originality; cold-fire

Sunday, March 25, 2007

This might be a long entry cuz I have accumulated a few days worth of thoughts, and it might be challenging some stuffs.

First of all, I read a friend's blog entry regarding how she couldn't find what she want to do in life. I must admit that I have never been drawn into this whole theory of needing to know what you want to do in life and what your dream job is. Nonetheless, I still study because I have been so deceived by the system that I have always seen studying to be a part of life. Like breathing in the sense, you just do and not question. During my NS period, I have tried to search for a purpose. Ha.. I even turned to religion but I simply didn't feel the 'god' whom/that/which has been conveyed. It took me some time to finally realise (or at least I think I realised) I see a job as simply a job. What I want to do in life is simply to get out of this place. Or rather, to keep moving from places to places. Seeing and experiencing. A job is only a source of income for this. Thus what I want to do in life is not what my job is going to be.

Next, I vaguely recall a friend saying that after his/her (I forgot which fren) yep trip, he/she felt that there are people who can survive without money and stuffs, and that he/she thinks that we are too materialistic. Then, I kind of agreed with what he/she said. However, today, the views have changed. I found it to be a wee bit stupid to think of it this way cuz given here and now, we have the opportunities to live our lives on comfort, why not? I agree that our level of comfort here may be much higher than other places but what is the point of living when you do not get the best out of everything there is? Yet, I think this pt of view is just because I am too comfortable and protected that I choose try to maintain status quo in a sense.

On to another topic, the last things that one should say when people help you to do work like moving heavy stuffs (for free) are 'What do you guys get out of this?' and 'Have you guys considered being construction workers?'. I was a little bit stunned when I heard that and for the shortest moment I was pissed. Yet, I promptly ignored it the very next moment. Ok. I did not ignore the incident but I guess I ignored the person who said it and I ignore the anger that came associated with her. Or maybe I have been on an emotional roller-coaster ride for the whole week that I can't be bothered by her.

On a separate note, I think we are just kids who keeps whining about how others are better than ourselves, and so we discriminate against people who come all the way here to study. The fact is that they have so much at stake that they have to work doubly hard. They should not be the excuse for our failure. Take it as a challenge and move on. They are humans after all, what we see them doing is actually what we are doing but less obvious cuz we are so indoctrinated in it.

Next, an issue that have been bugging me is how there is a need to understand the girls you like and yet, girls have this kind of categorisation-of-guys-into-friends-or-possible-other-halves kind of thing going on.

I have also noticed one thing in a particular person. It is her subtleness in conveying what she wants to say. I guess I was subtly influenced by her. I eventually took a bit of initiative to do what I hope was right.

In addition, it is particularly disturbing when a guy tells you that he dreamt about you telling him that you are tanner. Either he is a bi (cuz he is attached) or I have been over-broadcasting about my recent attempt to get tan.

On Thursday, i decided to take a change of route by taking 188 to school. I cursed myself for this stupid decision as I missed 2 buses due to over-crowding. Yet, my mood was suddenly lifted when 4 cars knocked back to back right in front of me. I was simply amused by the coincidence of it all. There was no injuries other than damage on the cars.

There are also a certain number of misconceptions about me going on and on namely, I club often, I have god-knows-how-many-girlfriends-already, I'm not a Singaporean and I am stupid (The person who said this actually gave me an expected cap score. But I dun really care about this anyway)

finally,I wanted to say something about the thoughts I have from the USC productions but I kinda remember that I have repeated the same issue over and over again that I'll probably get sick of it in future when I look back at my entries. And I am sooo going to sleep.

(Staying over in somebody else's room in school is not the most comfortable thing but it does make more sense to do so.)

The Origin. 3/25/2007 01:34:00 am

quotes

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true." - Dr. Meredith Grey from Grey's Anatomy

'How happy is the little Stone
That rambles in the Road alone,
And doesn't care about Careers
And Exigencies never fears-
Whose Coat of elemental Brown
A passing Universe put on,
And independent as the Sun
Associates or glows alone,
Fulfilling absolute Decree
In casual simplicity-' - How happy is the little Stone by Emily Dickinson

'This is your last chance.
After this, there is no turning back.
You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe.
You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.' - Morpheus, The Matrix

'The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence.
Not because you'll get it, but because you're doomed not to want it if you do.' - Unknown

'There are plenty of people with good intentions who take the wrong actions in the end' - Gundam Seed Destiny

'Life is no straight and easy corridor along
which we must seek our way,
lost and confused, now and again
checked in a blind alley.

But always, if we have faith,
a door will open for us,
not perhaps one that we ourselves
would ever have thought of,
but one that will ultimately
prove good for us.' - A.J.Cronin

"Every life has one true-love snapshot
Strangers are just family you have yet to come to know
No life is a waste.
The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone"

"A man can endure alot if he still has hope." - Clyde T. Ellis

" 'Appreciate It.' 2 simple words. A life span of gratitude." - Cinderella Man

"A boxer enters the ring alone. If knocked down, he alone could pick himself up and keep the fight going." - Cinderella Man

"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing you think you cannot do." - Eleanor Roosevelt

"Jame J. Braddock: I know this isn't what you wanted. But I can't win if you're not behind me.
Mae: I'm always behind you."

"People die in fairy tales all the time." - Max Baer, Cinderella Man

"Maybe sometimes people need to see someone do it so they can do it." - Father Rorick, Cinderella Man

"You always got ot figure you're not the best man in the world, there might be somebody better. That's the way it was. That's the way boxing is. The champion don't always stand up. There's always somebody coming up to take him. That's a part of life." - Jame J. Braddock

"If either man falls through weakness or otherwise, he must get up unassisted" - The Queensbury Rules, No. 4

"All men have fears, but the brave put down their fears and go forward, sometimes to death, but always to victory" - Motto of the King's Guard in Ancient Greece

"With each passing day in a good marriage, the love for your spouse grow stronger than the day before" - Cinderella Man

"I take responsibility" - President George W. Bush

"Sow a Thought, and you reap an Act;
Sow an Act, and you reap a Habit;
Sow a Habit, and you sow a Character;
Sow a Character, and you reap a Destiny." - Samuel Smiles

"Our doubts are traitors,
And make us lose the good we oft might win
By fearing to attempt - Shakespeare in Measure of Measure

"What does your heart tell you?" - Aragorn, LOTR

"To an outstretched hand we shall respond with an olive branch, but we shall fight fire with the harshest fire ever." - Israeli PM Ariel Sharon

"To deny our own impulses is to deny the very thing that makes us human. " - The Matrix

"Be without fear in the face of your enemies. Be brave and upright that God may love thee. Speak the truth, always, even if it leads to your death. Safeguard the helpless and do no wrong. That is your oath." - Balian of Ibelin, Kingdom of Heaven

"You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view... Until you climb inside of his skin and walk around in it." - Atticus Finch, To Kill A Mockingbird

"It is not our abilities that show what we truly are... it is our choices." - Dumbledore, Harry Potter

"Do not be too eager to deal out death in judgment. Even the very wise cannot see all ends." - Gandalf, LOTR

"Ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind. Or forgotten." - Lilo & Stitch

"Your heart is free. Have the courage to follow it." - Malcolm Wallace, Braveheart

"Every man dies, not every man really lives." - William Wallace, Braveheart

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