been satisfied, nor the third until the second has been satisfied, and so on. Maslow's basic needs are as follows:
- Physiological Needs
- These are biological needs. They consist of needs for oxygen, food, water, and a relatively constant body temperature. They are the strongest needs because if a person were deprived of all needs, the physiological ones would come first in the person's search for satisfaction.
- Safety Needs
- When all physiological needs are satisfied and are no longer controlling thoughts and behaviors, the needs for security can become active. Adults have little awareness of their security needs except in times of emergency or periods of disorganization in the social structure (such as widespread rioting). Children often display the signs of insecurity and the need to be safe.
- Needs of Love, Affection and Belongingness
- When the needs for safety and for physiological well-being are satisfied, the next class of needs for love, affection and belongingness can emerge. Maslow states that people seek to overcome feelings of loneliness and alienation. This involves both giving and receiving love, affection and the sense of belonging.
- Needs for Esteem
- When the first three classes of needs are satisfied, the needs for esteem can become dominant. These involve needs for both self-esteem and for the esteem a person gets from others. Humans have a need for a stable, firmly based, high level of self-respect, and respect from others. When these needs are satisfied, the person feels self-confident and valuable as a person in the world. When these needs are frustrated, the person feels inferior, weak, helpless and worthless.
- Needs for Self-Actualization
- When all of the foregoing needs are satisfied, then and only then are the needs for self-actualization activated. Maslow describes self-actualization as a person's need to be and do that which the person was "born to do." "A musician must make music, an artist must paint, and a poet must write." These needs make themselves felt in signs of restlessness. The person feels on edge, tense, lacking something, in short, restless. If a person is hungry, unsafe, not loved or accepted, or lacking self-esteem, it is very easy to know what the person is restless about. It is not always clear what a person wants when there is a need for self-actualization.
Came across this during a workshop... Hmm.. Which stage are u at?
The Origin. 2/14/2006 08:06:00 pm
I'm now sitting in front of my pc, drinking a can of Heineken and typing a blog entry on the V-day that it soon to come. Ha.. Macham some fellow who is drinking away the sorrows of another lonely V-day.
Nah.. My dad bought Heineken to drink today and I was wondering how it tastes like (as oppose to Tiger or whatever beer I tried before). So a took a can and try. After a sip, I was wondering out loud, "Like no difference like that hor.." And immediately, my mom told me, "Try a can of Tiger also lah.. Then tell me got difference or not.." Then turns to my dad and said, "ha.. like that see he will get drunk or not." Some Mother......
Anyway, an observation abt this new yr is that the festives/seasons/special occassions do not seem to be as impt as or as emotion arousing as the yrs before. Hmm.. I remember that the days before V-day used to be full of sighs abt it being another lonely V-day, or it was a burning desire to tell a gal abt my feeling and asking her out.
This yr is simply, "Oh.. V-day is coming.." and "Oh.. V-day is tomorrow.." There is no sighs abt it being another lonely V-day and there isn't any burning desire to make the feelings known.
There seems to be something lacking in the air around to make the tomorrow romantic or is it me??? Or maybe I have simpy lost the "inertia" (as described by WeiLi) to do anything at all.. Funny.. When WeiLi described that, I couldn't help picturing a moving ball being stopped in its course. And after stopping, an air of uncertainty surrounds it, not knowing where the next force is going to come from, unsure which direction to go move. Shall wait to see if post V-day has anything new to add...
On a separate note, 1 cup of coffee and 1 cup of tea is completely useless if you only slept 6 hrs and have to attend a 5-hr meeting 1st thing in the morning. Tomorrow is another day of minutes writing...
*Correction at 2200 hrs: I think caffeine takes 1/2 a day to work. I think I am more awake now than I was in the afternoon....... shit...
The Origin. 2/13/2006 06:40:00 pm
Went to watch this show this afternoon with Qin Yi before going to Choo Hui's party at Costa Sands.
