Sunday, September 02, 2007
"In a mist of all the noises and happy-chaos happening around, I felt a need t0 stop and appreciate the scene, the sight, the atmosphere, the beauty and of course, the noise. Maybe it was after a chaotic (truly) day - my mom scolded me first thing in the morning, had to go over to Hollandse Club for preparation of D&D in 1/2 a bad mood, having an evening with a number of screw-ups here and there, and not having opportunities to speak to ...I digressed. The point is that I tried to 'create' a small little area of tranquility in the function room. Just find somebody with the same boring mind as I have to simply stand and adsorb everything that was going on. It is something like sipping a cup of coffee on the sidewalks, just to watch the day past and the people go."This was the entry that I tried to write after D&D last night. I got home at 2 and wanted to write it all out but tiredness gave in. And I spent the whole of today catching up with my studies. I'm almost on track. I could try to continue now but I'm in too foul a mood to write something like that.
My mom is in a scolding-kenneth mood over this weekend. The thing is I know why she is scolding me and I have tried to calm her down by reassuring her. The damn reason is that I have been out and around a lot and I obviously have not been studying. I know myself and I have already taken into account 3 weeks of behind the tracks when I took on D&D. I know I have to catch up the moment D&D is over and I am doing it. It is very irritating that she doesn't trust me and that she keeps going on and on despite my assurance. Bloody hell. To top it off, this is not what she usually does when she sense that I am slacking. She used to simply talk to me but she is scolding me now. That's what irritating. It is not about the scolding, nor about her being anal about what I do but where the problem lies, she doesn't trust me to decide and study. Not only that she can't trust me to enough to sit down and talk sense to me.
Have I not done enough to gain that bit of trust?
The Origin. 9/02/2007 02:26:00 am