Monday, April 13, 2009
For a brief moment in time, I thought that they had returned. The small little desires of wanting to be with somebody, the willingness to take the chance and the capability to give. I thought that they had returned but well they haven't. They simply popped by and left, as with the brief impulses of infatuation that I have encountered before. Only now, they left a void. A void that I am so willing to fill up with many other things but them again.
While the common view is that I am not over it, I think that I am in fact over it. Now is simply the phase of disappointment that is natural after so many years of anticipation. A friend puts it this way, 'Before getting into a r/s, I always thought that it would be a nice thing.....' After getting into one, it is just that.
Or rather, I have in fact been over the disappointment phase. Now, having been through all these. It is natural to not want to be in one right?
I think these sounds weird in some sense. It is more of the awkward phrasing and stuff. The truth is that I am simply looking for an explanation for my behavior, feelings or lack of. I think that I am just looking for simplicity here.
The Origin. 4/13/2009 04:03:00 am