Abt the show, I think it is a film that hits u at ur heart. The script captured the everyday life, the small dialogues and the small/big issues of a Singaporean. It applies to our context, or shld I say, it is a film abt us. On the other hand, I think the part abt saving/stealing money to buy the father's time is not original. In addition, I also feel that any movie with the climax or turning pt set at the death of a person is kinda sucky... y must they die? A typical mindset is that ppl must die for lesson to be learnt. Ha.. I vaguely remember a certain composition during sch abt "lesson learnt" and the whole class wrote abt somebody's death aspart of the story...
Anyway, some of the parts that I felt a form of understanding:
- The very first few sentences abt Praises. When was the last time you praised somebody? When was the last time somebody praised you? It's been a long time (Sth like this.) -- I spoke abt this not too long ago as my boss asked me some qns like this.
- The "er", the "arh" and the "orh" -- i think i do the "er" more often.
- Your savings is still my money
- Our society's conservative view abt sex education -- poor gal.. had to eat so many pineapples..
- The age-old stigma of "we did this in the past, so can they." -- this hinders progress. Yet, we all fall into such a trap once in a while..
- Parents trying to speak the lingo but fail miserably -- it is a major turn-off....
- Some more, I forgot le.... getting old...
By the way, it so happened tt it was Shawn's (wat surname huh?) birthday today. And he invited his fan club to attend a screening. It so happened that it was at lido at 230 pm. wat a coincidence
Abt 21st birthday, i think i am beginning to give serious thoughts abt a party. I think it isn't a gd idea cuz the frenz i have are not "crazy" ppl. And we r out of the age range to play ice-breaking games... A party wld probably be just a sit ard n talk cock session in separate cliches, which feels kinda odd. I rather have separate meals or get together with my cliches. I feel more personal...... And those r the ppl who matter. but we shall see... maybe a change of mood wld see me throwing a lame party...
On a separate note, I feel trapped at times. There are responsibilities & concerns as opposed to personal wants & desires. I am trapped by certain responsibilities at times. Stopping me to do wat I more desire to do.
The Origin. 2/12/2006 12:55:00 am
Haha.. Congratz to Eileen for getting a B3 in her A.Math and a B4 for her E.Math! I am quite pleased with her results, I must say. Mei Yi got B3 for both Math papers. Good for her!
I didn't expect that 5 yrs after I collected my o levels results, I was sending sms to encourage ppl before their results came out. Trying to recall Jason Lim's teaching, trying to tell them not to worry etc. Ha.. I wonder if I helped.....
Through the smses, I recalled the feelings I felt when I awaited the release of my o levels & a levels results. I also recalled what happened on the day of release.
For O Levels,
After the last paper and before the release, it was a mix of study (1st 3 mths), play and constant worries about what my results would be like. During the week before the release, the worries subsided cuz I felt that nth I do could change what the outcome was.
After the last paper, I remember joking to Jason Lim that i wld return to Swiss to sweep the floor if I didn't do well...
On the day of release, it was a happy occassion, full of anticipation. Happy that we met classmates whom we parted since the last paper. Antipating what our results would be like. First, it was the meeting up. Then we gathered at the school hall and listened to our principal make some speeches abt the results of that year. I vaguely remember that I was sitting on the left side of the hall, with Timothy, Sharon & Qian Hui. I remember that just moments before receiving the results, Timothy n gang, were patting my back, telling me to relax. Ha.. I also remember that I was telling them that i wasn't tensed, when in fact, I was.
Then I received my results and I did well. My feelings at that moment wasn't happiness but relieved that I passed that stage of my "life".....
After that, there was a photo taking for those who did well. And we were asked to go on stage. I was hesitating to be one of the first to go. Then she walked past me and tapped me to go up to the stage. Ha.. I guess I cldn't forget abt her...
Then it was some talking cock session among us.. Don't really remember wat happened thereafter, anyone care to fill me up?
