Saturday, February 17, 2007
I finished watching 'Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind' last night. Well.. I thought that it is a fairly nice show but somehow there isn't a strong 'interest' factor involved that hits me. I guess I understand the path down memory lane that Joel took and how people in that phase were just his memory constructs or how memories can be manipulated in a sense or people try to escape from their memories but sometimes it is their emotions/hearts that rule it all. But somehow it just lacks some sort of depth in it and I dun feel much about it.
In any case, I thought that Joel seemed remind me somewhat of myself in a sense. Essentially, I don't bother to explain in words. I don't explain my thoughts and plans to my family in details until I really have to. I don't bother to talk much about serious thoughts in everyday conversation. In fact, I crap more than half the time. And what do I do with some slightly more 'serious' thoughts? I pen them down here. okok I typed but you get the drift. Essentially, I feel that I am not selling myself to anybody and people might not be bothered with my thoughts anyway. So why bother going through the trouble to talking and probably bore everybody else?
This sense of slight nonchalant also spill over into some of my everyday thoughts. For example, I do not think critically about everything around, partly cuz I'm lazy but also because I think I have better things to mind than think critically about everything under the sun. Furthermore, even if I were to think critically about them, it is not going to change a thing about them. So why bother?
I am more concerned with what needs to be done and to do them.
On a separate note, I think maturity of thoughts is essential but more often than not, in my case at least, there seems to be a lack of balance and maturity became boring. Yet, the fun cases lack the sense of maturity. You don't get it? Don't bother about it.. haha.. stupid analogy...
The Origin. 2/17/2007 10:47:00 am