Thursday, December 11, 2008
I sort of saw a man died today. He died in his office. I was on level 2 when I heard so people saying that the man was in trouble. As I proceeded up to level 3 to fulfill my own purpose, I went past his office. He was sitting/resting on his chair. There were people around, looking. I could only see the back of the chair due to the man's small built. 15-20 mins later as I walked back down the path again, the paramedics were there and were carrying him out of the office. I later received an email informing that he passed away.
There were a million and one thoughts surrounding this incident. As I was minding my own business, I couldn't help but notice the number of people who stood around watching as they waited for the ambulance to arrive. Then I wondered, would it be better or more humane to have stood there amongst the rest and watch on but unable to do anything at all, and was it selfishness that makes one mind their own business while somebody was dying less than 5 mins away? On the other hand, what is the point of standing there and looking when one is essentially of no help? I think that standing there would essentially give rise to a different set of questions from what I am asking now.
Further to this, I also wondered if he died happy. Satisfied that he had live his life the way he wanted? Fulfilled his dream maybe? The thing is that we never really know these. Words are formed by the living for the dead. I often wonder when people write "He/She was a happy person.", did they really know that the deceased were happy? What if the deceased didn't like any of the words that his/her relatives chose for him/her?
Then there is the question, "Should I feel remorse like what some of my friends are expressing to me?" Like shocking etc. I don't. I had thought and still thinks that a good man had died but this is essentially part of the cycle. There is nothing to be shocked about and frankly, I don't feel close to him enough to feel sadness. Then again, I really wonder with I would feel sadness should somebody close pass on.......
The Origin. 12/11/2008 10:28:00 pm