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Sunday, December 10, 2006

Thoughts?

I guess I should start by simply saying what I did mention a number of times - I feel that for me, getting attached in Uni is almost a near impossibility the more I think about it. If it is anything, it is probably the mindset. It is like over the years, I have lost what were originally there. You know, the childish beliefs like waiting and stuffs. And in a sense, I'm stucked in the middle. I loathe the old me as well as the new one. I loathe the childishness of the old. I'm disgusted with the new me for the lack of what I had in the old. Sounds complicated? haha.. So how can I bring myself to even stay at a time like this? Much less talk about love. A fren was kind to say tt it is natural for the coming of age, out of army and stuffs. But I think it is just me.

And the more I think about it, the more I question... Should I look for a sense of comfort level as feelings do not last? Or should there be a feeling a passion when I know it doesn't last? Am I questioning all these because I really wish to be in a relationship? Or am I questioning because I am 'wanting' what the society thinks that I should have? How much about me wanting to be attached is really me? Or am I simply going along with the flow of everything? These are the questions which I never really have the answers to. I lost the me who is the answer.

Coming to this point, I'm simply stucked with the idea that there is nothing that last. It is the simple act of how toys were your treasure or how collecting manga may be ur hobby or plastic models or anything else. It is like this day, you buy a certain item that you are so sure that you will keep it for ages to come but years later, you have already lost all interest in it. Then it'll proceed to the attic and finally, when the attic becomes so full, it will be dumped. Similarly, there are many things that get lost along the way in life. You know, like ideals, beliefs, friends, families, love, feelings and so many more. All can be lost progressively over time or lost in the blink of an eye. Simple as that.

So why this particularly depressing entry? Maybe I am just disturbed by the movie I just caught - Deja Vu. Well.. It is a sci-fi suspense trailer which raised some thoughts in me. Firstly, it is how the protagonist felt that a murdered victim looked pretty and later fell for her when there was a chance to look at how the victim lived her life 4 days prior to her death. Next, it is how the ending may seem like a happy one can also be viewed as the sad message that the protagonist conveyed - there will always be something lost. SKIP TO THE NEXT PARA IF YOU DO NOT WANT A SPOILER. The ending is that the alternate protagnist ended up with the gal but the protagonist who came back from the future to correct the wrong, died.

Or maybe it is just an accumulation of stuffs before that led up to this entry because I did spend an afternoon shopping and commenting about some of these stuffs even before the movie. Whatever the case, it does feel good to be able to say them and not receive judgemental comments. Ha.. And also some comments of support. (thanks mate)

Finally, I got home at 7 this evening and walked a little in the drizzle. Well.. The only way to enjoy a walk in the rain is that there is nothing you are worried that will be damaged in the rain and that you are not worried that you will be sick for anything important the following few days.

-I suppose it is natural for people to judge and it is equally natural for people not like to be judged. Since it is such a natural cycle then why be bothered about the judgements?

The Origin. 12/10/2006 08:05:00 pm

quotes

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true." - Dr. Meredith Grey from Grey's Anatomy

'How happy is the little Stone
That rambles in the Road alone,
And doesn't care about Careers
And Exigencies never fears-
Whose Coat of elemental Brown
A passing Universe put on,
And independent as the Sun
Associates or glows alone,
Fulfilling absolute Decree
In casual simplicity-' - How happy is the little Stone by Emily Dickinson

'This is your last chance.
After this, there is no turning back.
You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe.
You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.' - Morpheus, The Matrix

'The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence.
Not because you'll get it, but because you're doomed not to want it if you do.' - Unknown

'There are plenty of people with good intentions who take the wrong actions in the end' - Gundam Seed Destiny

'Life is no straight and easy corridor along
which we must seek our way,
lost and confused, now and again
checked in a blind alley.

But always, if we have faith,
a door will open for us,
not perhaps one that we ourselves
would ever have thought of,
but one that will ultimately
prove good for us.' - A.J.Cronin

"Every life has one true-love snapshot
Strangers are just family you have yet to come to know
No life is a waste.
The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone"

"A man can endure alot if he still has hope." - Clyde T. Ellis

" 'Appreciate It.' 2 simple words. A life span of gratitude." - Cinderella Man

"A boxer enters the ring alone. If knocked down, he alone could pick himself up and keep the fight going." - Cinderella Man

"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing you think you cannot do." - Eleanor Roosevelt

"Jame J. Braddock: I know this isn't what you wanted. But I can't win if you're not behind me.
Mae: I'm always behind you."

"People die in fairy tales all the time." - Max Baer, Cinderella Man

"Maybe sometimes people need to see someone do it so they can do it." - Father Rorick, Cinderella Man

"You always got ot figure you're not the best man in the world, there might be somebody better. That's the way it was. That's the way boxing is. The champion don't always stand up. There's always somebody coming up to take him. That's a part of life." - Jame J. Braddock

"If either man falls through weakness or otherwise, he must get up unassisted" - The Queensbury Rules, No. 4

"All men have fears, but the brave put down their fears and go forward, sometimes to death, but always to victory" - Motto of the King's Guard in Ancient Greece

"With each passing day in a good marriage, the love for your spouse grow stronger than the day before" - Cinderella Man

"I take responsibility" - President George W. Bush

"Sow a Thought, and you reap an Act;
Sow an Act, and you reap a Habit;
Sow a Habit, and you sow a Character;
Sow a Character, and you reap a Destiny." - Samuel Smiles

"Our doubts are traitors,
And make us lose the good we oft might win
By fearing to attempt - Shakespeare in Measure of Measure

"What does your heart tell you?" - Aragorn, LOTR

"To an outstretched hand we shall respond with an olive branch, but we shall fight fire with the harshest fire ever." - Israeli PM Ariel Sharon

"To deny our own impulses is to deny the very thing that makes us human. " - The Matrix

"Be without fear in the face of your enemies. Be brave and upright that God may love thee. Speak the truth, always, even if it leads to your death. Safeguard the helpless and do no wrong. That is your oath." - Balian of Ibelin, Kingdom of Heaven

"You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view... Until you climb inside of his skin and walk around in it." - Atticus Finch, To Kill A Mockingbird

"It is not our abilities that show what we truly are... it is our choices." - Dumbledore, Harry Potter

"Do not be too eager to deal out death in judgment. Even the very wise cannot see all ends." - Gandalf, LOTR

"Ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind. Or forgotten." - Lilo & Stitch

"Your heart is free. Have the courage to follow it." - Malcolm Wallace, Braveheart

"Every man dies, not every man really lives." - William Wallace, Braveheart

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