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Friday, March 03, 2006

What Do You Think About Me?

For some pt in time, a kid posted this qn to all those close to him. This low self-esteemed kid constantly felt that he wasn't good enough. He wanted criticism to improve. To his disappointment, he received only polite compliments. He was afraid of them as though they were maggots that would weaken him and disintegrate him into somebody worse.

At the same time, he was afraid to commit, to show others his deepest feelings, expressions and all that make him. He was afraid that by doing so, those close to him would leave him out of despise. This was how lowly the kid thought himself to be.

After some time, he felt that it was useless to go on asking. That was not the right way to improve. He was lost. He was unsure how to move on. All this while, he only wanted to please others to be accepted in their company. He wasn't being himself. He was afraid to be him. How sad.. How lonely..

All these he did through conscious effort and at the same time, subconsciously. Over time, he grew more sure of himself. he begun to show some of those buried expressions, thoughts n feelings in his everyday life, to those around him. Thankfully, the friends were still there. A step closer, i suppose.

However, probably a result of the subconcious mind, had left a mark that still prevents him from all that is in him. To some extent, he is still afraid to share, I guess. Or probably a result of past betrayals (which we fail to address) had left him to be afraid of the humanly betrayals that wanders amongst the people.

The way I see it, he lived a controlled life. He is stucked in his own web of inferiority complex and betrayal. His web, he both cherished and hated. Cherished for the protection it gave him (both true and false) and hated for the hindrance it caused him. saddening, isn't it? I hope he breaks free.

Anyway, I am now considering to buy a set of speakers to complement my H10 in my room as my cd player is dying on me. sigh.. but the price of a decent set of 2.1 speakers is like over 150.... i wonder if I should. especially with the laptop, digi cam, hp to be bought.... Maybe I shall forget abt the hp since i quite like 6060's design... (but it's a bimbo. nice but no substance. ha.. I think I should call my 6060 bimbo from now on) Motorola L7 seems like a good hp though but I've never tried motorola's interface before......

The Origin. 3/03/2006 08:20:00 pm

quotes

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true." - Dr. Meredith Grey from Grey's Anatomy

'How happy is the little Stone
That rambles in the Road alone,
And doesn't care about Careers
And Exigencies never fears-
Whose Coat of elemental Brown
A passing Universe put on,
And independent as the Sun
Associates or glows alone,
Fulfilling absolute Decree
In casual simplicity-' - How happy is the little Stone by Emily Dickinson

'This is your last chance.
After this, there is no turning back.
You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe.
You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.' - Morpheus, The Matrix

'The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence.
Not because you'll get it, but because you're doomed not to want it if you do.' - Unknown

'There are plenty of people with good intentions who take the wrong actions in the end' - Gundam Seed Destiny

'Life is no straight and easy corridor along
which we must seek our way,
lost and confused, now and again
checked in a blind alley.

But always, if we have faith,
a door will open for us,
not perhaps one that we ourselves
would ever have thought of,
but one that will ultimately
prove good for us.' - A.J.Cronin

"Every life has one true-love snapshot
Strangers are just family you have yet to come to know
No life is a waste.
The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone"

"A man can endure alot if he still has hope." - Clyde T. Ellis

" 'Appreciate It.' 2 simple words. A life span of gratitude." - Cinderella Man

"A boxer enters the ring alone. If knocked down, he alone could pick himself up and keep the fight going." - Cinderella Man

"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing you think you cannot do." - Eleanor Roosevelt

"Jame J. Braddock: I know this isn't what you wanted. But I can't win if you're not behind me.
Mae: I'm always behind you."

"People die in fairy tales all the time." - Max Baer, Cinderella Man

"Maybe sometimes people need to see someone do it so they can do it." - Father Rorick, Cinderella Man

"You always got ot figure you're not the best man in the world, there might be somebody better. That's the way it was. That's the way boxing is. The champion don't always stand up. There's always somebody coming up to take him. That's a part of life." - Jame J. Braddock

"If either man falls through weakness or otherwise, he must get up unassisted" - The Queensbury Rules, No. 4

"All men have fears, but the brave put down their fears and go forward, sometimes to death, but always to victory" - Motto of the King's Guard in Ancient Greece

"With each passing day in a good marriage, the love for your spouse grow stronger than the day before" - Cinderella Man

"I take responsibility" - President George W. Bush

"Sow a Thought, and you reap an Act;
Sow an Act, and you reap a Habit;
Sow a Habit, and you sow a Character;
Sow a Character, and you reap a Destiny." - Samuel Smiles

"Our doubts are traitors,
And make us lose the good we oft might win
By fearing to attempt - Shakespeare in Measure of Measure

"What does your heart tell you?" - Aragorn, LOTR

"To an outstretched hand we shall respond with an olive branch, but we shall fight fire with the harshest fire ever." - Israeli PM Ariel Sharon

"To deny our own impulses is to deny the very thing that makes us human. " - The Matrix

"Be without fear in the face of your enemies. Be brave and upright that God may love thee. Speak the truth, always, even if it leads to your death. Safeguard the helpless and do no wrong. That is your oath." - Balian of Ibelin, Kingdom of Heaven

"You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view... Until you climb inside of his skin and walk around in it." - Atticus Finch, To Kill A Mockingbird

"It is not our abilities that show what we truly are... it is our choices." - Dumbledore, Harry Potter

"Do not be too eager to deal out death in judgment. Even the very wise cannot see all ends." - Gandalf, LOTR

"Ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind. Or forgotten." - Lilo & Stitch

"Your heart is free. Have the courage to follow it." - Malcolm Wallace, Braveheart

"Every man dies, not every man really lives." - William Wallace, Braveheart

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