originality; cold-fire

Thursday, September 20, 2007

I came to a conclusion as to why some people think that I look like I have a CAP of 2.5 or that I sometimes sound more rational than I look. The first level of reasoning is that I have the 'what the hell am I doing here' kind of look when I'm in school. Then to a deeper reasoning is that I don't only have that look when I'm in school. I have it on most of the time and it is just that at other times, some other expressions take over.

I think it has something to do with my views about life, which is essentially nothing. Frankly, I don't see much meaning in life. I mean we come, we live and we die. It is just a cycle we are in. Religion is simply a form of escapism by justifying an end and giving life meaning. This, we can never really prove until we get there. (sorry to all the religious people out there!)

So why don't I just die now and escape this cycle, this mundane lifestyle? Well.. Let's say you are in France for a tour by yourself. For some reason, you do not really have a need to get to anywhere else or complete anything after your trip, just simply that you go home at the end of your trip. You bought a train ticket to get from Grenoble to Annecy. Somewhere along you missed your stop and the next stop is Geneva in Switzerland. (This incident of missing the stop actually happened when I was in France). Obviously you have no choice but to alight in Geneva, where you haven't been to. Since you don't really have to rush to anywhere, why not just stay in Geneva for a while longer and see how things go? It is the same case. We are all just going to reach the state of death at the end anyway. Why not just stay here and see how things go? Ha.. It is one of my rare attempts in doing an analogy.

On a separate note, we are as real as we can get in our daily interactions with one another. Or rather, we try to be so. However, there is just 'one inch' of you that you never really share with others. You do not really go around telling people about the issues, the thoughts or the feelings that are encompassed within this inch.

They can consist of anything actually. Your view on life, death, love, the world, people around you, what pisses you off, how much you love somebody etc. And it really depends on who you are, what you are and how you are at any point in time. For example, maybe you are in such an 'emo' state that you just let everything out or maybe you really want to share this precious inch with somebody you want to or know you can trust.

The thing is even without sharing these, you are still the real you. Maybe the incomplete you but essentially you are still as real as you can get. It is not about hypocrisy, just that maybe you are afraid of being vulnerable in front of others or for whatever reasons. It is that one inch of you that you hold true in some sense (although these may change). Me.. I will share I guess if the opportunity comes, which it rarely does. I don't really care how others view me, just the views of who is important. Sigh.. Which may be a reason why I am forever tensed up in front of gals I like.

Finally, here's a duet by Leann Rimes and Bon Jovi - Till We Ain't Strangers Anymore. I thought it to be rather nice. I posted 2 links below one is the full life version while the other has a short clip on Bon Jovi talking about the song. Something I like about Bon Jovi's ballads (after the album Crush) is that they have a strong element of being about 'you', the lover. The lyric are simple in that they are not trying too hard to say how love is so great and they are about 'you' in many sense. I think they make love so simple and nice. oh well.. Here are the links and the lyrics.

1) Till We Ain't Strangers Anymore (Live)
2) Till We Ain't Strangers Anymore (Interview)
3) Lyrics

It might be hard to be lovers
But its harder to be friends
Baby pull down the covers
Its time you let me in
Maybe light a couple candles
Ill just go ahead and lock the door
If you just talk to me baby
Til we aint strangers anymore

Lay your head on my pillow
I sit beside you on the bed
Dont you think its time we say
Some things we havent said
It aint too late to get back to that place
Back to where, we thought it was before
Why dont you look at me
Til we aint strangers anymore

Sometimes its hard to love me
Sometimes its hard to love you too
I know its hard believing
That love can pull us through
It would be so easy
To live your life

With one foot out the door
Just hold me baby
Til we aint strangers anymore

[Solo]

Its hard to find forgivness
When we just run out of lies
Its hard to say youre sorry
When you cant tell wrong from right
It would be so easy
To spend your whole damn life
Just keeping score
So lets get down to it baby
There aint no need to lie