For A Levels,
The period before it sux. To be perfectly honest, during my stay in BMT, I was, for a brief moment, inspired to be one of those leaders. I grew to dislike NS after the brief moment. I also realised why I failed to meet the cut when I tried. That was only in apr.
The only happy period was before enlistment, in australia. Ha... I had not stepped out of sg for such a long long time.... the trip was fun. I enjoyed it very much.
Anyway, given NS, I didn't even have the time to worry abt the results. I was talking cock to bunk mates like Cedric n Loh Wei when we weren't training. I was busy resting when there was nth to be done.
When the results were to be released, it was happiness that we finally got to book out. ha.. It was the first long bk out. Then the night before the release, I was lying on my bed, worrying again. yet, I wasn't tt worried as when I was waiting for o lvls. Cuz I was tired and also, I got more confident of myself I guess. I expected to fare well, and I thought that I didn't need to worry as I most probably could get into Uni. Only wat course..... Still there were moments when the confidence was shooked.
On the day of release, it was the same as o level -, gathering, hall etc. (My mind is a small blank abt this part.. pls fill me up. thks.) I remembered that we were gg ard to thank some of the teachers after receiving the results.
After tt, I was hanging out with Yee fong in amk.. Hmm.. was quite disappointed that the class sped off to do their respective stuffs and didn't bother for a small gathering at least. But this yr, there is sth different abt this little class... hope it lasts...
The Origin. 2/10/2006 08:15:00 pm
Hmm.. Was reading the Straits Times today and came across 2 cases which immediately led to an exclaimation of, "stupid, right or not?"
1. A case of molest whereby the guy molested the 17 yrs old gal. The gal only realised that it was molest when she got home.
2. A case of robbed sim card. A guy approached 3 guys and said they were staring at him, asking them to follow him to settle the problem. At a secluded place, the guy took one of the other 3 guys' hp, took out the sim card and left.
I thought that they were quite lame...
The Origin. 2/09/2006 07:13:00 pm
Ha... Was inspired to do this after a friend did her blog and described it. I started my blog without this but through the various layout changes I made, I think this is the end result and it suits what I want.
1. A Welcome Note - Basically, it is for me to post any quotes/poems/lyrics I come across or am hooked onto at whatever pt in time.
2. Me (About) - I find this section rather redundant but it comes with most blogs. I find it so cuz the people who reads my blog are people who know me. That part by itself doesn't tell them any more abt me than they probably already know. It doesn't really matter what I like or dislike.
3. Me (Some Quotes) - This is some sort of a little archive for some of the quotes I come across. Well.. It has not been updated for quite some time... Shall work on it.
4. Links - Ha.. I always wanted to say this: "A 1-stop hub" (a quote from my boss) to access to all the blogs of my friends, who have blogs. It is for my convenience as my pc undergoes reformatting once in a while and I dun remember addresses well.. This is, of course, if they allow me to to link them. Their privacy is more impt than my convenience.
5. Others (Tagboard) - Hmm.. This is a part which doesn't really allow me control over. However, I do wish that it is to be a discussion or some comments on any issues or crap I put up. For any other matters, an sms or a message on msn would be better as it is on a more personal level than a msg on tagboard, dun u think? Still, I can't stop you from saying what you want.
6. Blog - This is obviously the highlight. I put in details and thoughts in an entry. Details can be in the form of where, when, how, what, who etc. There are times whereby I leave out details due to my forgetfulness, I thank you for filling them up. However, there are times whereby I chose to omit all details pertaining to the issue but I still wanna blog abt my thoughts. Pls understand. Thoughts may be in the forms of a simple statement of "this sucks" or some positive/negative connotations. I usually do not involve friends as a subject of my thoughts. This is a little sensitivity I exercise.
Oh.. After the various changes, I also found that too much personalisations to a blog is only complicating things. My personal thoughts.
The Origin. 2/09/2006 08:13:00 am
This entry is dedicated to a particularly funny syndrome I see in my parents - show them a gal and they say, "This gal so nice. Y don't u go after her?" or "Got nice gals in front of u, u go look ard for wat?"
The worse is still my dad. Just 20 mins of interaction and he can pt out what I cannot tell after yrs of friendship. wow... Talk abt they eating more salt than we have eaten rice.... (haha.. poor translation..)
And you can trust a mom to know her child inside-out (almost). She can easily pt out why some things happened to be so.....
I am thankful for them.. Hope that such times last.....
OOT - I notice that once ORD starts ringing into your head, you tend to want to write the date down every where you like and also, your "balls" tend to get oo big for your own good. Ialmost dug my own grave this morning but thanks to the advice of Joel and Mdm Tan, I stopped before committing the mistake..... Phew.. that was close...
The Origin. 2/06/2006 11:47:00 pm
Finally caught this show after so many weeks. Well... I was a little bit disappointed with the show, expecially after all the hype abt it. To me, it is a simple problem of being neither here nor there. It is neither that romantic for story abt going through life for love nor is it able to fully portray the determination of the protagonist in her rise to a geisha. Of course, I think the story by itself is touching but what the movie fails is to be able to move someone to tears. My PoV.....
Just a side note - I thot that the little gal had a lot of resemblance to Zhang Zi Yi.
Anyway, to bluestar and to whoever is concerned, I know I am always talking abt this gal is chio, that gal is good looking. I also admit that I think the first impression - looks do play a part in coming to know a person of the opposite sex. And I know what u mean when u talk abt me looking at gals with gd looks. To cut the long story short (if u have not read this before I edited it), there are so much more to it. I wish it were as simple as looks alone.
The Origin. 2/05/2006 09:42:00 pm
Went to Uncle David's hse at around 4 pm this afternoon, and then made our way down to Esplande for dinner at No Sign Board. We later walked over the the "Chun Dao He Pan".
1 comment abt the house is that after renovation with the advice of feng shui master, the design isn't as nice as before. But oh well.. They are doing better than before.
For dinner, we lao yu shen. It was the first time I lao yu shen outside my house, and also the first time, we had more than 5 people lao-ing the yu shen together.
This year's chun dao he pan is better than the past years' ones. Mainly because they made it more spacious and with the concrete pathways, there wasn't any problem of muddy waters (especially after the rain this afternoon.).
1 funny thing I observed is that the God of Wealth drops some "gold" (just gold coloured papers) every 30 mins or so. Thus when the time comes, suddenly (and I mean in a blink of the eye), the place would be crowded with people who are hoping to get lucky by picking up some nice numbers or getting more gold papers. In addition, in another blink of the eye, the "gold" will fall and the umbrellas will appear. The umbrellas are being used to grab watever amt of "gold" that falls. I remember a guy who had the biggest umbrella (I think it was tiger beer one) there but the wind blew the "gold" to another position. I thought it was very funny (omg. I'm evil!).
In addition, we also walked around looking at the horoscopes. I have never taken the horoscopes seriously. The reason is that almost every year, they say the same thing about Ox. However, that 1 thing never did happened. they say that love life would be good or sth like you'll meet the one. crap....
Lastly, we saw the fireworks before we left. A beautiful sight as always. The firing, the flight to the top, the explosion - engulfing you in a wide array of colours, and finally the fade away. The beauty of it is not simply because of the explosion. To me, it is because of the very fact that no 1 firework is exactly the same as another and more importantly, the fact that it fades away and disappears.