Tell me who you think you see
When you look into my eyes
Lets put our two hearts back together
And we'll leave the broken pieces on the floor
Make love with me baby
Til we aint strangers anymore

We're not strangers anymore
We're not strangers
We're not strangers anymore

The Origin. 9/20/2007 10:41:00 pm

quotes

"You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true." - Dr. Meredith Grey from Grey's Anatomy

'How happy is the little Stone
That rambles in the Road alone,
And doesn't care about Careers
And Exigencies never fears-
Whose Coat of elemental Brown
A passing Universe put on,
And independent as the Sun
Associates or glows alone,
Fulfilling absolute Decree
In casual simplicity-' - How happy is the little Stone by Emily Dickinson

'This is your last chance.
After this, there is no turning back.
You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe.
You take the red pill - you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit-hole goes.' - Morpheus, The Matrix

'The grass is always greener on the other side of the fence.
Not because you'll get it, but because you're doomed not to want it if you do.' - Unknown

'There are plenty of people with good intentions who take the wrong actions in the end' - Gundam Seed Destiny

'Life is no straight and easy corridor along
which we must seek our way,
lost and confused, now and again
checked in a blind alley.

But always, if we have faith,
a door will open for us,
not perhaps one that we ourselves
would ever have thought of,
but one that will ultimately
prove good for us.' - A.J.Cronin

"Every life has one true-love snapshot
Strangers are just family you have yet to come to know
No life is a waste.
The only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone"

"A man can endure alot if he still has hope." - Clyde T. Ellis

" 'Appreciate It.' 2 simple words. A life span of gratitude." - Cinderella Man

"A boxer enters the ring alone. If knocked down, he alone could pick himself up and keep the fight going." - Cinderella Man

"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing you think you cannot do." - Eleanor Roosevelt

"Jame J. Braddock: I know this isn't what you wanted. But I can't win if you're not behind me.
Mae: I'm always behind you."

"People die in fairy tales all the time." - Max Baer, Cinderella Man

"Maybe sometimes people need to see someone do it so they can do it." - Father Rorick, Cinderella Man

"You always got ot figure you're not the best man in the world, there might be somebody better. That's the way it was. That's the way boxing is. The champion don't always stand up. There's always somebody coming up to take him. That's a part of life." - Jame J. Braddock

"If either man falls through weakness or otherwise, he must get up unassisted" - The Queensbury Rules, No. 4

"All men have fears, but the brave put down their fears and go forward, sometimes to death, but always to victory" - Motto of the King's Guard in Ancient Greece

"With each passing day in a good marriage, the love for your spouse grow stronger than the day before" - Cinderella Man

"I take responsibility" - President George W. Bush

"Sow a Thought, and you reap an Act;
Sow an Act, and you reap a Habit;
Sow a Habit, and you sow a Character;
Sow a Character, and you reap a Destiny." - Samuel Smiles

"Our doubts are traitors,
And make us lose the good we oft might win
By fearing to attempt - Shakespeare in Measure of Measure

"What does your heart tell you?" - Aragorn, LOTR

"To an outstretched hand we shall respond with an olive branch, but we shall fight fire with the harshest fire ever." - Israeli PM Ariel Sharon

"To deny our own impulses is to deny the very thing that makes us human. " - The Matrix

"Be without fear in the face of your enemies. Be brave and upright that God may love thee. Speak the truth, always, even if it leads to your death. Safeguard the helpless and do no wrong. That is your oath." - Balian of Ibelin, Kingdom of Heaven

"You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view... Until you climb inside of his skin and walk around in it." - Atticus Finch, To Kill A Mockingbird

"It is not our abilities that show what we truly are... it is our choices." - Dumbledore, Harry Potter

"Do not be too eager to deal out death in judgment. Even the very wise cannot see all ends." - Gandalf, LOTR

"Ohana means family, family means nobody gets left behind. Or forgotten." - Lilo & Stitch

"Your heart is free. Have the courage to follow it." - Malcolm Wallace, Braveheart

"Every man dies, not every man really lives." - William Wallace, Braveheart

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