Shall not touch too much about the first reason as I am not an expert in this area but factors like wind direction, angle to elevation, night sky and also your position, affecting how you see the particular firework to be. So to speak, there are fireworks that look almost alike cuz of their colours but they are never exactly alike. Their difference may be subtle from our view-pts but we do feel that they are different. It is because of their respective differences that makes the whole show beautiful and breath taking. imagine a show with Kenix Kwok appearing over and over again, with the same outfit and same actions or speeches - even I would be sick of it... (haha.. oot. I just felt like putting her name here)
2ndly, it is without a doubt that the explosion is the highlight of a firework (obviously, no explosion = no firework). However, the beauty is enhanced because it does not last in the sky. It is only there for a brief moment and it fades away, only to have another one outshining it, higher in the sky. If it were to be able to freeze at the moment of explosion, even for a minute, it will lose its beauty. This is what I think....
Anyway, the btmline is still the same - It will be better to have a love one beside you when you watch it.
The Origin. 2/04/2006 11:17:00 pm
Before I go into the topic, I was out with Liang wei, Zhong Wei, Hiang Kiat & Xin Ru to buy Wendy's b-day gift, yesterday. Just some highlights of yesterday's little trip:
1. Sony's new tagline: "Everything Else Is Just Noise" - I seriously think that this is so full of attitude!
2. 3 Sunflowers from the florist in Orchard MRT Station cost 40 bucks. - Met Gavin there. He was purchasing it for his girlfriend.
3. White Chocolate Ice-cream tastes exactly like vanilla. - don't waste the money
4. I saw the-guy-who-shall-not-be-named outside CK Tangs. - This year is going to be an unlucky year. Oh no.....
5. The next time somebody tells you to walk from Orchard to Plaza Singapore to share cab, don't listen to them. Take the MRT if you really want to (no matter how late or cooling the weather is).
6. Met a guy (from my camp) whom I thought was very good-looking but turned out that both Hiang Kiat and Xin Ru thought the exact opposite.
7. I am not going to CK Tangs jewelry section again. That stupid auntie, turned to Zhong Wei and said, " wah.. you very tall hor." She later turned to Liang Wei and said, "you also very tall hor." To add salt to the open wound, she later said, "my son's height is 183."
Anyway, Xin Ru was playing the role of Bok last night, and she practically pointed the finger at me and announced, "Kenneth go to orientation is to hook girls one lor." @%^*()_*^%$#
Her next comment was the 2nd similar comment I heard from a girl - "Your taste is too high le lah." To which, I disagree. Shall not touch on the sad things in life... sigh........
Now, about CNY...
I'm not sure but somehow CNY doesn't seem to hold the amount of mindless craze for ang baos as it used to be. I have not opened a single red packet from my relatives since the 1st day of CNY. I opened those ad-hocs ones which I didn't expect. e.g. my chief clerk. Somehow, I ain't all that interested. Probably because after 20 yrs, I kinda expect this amt of ang bao money. I don't expect it to be more. On the other hand, even if it were lesser, it isn't like I am going to be angry tt particular relative for that. In fact, I never did remember exactly how much they gave me. (This is mostly because I can never associate the red packet with the relatives - I dun remember who gave what.) On this note, I never did quite like the idea of going to frens' place to bai nian. I view is that I have never visited their houses on normal days, then it would be odd if I go during CNY.
In addition, CNY is now more about gathering together. I admit that I do not like a certain aunts and uncles, I do not have much to converse with them and I do not even feel comfortable talking cock to them. However, it is the very idea of coming together and sitting together that matters.
The Origin. 2/03/2006 09:37:00 pm
"But it happens all the time, and it just depends on where you are in your life. And how much you're willing to fight to live." - Chalize Theron
I am but a figure in the hourglass, forever trapped in this ever-flowing sands of time. Decisions, thoughts and actions have already been set in motion, and there are more of them to come even as I type this. They and their consequences are passing me by every single moment I stop to ponder., or for that matter, even if I try to stop their flow. So what can I do? What does it matter what I do? But maybe, just maybe, if I tried, I could steer their course and alter some of the consequnces. What does it matter anyway? The time is still flowing and decisions are not flowing according to my favour.
The Origin. 2/01/2006 06:53:00 pm